Mental Health and Suicide

[CoffeeHorse]

Yesterday was the 1 year mark. I think I'm holding up as well as anyone reasonably could.

On a happy note, neighbors brought me food again tonight. ^_^ This neighborhood is full of people who know what happened here. I haven't been alone.

 

[CoffeeHorse]

This week I finally got one of my dad's banks to cough up the money.

What, did you think any of this was resolved? No. I'm still running around dealing with lawyers and banks and accountants and the IRS trying to get anything done. The whole estate fell on my shoulders, and it's been a nightmare for over a year now.

But I'm winning.

 

[CoffeeHorse]

I love my neighbors. So much.

 

[Caldwin]

?

 

[wonko the sane?]

I think it relates to his neighbors remembering his fathers passing, and just being there for him like good neighbors should.

 

[CoffeeHorse]

And they keep bringing me food. Delicious food.

I'm not doing that bad a job feeding myself, but it's a morale boost, you know?

 

[CoffeeHorse]

I love my neighbors.

 

[Axaday]

I love your neighbors too.

 

[CoffeeHorse]

This would be a lot harder without them. I don't have any family that lives around here anymore. I could be all alone right now. But I'm not.

Get to know your neighborhood. Community still matters.

 

[CoffeeHorse]

Today was supposed to be a major hearing and I have zero information on how it went, or if it even happened. I am so sick of this.

 

[CoffeeHorse]

Wish me luck today.

 

[wonko the sane?]

Good luck cousin!

 

[MEDdMI]

May the powers of Disney Princess be with you.

 

[Cybersnark]

Good luck!

 

[CoffeeHorse]

It was a long day. Not the longest day of my life, but it's in the top ten.

It wasn't related to my dad's estate. I've been dealing with other legal problems. I'll talk about it someday but I don't know if I'm ready yet.

It doesn't matter though. I won.

 

[Rhinox]

That's the important thing. Congrats on your victory.

 

[wonko the sane?]

A long time ago: I had to teach myself the difference between a long day, and a bad day. Just because it was a hard day (long hours, miserable conditions, hard work, ect.) doesn't mean it was a bad day.

You won, so it's a good day.

 

[CoffeeHorse]

And the AC immediately breaks on a Friday.

Could the lizards running this simulation please lower the difficulty setting? I'm handling it, but this is uncalled for.

 

[CoffeeHorse]

I love my neighbors.

 

[CoffeeHorse]

So, chemical dependence is a thing. Your body adapts to function in the presence of something, and forgets how to function without it if you quit cold turkey.

Does this include stress? I'm tired of stress. I don't want any more stress. But whenever I get a heavy load of work done and I think I might be able to relax for a bit, I feel a crash instead. It doesn't feel like proper relaxation. It is an unpleasant crash. Brain fogs up. Clock slows down. I start itching to find something to do next, but get too foggy to pick something.