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@  Nevermore : (15 December 2019 - 04:05 PM)

The music, if you'd even call it that, adds to the creepy atmosphere. Apparently it was recorded using sounds created in a real nuclear power plant of the same type as Chernobyl.

@  Nevermore : (15 December 2019 - 04:04 PM)

In case you haven't seen it yet, I highly recommend the HBO mini-series "Chernobyl", which is about, well, you know. It's very intense and not for the faint-heartet. I'd say it's more scary than any horror flick, because (despite some artistic liberties taken with the behavior of some of the characters, and the timeline for some events), it's eerily real.

@  Sabrblade : (15 December 2019 - 10:51 AM)

Hey, at least you baked a cake in the bathroom. Not many can attest to that. :p

@  wonko the sane? : (14 December 2019 - 05:51 PM)

Nope. Forgot entirely, had to make another trip.

@  TheMightyMol... : (14 December 2019 - 04:04 PM)

Well, did you get water?

@  wonko the sane? : (14 December 2019 - 01:56 PM)

Went to the bathroom, shaved, baked a cake... wait, I only got up to get some water...

@  unluckiness : (14 December 2019 - 09:01 AM)

That's a common misconception. You see compared to the first run, it's a new mold.

@  PlutoniumBoss : (14 December 2019 - 03:27 AM)

Wouldn't that just add packaging authenticity? :D

@  SHIELD Agent 47 : (14 December 2019 - 01:44 AM)

I read a anecdote of someone recently receiving a Glacialord with mold because apparently online stores' warehouses have been sitting on Fansproject products like that for years.

@  Rycochet : (13 December 2019 - 11:56 AM)

Unlike many of his peers, Morton diesn't seem to have gone out of his way to try and take every drug going so he's aged remarkably well.

@  Donocropolis : (13 December 2019 - 11:39 AM)

Doesn't seem to have been a market for it, which is too bad, because it perfectly does what it sets out to do.

@  Donocropolis : (13 December 2019 - 11:38 AM)

Just opened it and suddenly I'm 9 years old again.

@  Donocropolis : (13 December 2019 - 11:38 AM)

Bought myself Fansproject Glacialord for my birthday during their Black Friday sale.

@  Nevermore : (12 December 2019 - 07:45 PM)

Morten Harket of A-ha might have aged 35 years on the outside, but his voice is still pretty much the same as it was in 1984. That's some great training and exercise for you.

@  wonko the sane? : (12 December 2019 - 06:59 PM)

Depends entirely on how badly you cooked them. What?

@  TheMightyMol... : (12 December 2019 - 05:33 PM)

Can it raise the dead?

@  RichardT1977 : (12 December 2019 - 05:33 PM)

Cheddar can do just about anything.

@  RichardT1977 : (12 December 2019 - 05:32 PM)

Cream cheese has to be on a bagel or crackers.

@  RichardT1977 : (12 December 2019 - 05:31 PM)

(for example: I like Swiss cheese on sandwiches, but find it merely tolerable by itself)

@  RichardT1977 : (12 December 2019 - 05:30 PM)

I mean are you eating it by itself? With crackers? On a sandwich?

@  TheMightyMol... : (12 December 2019 - 04:48 PM)

I would ask, but I'd rather not know.

@  PlutoniumBoss : (12 December 2019 - 03:38 PM)

With my mouth, usually.

@  RichardT1977 : (12 December 2019 - 08:48 AM)

Depends on how you're eating it.

@  PlutoniumBoss : (12 December 2019 - 01:40 AM)

Havarti, without a doubt.

@  Greebtron : (12 December 2019 - 01:28 AM)

Not Don, thanks. I'd like a writer who actually cares enough to do the job properly

@  Benbot : (11 December 2019 - 09:34 PM)

What's your favorite cheese? I'm not sure, but it's hard to beat muenster.

@  Maximus Ambus : (11 December 2019 - 05:10 PM)

Man I wish IDW could do a season 2.5 with a few writers like Michael Charles Hill or Donald F Glut or Paul Davids involved.

