Is there any other kind of victory?
Mental Health and Suicide
- Thread starter Caldwin
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I am ready for the peace that all true warriors strive for.
I am the happiest person who ever lived.
I finally got my letter. It is indeed very threatening as expected. It says I'm in violation and need to appear before a magistrate. This would be quite scary if I didn't already have confirmation that the case is closed and the hearing is canceled.
For some reason they sent me two copies. Fun. I'm going to throw one copy in the trash as hard as I can without the paper going *fwap* and flying all over the place. I'm thinking I'll get the other copy framed as a trophy. I knew this was going to be resolved before the hearing, but to have it resolved before they could manage to mail the letter is priceless.
For some reason they sent me two copies. Fun. I'm going to throw one copy in the trash as hard as I can without the paper going *fwap* and flying all over the place. I'm thinking I'll get the other copy framed as a trophy. I knew this was going to be resolved before the hearing, but to have it resolved before they could manage to mail the letter is priceless.
Turns out that sandwich was in fact multigrain.
At least I didn't keep it for very long.
At least I didn't keep it for very long.
I was very nearly in a car accident today. not an unusual event as I spend my days at work driving through KC, but this was different.
Was on K40, the backroad from Lawrence to Topeka. Shawnee Heights Road intersection. A 55 mph 2 lane highway t juncture. I was heading west, a nice car with dad and his 2 daughters heading east. Dad slows and almost fully stops to turn on Shawnee Heights Road. The silverado behind him, doing about 65, did not. Guy admitted he'd been on his phone and looked up just in time. I was at the intersection, heading west at 55. Truck guy makes eye contact with me as he starts the dodging swerve into my lane. I was in my 97 Mercury Grand Marquis. At 55, we'd have both died, but I'd have gone through him like tissue paper. Eye contact, he shakes his head and swerves back, striking the car square in the ass.
They go flying, past the intersection, spinning around and into the ditch. Truck guy keeps going forward, but his truck is totaled.
I park, go running down and find the two daughters hurt, but okay. But dad can't move. Car is open enough he could climb out. But he couldn't feel his legs any more.
Cops show up and I go to the top of the hill west (because of course the T junction is in a valley) and start waving down cars to get them to slow down. More and more cops. An ambulance and fire. They pull him out, bundle him off and he's off to the races in the ambulance. Still screaming he can't feel his legs or move them.
I give my statement and leave.
Guy in the truck apparently has no insurance. His ex wife for some reason showed up and began screaming at him and had to be told to leave by state troopers. The two girls are in shock, hurt and scared for their dad.
I gave a statement and left.
Was on K40, the backroad from Lawrence to Topeka. Shawnee Heights Road intersection. A 55 mph 2 lane highway t juncture. I was heading west, a nice car with dad and his 2 daughters heading east. Dad slows and almost fully stops to turn on Shawnee Heights Road. The silverado behind him, doing about 65, did not. Guy admitted he'd been on his phone and looked up just in time. I was at the intersection, heading west at 55. Truck guy makes eye contact with me as he starts the dodging swerve into my lane. I was in my 97 Mercury Grand Marquis. At 55, we'd have both died, but I'd have gone through him like tissue paper. Eye contact, he shakes his head and swerves back, striking the car square in the ass.
They go flying, past the intersection, spinning around and into the ditch. Truck guy keeps going forward, but his truck is totaled.
I park, go running down and find the two daughters hurt, but okay. But dad can't move. Car is open enough he could climb out. But he couldn't feel his legs any more.
Cops show up and I go to the top of the hill west (because of course the T junction is in a valley) and start waving down cars to get them to slow down. More and more cops. An ambulance and fire. They pull him out, bundle him off and he's off to the races in the ambulance. Still screaming he can't feel his legs or move them.
I give my statement and leave.
Guy in the truck apparently has no insurance. His ex wife for some reason showed up and began screaming at him and had to be told to leave by state troopers. The two girls are in shock, hurt and scared for their dad.
I gave a statement and left.
Got diagnosed with ADHD today. Really feeling totally ******* numb about the whole thing, to be honest. All that wasted time being an unrecognised sufferer!
Suspected I had it back in 2007-8, but put it to the back of my mind as I gave up on getting checked out on it as an adult. Then last year I heard about Right to Choose, a route available on the NHS (in England only, not the rest of the UK), with adult referrals available. I waited just under 5 months from convincing my GP to refer me to getting a clinical assessment three weeks ago. Now I have to go on a 12-18 months waiting list for access to the medication specialist, which is not particularly great news.
