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@  Nevermore : (03 July 2020 - 06:59 AM)

Probably gonna assemble Devastator after work.

@  Nevermore : (03 July 2020 - 06:58 AM)

Ooooh. Overload arrived. He's surprisingly fun.

@  Bass X0 : (02 July 2020 - 04:00 PM)

He's sweeter than the average bear.

@  Maximus Ambus : (02 July 2020 - 03:14 PM)

Convert him to Maple Syrup.

@  Bass X0 : (02 July 2020 - 03:10 PM)

what would Canada do with Yogi?

@  Cyoti : (01 July 2020 - 12:51 PM)

We can deport Yogi back to Canada now.

@  Sabrblade : (01 July 2020 - 12:50 PM)

Jellystone National Pawk. A westful wetweat.

@  Rycochet : (01 July 2020 - 12:47 PM)

Jellystone. We're going to be plunged into a decade of poor animation. Fortunately we've been led by bad cartoon characters for years so we won't notice much difference.

@  Maximus Ambus : (01 July 2020 - 06:19 AM)

what next? YELLOWSTONE?

@  Nevermore : (01 July 2020 - 05:46 AM)

Thanks, dead person.

@  Bass X0 : (01 July 2020 - 05:06 AM)

congratulations to all survivors of the first half of 2020.

@  wonko the sane? : (30 June 2020 - 10:21 PM)

21 for me, but after numerous repetitions I got it down to 17 and a half.

@  TheMightyMol... : (30 June 2020 - 06:16 PM)

I transform in six steps from human to human sitting on my ass at the computer and back again!

@  -LittleAutob... : (30 June 2020 - 05:55 PM)

x-x when in vehicle mode we can travel much F A R T H E R-

@  wonko the sane? : (30 June 2020 - 05:52 PM)

Because despite the fact that we can travel around the world in the time it takes to get a good nights sleep and a couple of meals: people rarely wander more than 25 miles away from home for the duration of their lives.

@  Otaku : (30 June 2020 - 05:49 PM)

I don't know how many days that trip takes - especially while sightseeing - but explaining they're 3936 kilometers (2445 miles) apart gives an idea, paradoxically because it is too large to easily picture.

@  Otaku : (30 June 2020 - 05:44 PM)

Aye.  When I catch lay people discussing miles and not how long the trip takes, it is in an attempt to stress how far away something is... like NYC to LA.

@  ▲ndrusi : (30 June 2020 - 01:20 PM)

But I can imagine 45 *minutes* easily.

@  ▲ndrusi : (30 June 2020 - 01:20 PM)

I can imagine a mile, it's a distance I've run. I can't really imagine 45 miles.

@  ▲ndrusi : (30 June 2020 - 01:19 PM)

I think there's also an element of the thing where things that are much bigger than us all blur together.

@  Otaku : (30 June 2020 - 11:49 AM)

If you're not, then you're more concerned with how long it takes.  Actual distance doesn't tell you that very well.  Besides traffic and road conditions, you'll need to know what kind of driving (city/interstate/rural/etc.).

@  Otaku : (30 June 2020 - 11:47 AM)

Distance matters if you're being paid by the mile.

@  TM2-Megatron : (30 June 2020 - 11:44 AM)

Canadians are the same way, for the most part. If you're driving somewhere far, especially, it helps you plan out the day more than a distance in KM would.

@  Otaku : (30 June 2020 - 11:42 AM)

We use the time it takes to get someplace because that is what is relevant to us.

@  TheMightyMol... : (30 June 2020 - 10:55 AM)

Because even we can't figure out miles half the time.

@  Paladin : (30 June 2020 - 09:54 AM)

it's a big country with a lot of empty space. between our citizens' ears.

@  Bass X0 : (30 June 2020 - 09:52 AM)

Why do most Americans measure distance by hours of driving?

@  TM2-Megatron : (29 June 2020 - 07:26 PM)

And as a result the world's lone blu-ray release of the film, an Australian disc that came out 7 years ago, now goes for hundreds of dollars on eBay. Thanks Disney.

@  TM2-Megatron : (29 June 2020 - 06:21 PM)

Well, they censored Daryl Hannah's butt in Splash :rolleyes

@  Paladin : (29 June 2020 - 05:43 PM)

maybe New Mutants is too bad even for D+.

@  Steevy Maximus : (29 June 2020 - 05:00 PM)

X-Men films are coming to Disney+ next month. But will they censor Hugh Jackman's butt?

@  -LittleAutob... : (29 June 2020 - 12:44 PM)

Pft.

@  TheMightyMol... : (29 June 2020 - 11:59 AM)

Behold! Night Strike Galvatron!

@  Bass X0 : (29 June 2020 - 09:53 AM)

I will grant you a recolored body, and recolored troops to command.

@  Cybersnark : (29 June 2020 - 09:47 AM)

I don't want to be reissued. This body sucks, I wanna be updated.

@  Nevermore : (29 June 2020 - 09:43 AM)

I definitely don't intend to be reissued. Nobody would buy me.

@  Bass X0 : (29 June 2020 - 08:31 AM)

will anybody else attempt to be reissued?

@  wonko the sane? : (29 June 2020 - 07:51 AM)

*Gasp* Decepticons re-writing history to serve their own needs?!?!

@  Nevermore : (29 June 2020 - 05:48 AM)

The whole point of the DJD is that they're fanatical Megatron fanboys (especially Tarn) to the point of having their own headcanon taking priority of the actual canon, simply speaking.

