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@  wonko the sane? : (13 September 2019 - 01:54 PM)

Why do you feel a need to label yourself for doing something harmless?

@  Telly : (13 September 2019 - 11:10 AM)

thats more than i look at on reddit

@  Benbot : (13 September 2019 - 10:49 AM)

am I a basic bitch for only browsing the front page of Reddit?

@  Shrug : (12 September 2019 - 12:26 PM)

I managed to find about 2/3s of my goal Sega Genesis collection before the last price bump

@  Anonymous X : (12 September 2019 - 11:11 AM)

So relieved that I picked up most of my NTSC GameCube collection in 2010/11 before prices on the secondary market went bezerk...

@  unluckiness : (12 September 2019 - 12:54 AM)

I have fond memories of it since it was the last console Mario Kart that didn't have the ridiculous pre-race cart assembly

@  TM2-Megatron : (11 September 2019 - 10:26 PM)

Like many Gamecube games, underrated

@  unluckiness : (11 September 2019 - 09:24 AM)

Double Dash is great. Just watch out for blue shells

@  Bass X0 : (11 September 2019 - 07:43 AM)

I used a double dash on my mobile. The chat didn’t like it.

@  TheMightyMol... : (11 September 2019 - 04:17 AM)

The mobile version of the site chokes on certain characters, I think.

@  NotVeryKnightly : (11 September 2019 - 04:10 AM)

what's with that punctuation anyway

@  Nevermore : (11 September 2019 - 03:20 AM)

Now where did that come from, Bass X0?

@  Bass X0 : (11 September 2019 - 01:52 AM)

Politics and Religion — tools of foul play!

@  TM2-Megatron : (10 September 2019 - 11:10 PM)

If you owe, you're expected to actually pay it at the time you file, before they even process your return

@  TM2-Megatron : (10 September 2019 - 11:10 PM)

If you file electronically, I find you usually get your refund within a couple weeks

@  Nevermore : (10 September 2019 - 06:22 PM)

Well, lucky it took less than two months for me. For a little over 200 Euros.

@  wonko the sane? : (10 September 2019 - 06:11 PM)

Pretty much, yeah. Canada revenue will be all up your ass if you earn less than 200K and owe tax, but your refund is basically "duke nukem forever".

@  Nevermore : (10 September 2019 - 05:34 PM)

Whereas if you overpaid and they have to refund you, they will take their sweet time to let you know.

@  Nevermore : (10 September 2019 - 05:34 PM)

Like, here in Germany, if the tax authority responds to your tax report quickly, you can rest assured they want more money.

@  Nevermore : (10 September 2019 - 05:33 PM)

Do tax authorities in other countries base their time to respond to filed tax reports on whether they owe or are owed as well?

@  wonko the sane? : (10 September 2019 - 11:13 AM)

Check what the requirements are for your cad program, and try to beat them by about 20%, and understand that software requirements have been stable for a few years: not really keeping up with the advancements in hardware. Unless you're doing something SPECIFIC which requires ludicrous amounts of power, just give your self a cushion on hardware and don't bother going whole hog.

@  Benbot : (10 September 2019 - 10:16 AM)

What I'm currently using is an i5 2018 Surface Laptop. My current desktop is all but dead. I think in the end affordability will win out over specs. I need to use CAD programs, but I'm a student, not a professional.

@  wonko the sane? : (10 September 2019 - 10:06 AM)

Okay. Whats the specs on the I7 and what are you currently using?

@  Benbot : (10 September 2019 - 09:23 AM)

fun and games

@  wonko the sane? : (09 September 2019 - 04:43 PM)

Depends entirely on what you use the computer for.

@  Steevy Maximus : (09 September 2019 - 11:52 AM)

Probably not

@  Benbot : (09 September 2019 - 09:39 AM)

Do I need an i7 on my new computer?

@  Nevermore : (08 September 2019 - 12:08 PM)

https://imgur.com/fkyjpza

@  Nevermore : (08 September 2019 - 12:07 PM)

Today's convention haul:

@  wonko the sane? : (08 September 2019 - 08:54 AM)

But it was Huuunnngrrrryyyy. What was I supposed to do?

@  MEDdMI : (08 September 2019 - 08:23 AM)

But did you feed any small fuzzy creatures after midnight?

@  wonko the sane? : (08 September 2019 - 06:32 AM)

Shouldn't be. I literally just built it. Not even three weeks ago even.

@  TM2-Megatron : (07 September 2019 - 10:13 PM)

Sounds like your computer's on its last lags, Wonko

@  wonko the sane? : (07 September 2019 - 07:37 PM)

Dunno, crucial says it's fine, gonna need a second opinion.

@  Pennpenn : (07 September 2019 - 06:52 PM)

Good luck! (or break a leg if it's like theater luck...)

@  wonko the sane? : (07 September 2019 - 06:46 PM)

Alright. The damages now seem to include my primary SSD. Thankfully, the gaming drive (I have now lost all my games and mods entirely.) Let me wipe it and install there. Once the crucial utility is installed again, will verify the drive.

@  wonko the sane? : (07 September 2019 - 03:32 PM)

Three more crashes since I pulled the ram. Verifying the OS now... tonight might be a reinstalling kinda night.

