Mental Health and Suicide
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I'm constantly updating so many people that I keep forgetting to update this thread. Sorry.
Today was a good day. Late last night his appetite came back. I mean roaringly came back. He ate really well all day and kept it all down.
Chemo is rough but we were prepared for much worse. This is doable.
Today was a good day. Late last night his appetite came back. I mean roaringly came back. He ate really well all day and kept it all down.
Chemo is rough but we were prepared for much worse. This is doable.
If it keeps going like this I'm going to need to find a different thread to post these updates in.
I'm having a paradox.
I feel alone. This is weird with all I've been doing these past few months. I have never had less alone time in my adult life. Yet I feel more alone. It's also weird because everything seems to be going so well. I couldn't be more optimistic. But there's this creeping feeling of loneliness for seemingly no reason.
I feel alone. This is weird with all I've been doing these past few months. I have never had less alone time in my adult life. Yet I feel more alone. It's also weird because everything seems to be going so well. I couldn't be more optimistic. But there's this creeping feeling of loneliness for seemingly no reason.
Another chemo week is ongoing. He's gained weight. The oncologist will be pleased.
He's doing well. Unfortunately I have "help" this week. He will not survive if I leave him alone with this help.
He seems to have recovered from this round of chemo already. His appetite was ferocious all day. We didn't expect this until at least tomorrow, maybe Monday.
Physically and mentally: he WILL adapt to the chemo and his rebound period will shorten. The trade off is: it might take more than a year for him to get back to "normal" once he's OFF the chemo. Mom still has low days and it's been more almost two years since her regimen. They are fewer and farther between, but they do happen.
We'll take it. The hospital thought this was already over the day they admitted him.
I have a job interview tomorrow. During a chemo week. It's awful timing. It's going to be a miracle if I'm prepared for this and it feels like I've already used up my share of miracles here. And if I get the job I could be set for life. No pressure.
NO PRESSURE.
NO PRESSURE.
Hey.
You got this.
Go kick ass and take names.
You got this.
Go kick ass and take names.
They'll remember me.
Might be hard to forget an actual modern-day Cryptid walking into their office. 
Good luck on your interview, Fnu. We're all over here cheering for you.
Good luck on your interview, Fnu. We're all over here cheering for you.