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@  TheMightyMol... : (16 July 2019 - 05:46 PM)

Aww, shucks.

@  TriBlurr : (16 July 2019 - 05:45 PM)

Not till I taste the corn

@  Kalidor : (16 July 2019 - 05:43 PM)

You guys aren't being very nice. You're supposed to tell me I did "good, really good!"

@  TheMightyMol... : (16 July 2019 - 05:40 PM)

Just don't go beyond the rows.

@  Patch : (16 July 2019 - 05:39 PM)

Left over from the failed Beast Machines sequel, Beast Farmers

@  Patch : (16 July 2019 - 05:39 PM)

It's techno-organic corn

@  TriBlurr : (16 July 2019 - 05:26 PM)

We have a cornfield? Can I get a few ears?

@  Kalidor : (16 July 2019 - 12:56 PM)

And lastly, if it becomes too much hassle to deal with - it might just get sent into the cornfield and replaced with a Discord box anyway. So cool it.

@  Kalidor : (16 July 2019 - 12:55 PM)

Second thing is we do actually have the ability to ban users specifically from using Shoutbox if it's being abused like that

@  Kalidor : (16 July 2019 - 12:55 PM)

Hey all - just a reminder and heads up. The Shoutbox has been kept here as a courtesy because it's what you folks like in lieu of Discord - but a few things to remember is that P&R should stay in P&R and isn't really something that needs to be dragged out here in the most public of spaces.

@  Nevermore : (16 July 2019 - 11:04 AM)

Done.

@  NotVeryKnightly : (16 July 2019 - 10:25 AM)

You can make a new one. I doubt anybody would stop you.

@  Nevermore : (16 July 2019 - 10:16 AM)

There was a thread but it appears to have disappeared. Might have been lost in one of the older forum sweeps.

@  NotVeryKnightly : (16 July 2019 - 09:58 AM)

Yeah this is pretty much circumventing the fact that we have different rules for political talk.

@  fourteenwings : (16 July 2019 - 09:55 AM)

Okay, so, basically, can we not do politics in here anymore? I mean, considering how often @Nevermore, you talk about your work conditions, don't you think it's time for a dedicated thread in P&R?

@  unluckiness : (16 July 2019 - 09:39 AM)

Scratch that; that's insulting to honest salads. Whatever that was was the text equivalent of hamburger.

@  unluckiness : (16 July 2019 - 09:38 AM)

Would you like some dressing to go with your word salad?

@  Paladin : (16 July 2019 - 09:34 AM)

yes; it now goes "shit piss hug *BLEEP* ^$@^ motherhuger **** turd fart encyclopedia & Socialism."

@  unluckiness : (16 July 2019 - 09:24 AM)

This is an American site, but isn't that unnecessarily severe language? IIRC it's one of the top four offensive pejoratives to English people

@  SHIELD Agent 47 : (16 July 2019 - 08:52 AM)

It's amusing how so many (U.S.) wankers in this world love to whine "capitalism good socialism bad!" in the abstract while simultaneously pretending that megacorporations dominating de facto monopolies is anathema to the core capitalistic principle of competition benefits everyone.

@  unluckiness : (16 July 2019 - 05:17 AM)

I know Shockwave's super mode is pretty lame and Magnus is kinda greebly but it's not that bad.

@  TM2-Megatron : (16 July 2019 - 12:38 AM)

Though with the luck and caliber of leaders we've had of late in the darkest timeline, maybe it's too much to hope for.

@  TM2-Megatron : (16 July 2019 - 12:36 AM)

Just like democracy, it's not perfect but better than the present alternatives. Capitalism as it's practiced today won't be able to weather the coming wave of automation, though. Best to plan for it and hope for a gentle transition rather than the aforementioned collapse

@  unluckiness : (16 July 2019 - 12:27 AM)

Capitalism is the worst amiright? Sent from my iPhone

@  Vexwing : (15 July 2019 - 11:24 PM)

Because the collapse is gonna be just great.

@  TM2-Megatron : (15 July 2019 - 10:41 PM)

Let's hope this is late stage and we're on the cusp of something better.