@  TheMightyMol... : (11 December 2019 - 04:33 PM)

They were looking for Skids, but the animators forgot he existed again.

@  Maximus Ambus : (11 December 2019 - 02:58 PM)

He regrouped with Omega Supreme, the Dinobots, Skyfire and the Protectobots.

@  Benbot : (11 December 2019 - 08:20 AM)

Did he get infected with the rest of the Autobots or did he smartly remain off-planet?

@  TheMightyMol... : (11 December 2019 - 05:38 AM)

He really just went to the beach for a couple of days, then called it in. Who's gonna follow up on it?

@  Maximus Ambus : (11 December 2019 - 05:05 AM)

Anyone really believe Cosmos searched far enough for more ingredient for Corrostop?

@  Nevermore : (11 December 2019 - 03:48 AM)

Oh, we are pretty good at "forgetting" about that. Insisting on sending people home on their overtime, THEN suddenly rushing to do the "backlog" stuff when it's really overdue.

@  wonko the sane? : (10 December 2019 - 05:43 PM)

I've yet to find an organization which didn't have a backlog of "stuff" that needs to be done, but isn't important enough to put on the schedule proper.

@  TM2-Megatron : (10 December 2019 - 05:01 PM)

I'm sure most good/bad (depending on your POV) bosses would be able to find something for the worker to do, in most cases, even if it's spending 8 hours pretending to push a broom around

@  Tm_Silverclaw : (10 December 2019 - 04:39 PM)

Still better than American jobs. x.x;

@  NotVeryKnightly : (10 December 2019 - 11:10 AM)

I'm pretty sure you've already mentioned this before. Especially that last one.

@  Nevermore : (10 December 2019 - 11:05 AM)

That can be fun if you're strong-willed enough. "Hey, you want to go home? Overtime reduction, there's nothing to do..." - "Nah, not today. I want to work."

@  Nevermore : (10 December 2019 - 11:04 AM)

This applies to the field of work as well. Meaning, your boss orders you to show up for a full shift, you show up on time and are absolutely willing to work, and then your boss realizes he has no work for you, your boss has to pay you for a full shift even if you don't work at all.

@  Nevermore : (10 December 2019 - 11:03 AM)

Fun fact: German law has a concept named "default in acceptance", which postulates that if there is a "service for payment" contract, the party that should provide the service correctly offers their due service, and the party that should pay fails to accept the service within due time, the second party still has to pay the first party even if there was no service delivered.

@  wonko the sane? : (08 December 2019 - 10:54 PM)

If it's seasonal affective disorder, check with your doc about vitamin D supplements.

@  Maximus Ambus : (08 December 2019 - 12:46 PM)

That's what I was thinking too, It's the christmas rush and if that's not stressful enough the cold weather can also impact mental health.

@  wonko the sane? : (08 December 2019 - 12:41 PM)

Might be a stupid question given the comment, BUT: have you done anything outside the ordinary lately? Might just be a stress reaction.

@  Maximus Ambus : (08 December 2019 - 12:29 PM)

I've experienced sleep paralysis with ghostly images and similar things in the past and can snap out of it through moving my fingers. I've definitely hallucinated before and members of both sides of the family have had similar experience, some suffered forms of mental instability in two cases schizophrenia.

@  wonko the sane? : (08 December 2019 - 10:47 AM)

So... either a hallucination or night terrors. Are you prone to this kind of thing?

@  Maximus Ambus : (07 December 2019 - 11:55 PM)

It kept repeating until I sat up.

@  Maximus Ambus : (07 December 2019 - 11:54 PM)

I've been up since three and when sheepish I was hallucinating something knocking twice against my bedroom door.

@  TheMightyMol... : (07 December 2019 - 06:58 PM)

Then repaint Apeface and Snapdragon as Transmetal Optimus Primal and Megatron. It's crazy enough to work.

@  PlutoniumBoss : (07 December 2019 - 05:32 PM)

Moral imperative.

@  Nevermore : (07 December 2019 - 05:13 PM)

Wishful thinking, rumor or leak?


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#101 HellCat

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Posted 06 February 2019 - 03:14 AM

For whatever reason just spent most of the last 2 days sleeping.