@  wonko the sane? : (07 September 2019 - 11:46 AM)

And thankfully it wasn't totally dead, so it was working on occassion. If the problem is actually solved, I just need to wait and see if the program/system crashes are over.

@  wonko the sane? : (07 September 2019 - 11:45 AM)

Got it. I wound up running the memtest four more times, because of course it's always the last dimm. But I got the culprit. I lost 8 gig, but I'm still at three times the "recommended" amount.

@  Hg Dragon : (07 September 2019 - 11:09 AM)

DL and run MemTest86. It'll help weed out issues. Run 1 stick at a time. Then run a stick that passed in each slot. Will help you find out if it's the RAM or the slot/motherboard

@  Patch : (07 September 2019 - 10:45 AM)

How many RAM sticks do you have total?

@  wonko the sane? : (07 September 2019 - 09:57 AM)

Great, two weeks of random BSODs, and I manage to finally work out some ram has gone bad. Just need to work out which one(s) and then I can go from there.

@  wonko the sane? : (07 September 2019 - 06:25 AM)

*just stares*

@  unluckiness : (07 September 2019 - 04:27 AM)

My french is rusty but I'd guess Italienne-americain pain du sauce

@  Nevermore : (07 September 2019 - 02:58 AM)

What do they want "pizza" to be called? Crpes superior?

@  unluckiness : (07 September 2019 - 01:11 AM)

Are they still suing Italian restaurants for having food that's insufficiently French?

@  PlutoniumBoss : (06 September 2019 - 10:31 PM)

Not even Quebec likes Quebec?

@  TM2-Megatron : (06 September 2019 - 08:51 PM)

Quebec's a special case; they just have an insatiable lust for hate

@  Ashley : (06 September 2019 - 07:48 PM)

Those weird language laws are basically anti-everyone. Who does it help to stop certain toys from being sold there?

@  TM2-Megatron : (06 September 2019 - 04:56 PM)

Canada is one of those rare countries that's paradoxically both anti-business (except for the chosen few) and anti-consumer


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#101 HellCat

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Posted 06 February 2019 - 03:14 AM

For whatever reason just spent most of the last 2 days sleeping.

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Posted 06 February 2019 - 08:44 AM

Happens to me a lot when I'm in a depressive episode. Doesn't always mean depression, but it might be worth writing the details down and discussing them when you get an appointment.


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Posted 06 February 2019 - 11:23 PM

there is never a good reason NOT to sleep. =]


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Posted 12 February 2019 - 04:40 AM

So tomorrow morning I have the over the phone assessment, followed by an afternoon appointment with my GP concerning if I need to be signed off longer.

 

I'll be honest, not being at work has helped. I've tried not to run from my problems but that place is toxic. If I have to I'll have to go back and fit the therapy sessions in between shifts but it's a huge part of the problem.

 

I really wish the other shit wasn't happening. I had a workable plan to get out of here and into journalism full time and it's all gone to shit.



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Posted 12 February 2019 - 05:26 AM

I'm glad to hear the time off work has felt beneficial. Fingers crossed for whatever comes next.

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Posted 13 February 2019 - 06:42 AM

Had the assessment.

What a mess.

They asked some very prying questions about what I've been through and am going through, which I was honest about. The abuse, the self loathing, the attempted suicide, etc.

...And that got me "Does that really happen or is it just how you feel?" and "Try counting all the red objects in a room. That will enable you to deal with what you're going through."

I just feel like an idiot. I finally took people's advice and come away from it feeling patronised. I was very open I knew I was in a bad place and wanted to get healthy for the sake of myself and others and the response was like I'm just whining.

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Posted 13 February 2019 - 07:43 PM

...well that's just irritating. Kinda discourages me from considering getting back into therapy myself, to be honest.

 

And yes, I know HellCat's recent experiences aren't the norm, but still.


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Posted 13 February 2019 - 07:44 PM

It can take a while to find the right person for this kind of thing. Which is really not ideal. But some people are douchebags, or bad at their job, or just don't click with you. 


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Posted 13 February 2019 - 08:52 PM

It doesn't sound like this one would click with anyone. I hope you can get past that and continue to seek help.  Hopefully you can find a therapist that didn't get their license from a mail order catalog like this one did.

 

Seriously, that sounds like something that could be reported to whatever your version of the medial licensing board would be,


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Posted 13 February 2019 - 11:31 PM

Saw GP in afternoon. Signed me off rest of the month. Wanted to put me on medication but said I'm not ready to go that route yet so gave me a referral for a blood test to see if I have a chemical imbalance.

Also said my surgery has a good therapist that if I feel unhappy with the team I already mentioned he'd happily refer me to.

So better than the assessment went.

(Seriously, they told me to lean on friends and family "Actually they're all going through a lot themselves and part of why I feel bad is I can't help them. Don't want to lean on them anymore then I have." "Well they're there, aren't they?")

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Posted 13 February 2019 - 11:35 PM

...well that's just irritating. Kinda discourages me from considering getting back into therapy myself, to be honest.

 

And yes, I know HellCat's recent experiences aren't the norm, but still.