@  abates : (15 July 2019 - 09:45 PM)

Late stage capitalism is the absolute best.

@  TheMightyMol... : (15 July 2019 - 01:33 PM)

So, welcome to all retail, everywhere.

@  Nevermore : (15 July 2019 - 01:24 PM)

Oh, and Greenpeace also conducted a protest at a German Amazon facility, to protest against Amazon's practice of throwing customer returns in the trash.

@  Nevermore : (15 July 2019 - 01:17 PM)

Right, because with Amazon, it's just the employees that have to step in dog shit while having no space to breathe.[/slightexaggeration]

@  Tm_Silverclaw : (15 July 2019 - 01:03 PM)

At least I can use Amazon without losing the ability to breath or step in dog shit.

@  RichardT1977 : (15 July 2019 - 12:58 PM)

Considering that Amazon is the new Walmart...

@  Nevermore : (15 July 2019 - 12:39 PM)

All of my best wishes go out to the brave women and men who have the balls (and ovaries) to go on strike at an Amazon facility in the US.

@  Nevermore : (15 July 2019 - 12:38 PM)

Speaking of. Not only are we in Germany on strike today, but so is the fulfillment center in Shakopee, Minnesota!

@  TheMightyMol... : (15 July 2019 - 12:36 PM)

Overnight delivery is the right of all sentient beings.

@  RichardT1977 : (15 July 2019 - 12:34 PM)

(and is it sexist of me to assume that a character named "Amazon Prime" would be feminine?)

@  RichardT1977 : (15 July 2019 - 12:34 PM)

Whenever she was summoned, she would arrive the next day?

@  NotVeryKnightly : (15 July 2019 - 12:32 PM)

The Scioli and Barber TF vs Joe series mentioned an Amazon Prime.

@  RichardT1977 : (15 July 2019 - 12:22 PM)

Meanwhile I'm wondering why no one's come up with a fan character named "Amazon Prime". I mean, today IS her special day...

@  TheMightyMol... : (15 July 2019 - 11:20 AM)

The Wallet-Eater.

@  unluckiness : (15 July 2019 - 08:44 AM)

Woah. Unicron broke the site.

@  MEDdMI : (14 July 2019 - 10:08 PM)

Is that what kids are calling it these days?

@  TheMightyMol... : (14 July 2019 - 07:33 PM)

Ssshh, you'll get us both "dealt with".

@  RichardT1977 : (14 July 2019 - 07:28 PM)

No, but I did *read* it from you...

@  TheMightyMol... : (14 July 2019 - 03:06 PM)

The first real long-term space outposts belong to the Illuminati, but you didn't hear that from me.

@  RichardT1977 : (14 July 2019 - 02:50 PM)

Er, in SF I mean.

@  RichardT1977 : (14 July 2019 - 02:50 PM)

Yeah, the first long-term manned space outposts have traditionally been mining colonies and the like.

@  TheMightyMol... : (14 July 2019 - 12:19 PM)

Okay, but......do they have to be willing to be sent up?

@  Rycochet : (14 July 2019 - 11:10 AM)

A king isn't a king without subjects.

@  Rycochet : (14 July 2019 - 11:09 AM)

The rich will never flee to space until there's enough an underclass up there so they have someone to do all the jobs they won't. Same reason seasteading never takes off.


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#161 HomelessOne

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Posted 18 March 2019 - 11:36 AM

Just echoing. Be sure to note if you start experiencing side effects, but don't sweat the list of them too much. I believe they're required to list any that they've discovered but that doesn't mean you're guaranteed to suffer a fraction of them, if any. As Stephanie says, talk with your doctor if necessary after the initial adjustment period.


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Posted 18 March 2019 - 10:45 PM

Every medication has a laundry list of side effects attached to it.

 

I know from the pharmacy work I do that it's required by law (and due ethical diligence) that we make our patients aware of the possible side effects, but some are very rare reactions, which most people never have to worry about. It's still good to know about them, though, since that way you can hopefully catch anything nasty before it goes too far, but the best thing is to just take it as prescribed and keep an eye out.