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Posted 06 February 2019 - 08:44 AM

Happens to me a lot when I'm in a depressive episode. Doesn't always mean depression, but it might be worth writing the details down and discussing them when you get an appointment.


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Posted 06 February 2019 - 11:23 PM

there is never a good reason NOT to sleep. =]


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Posted 12 February 2019 - 04:40 AM

So tomorrow morning I have the over the phone assessment, followed by an afternoon appointment with my GP concerning if I need to be signed off longer.

 

I'll be honest, not being at work has helped. I've tried not to run from my problems but that place is toxic. If I have to I'll have to go back and fit the therapy sessions in between shifts but it's a huge part of the problem.

 

I really wish the other shit wasn't happening. I had a workable plan to get out of here and into journalism full time and it's all gone to shit.



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Posted 12 February 2019 - 05:26 AM

I'm glad to hear the time off work has felt beneficial. Fingers crossed for whatever comes next.

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Posted 13 February 2019 - 06:42 AM

Had the assessment.

What a mess.

They asked some very prying questions about what I've been through and am going through, which I was honest about. The abuse, the self loathing, the attempted suicide, etc.

...And that got me "Does that really happen or is it just how you feel?" and "Try counting all the red objects in a room. That will enable you to deal with what you're going through."

I just feel like an idiot. I finally took people's advice and come away from it feeling patronised. I was very open I knew I was in a bad place and wanted to get healthy for the sake of myself and others and the response was like I'm just whining.

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Posted 13 February 2019 - 07:43 PM

...well that's just irritating. Kinda discourages me from considering getting back into therapy myself, to be honest.

 

And yes, I know HellCat's recent experiences aren't the norm, but still.


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Posted 13 February 2019 - 07:44 PM

It can take a while to find the right person for this kind of thing. Which is really not ideal. But some people are douchebags, or bad at their job, or just don't click with you. 


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Posted 13 February 2019 - 08:52 PM

It doesn't sound like this one would click with anyone. I hope you can get past that and continue to seek help.  Hopefully you can find a therapist that didn't get their license from a mail order catalog like this one did.

 

Seriously, that sounds like something that could be reported to whatever your version of the medial licensing board would be,


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Posted 13 February 2019 - 11:31 PM

Saw GP in afternoon. Signed me off rest of the month. Wanted to put me on medication but said I'm not ready to go that route yet so gave me a referral for a blood test to see if I have a chemical imbalance.

Also said my surgery has a good therapist that if I feel unhappy with the team I already mentioned he'd happily refer me to.

So better than the assessment went.

(Seriously, they told me to lean on friends and family "Actually they're all going through a lot themselves and part of why I feel bad is I can't help them. Don't want to lean on them anymore then I have." "Well they're there, aren't they?")

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Posted 13 February 2019 - 11:35 PM

...well that's just irritating. Kinda discourages me from considering getting back into therapy myself, to be honest.

 

And yes, I know HellCat's recent experiences aren't the norm, but still.

 

It might take you a few tries before you find a therapist you're comfortable with. You're going to be discussing deeply personal, potentially hurtful and/or uncomfortable details with them so you SHOULD be discerning. Don't settle when you go looking, find someone you like talking to. Very important.


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Posted 13 February 2019 - 11:42 PM

Are you taking patients?

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Posted 13 February 2019 - 11:43 PM

Saw GP in afternoon. Signed me off rest of the month. Wanted to put me on medication but said I'm not ready to go that route yet so gave me a referral for a blood test to see if I have a chemical imbalance.

Also said my surgery has a good therapist that if I feel unhappy with the team I already mentioned he'd happily refer me to.

So better than the assessment went.

(Seriously, they told me to lean on friends and family "Actually they're all going through a lot themselves and part of why I feel bad is I can't help them. Don't want to lean on them anymore then I have." "Well they're there, aren't they?")

 

Glad you at least seem to have a good GP. Medication can be scary and is not something to be entered into lightly, but obviously can help in some cases - but it's great that your doctor is willing to explore different options rather than trying to railroad you in one direction. 