Suspected I had it back in 2007-8, but put it to the back of my mind as I gave up on getting checked out on it as an adult. Then last year I heard about Right to Choose, a route available on the NHS (in England only, not the rest of the UK), with adult referrals available. I waited just under 5 months from convincing my GP to refer me to getting a clinical assessment three weeks ago. Now I have to go on a 12-18 months waiting list for access to the medication specialist, which is not particularly great news.
I mean... at least you know. You're making progress. Doesn't matter if it's late, at least it's happening.
Knowing is great. You already had it anyway. Knowing just means you can do something about it.
True, just wish I didn’t have to wait at least 18 months to see a doctor to discuss medication and other options…
You could what we do in quebec.
Self medicate very badly, cause a crisis, get hospitalized, and BAM! 6 months to see a doctor instead of 18.
Self medicate very badly, cause a crisis, get hospitalized, and BAM! 6 months to see a doctor instead of 18.
Around here you basically have to attempt suicide in public to get seen by a real psychiatrist.
So I happened upon a tool I thought I'd share.
I wrote a book.
Now don't worry. I'm not mass publishing it due to some music lyrics that could open me up to copyright issues. So this isn't a sales pitch. Pretty sure that would be against board TOS anyway.
But in any case, it was a great catharsis. And no, I'm not talking about page after page of ranting and venting (though that's also a valid tool). This was just a story, completely fictional psychological fantasy novel.
But is was deeply psychological. It dealt with a lot of issues. It was a catharsis just writing that.
But past simply writing it, there was also the process where I actually went through the editing process (even though I knew I couldn't mass publish it due to copyright issues, I still wanted to make it so I could print a few copies for select few friends and family).
The process of editing, and later using the Co-Pilot app to do deep dives into various parts of the novel, I was forced to really give a good look at what I wrote. When I really went through it, really paid attention to what I'd written, I discovered things, things I had been dealing with, that I didn't even consciously realize I was dealing with. It really put some things in front of me. And realizing some of these things, I was at least able to acknowledge them if not directly tackle them.
And it doesn't matter if you're not exactly confident in your writing abilities. If all it does is stay on your hard drive and you're the only one who ever sees it, having it down on the screen where you can look at it, read it, deep dives into it...it can be a surprisingly useful tool.
I wrote a book.
Now don't worry. I'm not mass publishing it due to some music lyrics that could open me up to copyright issues. So this isn't a sales pitch. Pretty sure that would be against board TOS anyway.
But in any case, it was a great catharsis. And no, I'm not talking about page after page of ranting and venting (though that's also a valid tool). This was just a story, completely fictional psychological fantasy novel.
But is was deeply psychological. It dealt with a lot of issues. It was a catharsis just writing that.
But past simply writing it, there was also the process where I actually went through the editing process (even though I knew I couldn't mass publish it due to copyright issues, I still wanted to make it so I could print a few copies for select few friends and family).
The process of editing, and later using the Co-Pilot app to do deep dives into various parts of the novel, I was forced to really give a good look at what I wrote. When I really went through it, really paid attention to what I'd written, I discovered things, things I had been dealing with, that I didn't even consciously realize I was dealing with. It really put some things in front of me. And realizing some of these things, I was at least able to acknowledge them if not directly tackle them.
And it doesn't matter if you're not exactly confident in your writing abilities. If all it does is stay on your hard drive and you're the only one who ever sees it, having it down on the screen where you can look at it, read it, deep dives into it...it can be a surprisingly useful tool.
Roof just sprung a leak. There goes December's budget.
How bad is it, sometimes you can just patch it yourself for pretty cheap. Also if you have had bad snow and winds, sometimes its just coming in under the roof vents, and not a true leak.
Just a drip. The location is promising. It's a former carport that got enclosed at some point, so the line where it meets the rest of the house is an obvious place to check for failure. So if I don't find anything above the leak, I will scour that line up and down. If I don't find anything, that's going to suck. But there's a very reasonable hope that I'll find something within the obvious search range.
I found it. Just a crack. There's no flex in the surrounding material, even with me standing on it. So I'll get some stuff and patch it myself.
The hardest part is going to be getting the bucket of stuff up there. My ladder is not tall enough, so I had to climb a palm tree the rest of the way.
The hardest part is going to be getting the bucket of stuff up there. My ladder is not tall enough, so I had to climb a palm tree the rest of the way.