 

If you're really worried, you can ask your doctor/pharmacist for what the most common side effects are. Our pharmacist will usually boil down the list to the ones she most often hears people complain about, if someone asks.

 

You can also ask the internet, but, you know, that's a bit less reliable.


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Posted 19 March 2019 - 08:42 AM

In my experience the most common side-effect I've experienced is weight gain, and this is from someone who has tried just about everything out there. I could go up or down 50 lbs depending on what I was taking.


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Posted 19 March 2019 - 08:56 AM

Will be doing 4 days this week. Mon, Wed, Thur, half shifts 4 hours. Yesterday was the first.

 

Thrown right in at the deep end, left to do the worse job with basically no support.

 

Yay...



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Posted 22 March 2019 - 11:12 PM

I just switched medications a month ago and I could be wrong, but it looks like there was a side effect I wasn't even aware of that I noticed is no longer an issue.  It was a nice surprise when I figured out what was going on.  So don't be afraid to switch things up if something isn't quite right.



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Posted 28 March 2019 - 02:54 AM

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Posted 28 March 2019 - 04:51 AM

That comic sums up how I felt exactly. Thanks.
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Posted 11 April 2019 - 04:38 PM

Well, I guess a bit of an update is in order. I wasn't sure where to post this since some of my melt-downy moments were in here, some were in the Transgender thread and some were in my AMA thread over in Mayhem. But this was kind of the umbrella thing for my issues.

Even if you don't go into the Transgender thread, I'm sure you could tell by the fact that my screen name went from Caldwin to Jennifer to Stephanie that I was questioning myself in quite a few different areas in my life. I feel like it was less of a thing that I wanted to become a girl and more a thing that I wanted to be anybody but myself.

What helped a lot was that I had a few really long talks with my mother. I told her about some things that happened in school, about being bi, and other things that have happened in my life. And it was amazing how just doing that really lifted a lot of the weight off my shoulders.

I'm on prozac now and I've been feeling really great lately. I've actually been happy, and not just because of the Prozac, but because I think I've actually managed to work through some things. And the fact that now my mother knows some of the things I've been keeping to myself for so, so long...it's just such a world of weight that's been taken off of me.

My therapist has really helped me to deal with a lot of my guilt issues. We've even extended the visits from every other week to now being once a month.

I'm feeling better than I have in years. Like the comic above said, I've been living with the sadness for so long, I forgot how good I could feel being me.

So, just putting it out there, a few months ago I had a plan for suicide because I hated myself and I didn't see things ever getting better. Now, I feel so much healthier. For once, there's actually hope!
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Posted 12 April 2019 - 11:06 AM

ive eseentially given my friends and family a 6 month ultimatum. If i never get the use of my foot back, and this pain never changes or subsides...im tapping out. i cannot and will not live like this. the ammount of steps involved in simply getting out of the house are crazy. what ive gotta do to take a shower, and how much its gonna hurt are crazy.

 

earlier this week i could walk a little over 200ft, and then the pain in my foot/leg spiked and changed and now i can barely get to the bathroom...and when I do get there, the pain is so bad I cant go.

 

What im living through has thoroughly broken me...I cant even contain my anger anymore...the slightest disappointment and I completely lose my shit. I cant even count how many times ive told off my mother for calling an Ambulance and "saving my life".

 

I just don't know how much ive got in me after all this to hold on and keep fighting.


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Posted 12 April 2019 - 11:43 AM

Is amputation an option? If getting rid of the foot would get rid of the pain, would that be an acceptable compromise?


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Posted 12 April 2019 - 01:20 PM

unfortunately, no...the pain means the nerves are still "good" and "working"...hell, theyre still trying to figure out what made me sick in the first place...I gotta see a neurologist and have an emg….the thing where they stick needles in a points and check for nerve impulses to see whats working and what isn't...I HATE them, but atleast this time they wont have to put them in my neck.

 

im just scared that this isn't gonna change...and my pain management guy isn't really helping me...but I cant find a new one while im stuck here in rehab.


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Posted 12 April 2019 - 01:32 PM

I'm not sure if you've said (or I missed it), have they tried a nerve block? There ought to be something they can inject in the spine / leg / somewhere that should (maybe) give some relief. At the very least it might give you & your Drs an idea of where the nerve issue is.