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Posted 15 February 2019 - 11:35 AM

So heard back today...not good.

 

I've been deemed not receiving a therapist but will be referred for likes of a social worker and medication.

 

Social worker. As in the people that deal with kids rescued from broken homes.

 

Not happy with that assessment and I'm going to contact my GP to ask about being referred to the therapist he mentioned. The assessment they've given I don't feel is a valid picture of who I am and given it's coming from Mrs 'Go outside and count all the blue flowers' I find it highly suspect.

 

I know I'm not mentally healthy. But a therapist is what I need, not a social worker.



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Posted 15 February 2019 - 11:55 AM

I think you're taking the social worker a bit too defensively; I'm having to quickly educate myself on social worker counseling since I wasn't fully aware they could do that themselves, but social workers wear many hats and fulfill a variety of functions beyond abused children. That said, if you're more comfortable with getting the therapist referral instead then go for it. Do what's going to make this process easier and less stressful for you -even in a hypothetical where the social worker would provide an objectively better process, it won't work as well when you feel like you're being passed off to them as damaged goods.


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Posted 15 February 2019 - 01:21 PM

Well what would you know about it, Ms Qualified Mental Health Professional? 

 

....Oh.



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Posted 19 February 2019 - 08:52 AM

So they did blood tests on me to check for chemical imbalance.

All came back fine. So bar testing I'm unaware of I'm not facing a chemical imbalance. I'm just nakedly this depressed.

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Posted 19 February 2019 - 03:52 PM

Which is... probably good? Pros and cons I guess, but presumably you're less likely to be pushed down a road towards medication, which you aren't keen on so that's a plus. But obviously there's something to be said for a diagnosis of something that can be directly addressed in a relatively "simple" way. 


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Posted 21 February 2019 - 09:34 PM

I know I've benn out of this thread for a while. It just seemed like some of my more recent issues have been better suited to another thread at the moment.

I did want to say, Hellcat, I'm glad you're still around and still feel comfortable coming to this thread. I hope you do find the right therapist/social worker for you. Like others have said, no matter who some else may tell you "have" to see, it's important that you feel comfortable with whoever you're with.

I hope things work out. Right now I'm just glad you're still in the fight.

On my end, my therapist is a therapist and not a psychiatrist, she can't outright prescribe anything. But she did write a suggestion to my doctor about seeing about getting me on some antidepressants. I see him Monday for my normal checkup. So I guess I'll bring it up to him then and see what happens.
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Posted 22 February 2019 - 11:20 AM

Alright: Story time!

 

A few years ago, my sister had a psychotic break: and was committed to a psych ward for a few weeks. She was on the pills, and she saw a therapist while inside. She got better. The doctors kept her pills up after she was released, but on the condition that she had to keep seeing the psychiatrist. When the psychiatrist saw no need to keep her on the pills anymore; WE, her family, requested that she keeps visiting the shrink a couple of times a year to keep her file open. You know, just in case. And it's always nice to have someone to talk to without being judged for what you say.

 

She hugging lied. She didn't visit the shrink like she was supposed to. Now she's having another hugging break, and because the hospital shrink cleared her file from the active pile: it'll take two to three weeks to get her to see them. She lied about her husband adamantly refusing to go to therapy, he was down with the idea because it meant a more stable wife and household for her kids. And since she's having a PSYCHOTIC break: it's the entire rest of the hugging world that broken and not her, so the pills the hospital gave her after going to the emergency room yesterday literally have to be forced down her goddamn throat because "there's nothing wrong with her".

 

And to top it off: I was just told that a social worker won't hugging touch her until she's stable again: which means she needs to take the pills she refuses to take. She's going to have to be committed AGAIN and there's a very real chance child services will take her hugging kids this time. She's killing her hugging mother when she does this, and she's traumatizing her family and she literally gives no hugs because "there's nothing wrong with her".

 

She's always been hugging broken: but she was able to deal before she had kids. Now my niece gets to endure ridiculous levels of stress at home cause mommy is a hugwit, and poor little kasper gets to go through all this shit AGAIN.


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