 

It might take you a few tries before you find a therapist you're comfortable with. You're going to be discussing deeply personal, potentially hurtful and/or uncomfortable details with them so you SHOULD be discerning. Don't settle when you go looking, find someone you like talking to. Very important.


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Posted 13 February 2019 - 11:42 PM

Are you taking patients?

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Posted 13 February 2019 - 11:43 PM

Saw GP in afternoon. Signed me off rest of the month. Wanted to put me on medication but said I'm not ready to go that route yet so gave me a referral for a blood test to see if I have a chemical imbalance.

Also said my surgery has a good therapist that if I feel unhappy with the team I already mentioned he'd happily refer me to.

So better than the assessment went.

(Seriously, they told me to lean on friends and family "Actually they're all going through a lot themselves and part of why I feel bad is I can't help them. Don't want to lean on them anymore then I have." "Well they're there, aren't they?")

 

Glad you at least seem to have a good GP. Medication can be scary and is not something to be entered into lightly, but obviously can help in some cases - but it's great that your doctor is willing to explore different options rather than trying to railroad you in one direction. 


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Posted 15 February 2019 - 11:35 AM

So heard back today...not good.

 

I've been deemed not receiving a therapist but will be referred for likes of a social worker and medication.

 

Social worker. As in the people that deal with kids rescued from broken homes.

 

Not happy with that assessment and I'm going to contact my GP to ask about being referred to the therapist he mentioned. The assessment they've given I don't feel is a valid picture of who I am and given it's coming from Mrs 'Go outside and count all the blue flowers' I find it highly suspect.

 

I know I'm not mentally healthy. But a therapist is what I need, not a social worker.



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Posted 15 February 2019 - 11:55 AM

I think you're taking the social worker a bit too defensively; I'm having to quickly educate myself on social worker counseling since I wasn't fully aware they could do that themselves, but social workers wear many hats and fulfill a variety of functions beyond abused children. That said, if you're more comfortable with getting the therapist referral instead then go for it. Do what's going to make this process easier and less stressful for you -even in a hypothetical where the social worker would provide an objectively better process, it won't work as well when you feel like you're being passed off to them as damaged goods.


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Posted 15 February 2019 - 01:21 PM

Well what would you know about it, Ms Qualified Mental Health Professional? 

 

....Oh.



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Posted 19 February 2019 - 08:52 AM

So they did blood tests on me to check for chemical imbalance.

All came back fine. So bar testing I'm unaware of I'm not facing a chemical imbalance. I'm just nakedly this depressed.

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Posted 19 February 2019 - 03:52 PM

Which is... probably good? Pros and cons I guess, but presumably you're less likely to be pushed down a road towards medication, which you aren't keen on so that's a plus. But obviously there's something to be said for a diagnosis of something that can be directly addressed in a relatively "simple" way. 


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Posted 21 February 2019 - 09:34 PM

I know I've benn out of this thread for a while. It just seemed like some of my more recent issues have been better suited to another thread at the moment.

I did want to say, Hellcat, I'm glad you're still around and still feel comfortable coming to this thread. I hope you do find the right therapist/social worker for you. Like others have said, no matter who some else may tell you "have" to see, it's important that you feel comfortable with whoever you're with.

I hope things work out. Right now I'm just glad you're still in the fight.

On my end, my therapist is a therapist and not a psychiatrist, she can't outright prescribe anything. But she did write a suggestion to my doctor about seeing about getting me on some antidepressants. I see him Monday for my normal checkup. So I guess I'll bring it up to him then and see what happens.
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Posted 22 February 2019 - 11:20 AM

Alright: Story time!

 

A few years ago, my sister had a psychotic break: and was committed to a psych ward for a few weeks. She was on the pills, and she saw a therapist while inside. She got better. The doctors kept her pills up after she was released, but on the condition that she had to keep seeing the psychiatrist. When the psychiatrist saw no need to keep her on the pills anymore; WE, her family, requested that she keeps visiting the shrink a couple of times a year to keep her file open. You know, just in case. And it's always nice to have someone to talk to without being judged for what you say.

 

She hugging lied. She didn't visit the shrink like she was supposed to. Now she's having another hugging break, and because the hospital shrink cleared her file from the active pile: it'll take two to three weeks to get her to see them. She lied about her husband adamantly refusing to go to therapy, he was down with the idea because it meant a more stable wife and household for her kids. And since she's having a PSYCHOTIC break: it's the entire rest of the hugging world that broken and not her, so the pills the hospital gave her after going to the emergency room yesterday literally have to be forced down her goddamn throat because "there's nothing wrong with her".

 

And to top it off: I was just told that a social worker won't hugging touch her until she's stable again: which means she needs to take the pills she refuses to take. She's going to have to be committed AGAIN and there's a very real chance child services will take her hugging kids this time. She's killing her hugging mother when she does this, and she's traumatizing her family and she literally gives no hugs because "there's nothing wrong with her".

 

She's always been hugging broken: but she was able to deal before she had kids. Now my niece gets to endure ridiculous levels of stress at home cause mommy is a hugwit, and poor little kasper gets to go through all this shit AGAIN.


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