 

Are you on meds specifically for nerve pain? Something like a gabapentin or lyrica derivative? If not, can you see about them? Something to calm the nerves down might help.

 

EMGs suck, but I always find the anticipation is the worst part. You know it's going to be unpleasant, but you're not sure just how unpleasant it'll be this time and that part sucks.

 

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Posted 12 April 2019 - 03:11 PM

untill i go through the hoops, no ones talked about a nerve block...like, ever.

 

as far as Gabapentin, im on 800mgs 3 times a day...like everything else, it barely scratches the surface.

 

this is just so damn crazy...how it all went down and where i am now...its just nuts.


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Posted 12 April 2019 - 03:33 PM

Okay, yeah. That's a high gabapentin dose.  Might be worth seeing if you can switch to something else. Plain gabapentin did nothing for me, but lyrica - I'm not going to say it helped exactly, but it was a night and day difference to regular GB.  Might be different when it comes to straight nerve pain though. I dunno.

 

Definitely see if a nerve block (and steroid injection) might help.  If you've got a pain specialist / doctor / management, they should have said something about that. That's like the go-to for back / leg pain (any possible sciatic nerve pain?). I don't know if it'd work, but it's better than the alternative and worth looking into.

 

I will say they didn't quite help me (have done multiple back & knees), but the s**t they numb you with is freaking amazing. When they did steroids in my knee, the numbing agent made my knee feel normal for the first time in almost a decade.

 

Also, talk with your physical therapist, too. Maybe they've pushed too hard, too fast.

 

I dunno, man. I'll be hoping for the best.

 

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Posted 13 April 2019 - 09:12 PM

I hope things turn out. Selfishly, we've talked in several different topics and I want to keep you around because I enjoy your input. Though I've never known someone who's every moment is pain. I just don't know what to say to that. I truly hope you can find some way past the pain that doesn't include dying. I want you around, damnit!
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Posted 13 April 2019 - 10:00 PM

Likewise. Any loss diminishes us, last I checked.

 

Though now I feel kinda lousy about wanting to share some of my depressing experiences of late. As bad as I've got it, others have it worse, and that's no comfort.


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Posted 13 April 2019 - 10:07 PM

I've told myself that too many times, somebody else has it worse, how dare I complain. Don't let yourself diminish your feelings like that. That's no good for you. This thread was made so you could share the crap in your life.
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Posted 13 April 2019 - 11:02 PM

What Caldwin said. Even if there's no answer, just venting to friendly ears can help.



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Posted 14 April 2019 - 03:50 AM

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Posted 14 April 2019 - 09:57 PM

Thanks.

 

In any case, last week wasn't a fun week for me at work. What was supposed to be an eight hour shift on Monday turned into a twelve hour shift (without a lunch!), and on Friday, a customer decided that I'd been rude towards them and opted to be rude right back...by getting physical. It was barely a shove, but still, it was out of line, and I doubt anyone's gonna disagree with me. Add to it that the union representative is back to making the rounds and nagging about being in the union and how great it is, and I'm getting frustrated with work something fierce lately. Being in the union isn't going to prevent the customers from overwhelming us, or prevent a customer from being a jerk, or prevent any of the other issues I've dealt with. But do they care about that? No.

 

Don't get me wrong, I'm all for the rights of the workers and making sure the little guy doesn't get screwed over by the big guy, but I've been raised by two people who feel that unions care less for their members than they do about their leadership, and they've brought up several examples of unions screwing over their members. Plus I worked at one place that didn't need a union, and things were for the most part decent there, so being in a union really isn't for me.

 

Couple my work headaches with the fact that I wasn't able to find any time to sit down and write, I'm delayed in moving in with my girlfriend due to a number of factors beyond my control, and BBTS sending me a toy that was visibly missing a part inside the package, and I'm kinda feeling down. Not suicidal down, mind you, but still.

 

Some 'me' time will do me a world of good. Accomplishing something for myself would be a very good thing. Trouble is, it feels like the universe at large is conspiring against me.


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