@  TheMightyMol... : (29 June 2020 - 04:01 AM)

They didn't know the war was over until later. And then they denied it anyway.

@  PlutoniumBoss : (28 June 2020 - 10:47 PM)

"He's comin' right for us!"

@  Telly : (28 June 2020 - 08:40 PM)

was that even still in effect once the war ended?

@  TheMightyMol... : (28 June 2020 - 06:51 PM)

According to Roberts, soldiers can ignore the order to spare Whirl if he's directly threatening them. But mostly the DJD were out of their heads on Nuke and not really caring much at the time.

@  Xaaron : (28 June 2020 - 06:41 PM)

Also, they were hopped up on goofballs at the time.

@  wonko the sane? : (28 June 2020 - 06:06 PM)

Cause it was whirl. He opened his (non-existant.) gob at the just the right time to piss somebody off. Or, so I assume.

@  Maximus Ambus : (28 June 2020 - 06:00 PM)

If Whirl was off limits why did the DJD kill him?

@  TM2-Megatron : (27 June 2020 - 05:57 PM)

That sounds about right. I actually didn't get into it until the IQ expansion came out (which saved me a bit of expense)

@  Otaku : (27 June 2020 - 05:55 PM)

Weird question (and sorry for so many shouts): did Overpower really release in August of '95?  I could have sworn I attempted to play it with a classmate who shouldn't have been a classmate by that point.

@  Otaku : (27 June 2020 - 05:52 PM)

So... I don't have all my cards still somewhere. XP I still play Pokémon via the PTCGO, and I've been doing Card of the Days over on Pojo (on and off) since 2013.

@  Otaku : (27 June 2020 - 05:51 PM)

For both financial, personal, and practical reasons, all my collectibles had to go about 10 years ago: action figures, comic books, card games, RPG books, video games.


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#101 HellCat

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Posted 06 February 2019 - 03:14 AM

For whatever reason just spent most of the last 2 days sleeping.

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Posted 06 February 2019 - 08:44 AM

Happens to me a lot when I'm in a depressive episode. Doesn't always mean depression, but it might be worth writing the details down and discussing them when you get an appointment.


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Posted 06 February 2019 - 11:23 PM

there is never a good reason NOT to sleep. =]


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#104 HellCat

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Posted 12 February 2019 - 04:40 AM

So tomorrow morning I have the over the phone assessment, followed by an afternoon appointment with my GP concerning if I need to be signed off longer.

 

I'll be honest, not being at work has helped. I've tried not to run from my problems but that place is toxic. If I have to I'll have to go back and fit the therapy sessions in between shifts but it's a huge part of the problem.

 

I really wish the other shit wasn't happening. I had a workable plan to get out of here and into journalism full time and it's all gone to shit.



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Posted 12 February 2019 - 05:26 AM

I'm glad to hear the time off work has felt beneficial. Fingers crossed for whatever comes next.

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Posted 13 February 2019 - 06:42 AM

Had the assessment.

What a mess.

They asked some very prying questions about what I've been through and am going through, which I was honest about. The abuse, the self loathing, the attempted suicide, etc.

...And that got me "Does that really happen or is it just how you feel?" and "Try counting all the red objects in a room. That will enable you to deal with what you're going through."

I just feel like an idiot. I finally took people's advice and come away from it feeling patronised. I was very open I knew I was in a bad place and wanted to get healthy for the sake of myself and others and the response was like I'm just whining.

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Posted 13 February 2019 - 07:43 PM

...well that's just irritating. Kinda discourages me from considering getting back into therapy myself, to be honest.

 

And yes, I know HellCat's recent experiences aren't the norm, but still.


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Posted 13 February 2019 - 07:44 PM

It can take a while to find the right person for this kind of thing. Which is really not ideal. But some people are douchebags, or bad at their job, or just don't click with you. 


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Posted 13 February 2019 - 08:52 PM

It doesn't sound like this one would click with anyone. I hope you can get past that and continue to seek help.  Hopefully you can find a therapist that didn't get their license from a mail order catalog like this one did.

 

Seriously, that sounds like something that could be reported to whatever your version of the medial licensing board would be,


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Posted 13 February 2019 - 11:31 PM

Saw GP in afternoon. Signed me off rest of the month. Wanted to put me on medication but said I'm not ready to go that route yet so gave me a referral for a blood test to see if I have a chemical imbalance.

Also said my surgery has a good therapist that if I feel unhappy with the team I already mentioned he'd happily refer me to.

So better than the assessment went.

(Seriously, they told me to lean on friends and family "Actually they're all going through a lot themselves and part of why I feel bad is I can't help them. Don't want to lean on them anymore then I have." "Well they're there, aren't they?")

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Posted 13 February 2019 - 11:35 PM

...well that's just irritating. Kinda discourages me from considering getting back into therapy myself, to be honest.

 

And yes, I know HellCat's recent experiences aren't the norm, but still.

 

It might take you a few tries before you find a therapist you're comfortable with. You're going to be discussing deeply personal, potentially hurtful and/or uncomfortable details with them so you SHOULD be discerning. Don't settle when you go looking, find someone you like talking to. Very important.


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#112 HellCat

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Posted 13 February 2019 - 11:42 PM

Are you taking patients?

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Posted 13 February 2019 - 11:43 PM

Saw GP in afternoon. Signed me off rest of the month. Wanted to put me on medication but said I'm not ready to go that route yet so gave me a referral for a blood test to see if I have a chemical imbalance.

Also said my surgery has a good therapist that if I feel unhappy with the team I already mentioned he'd happily refer me to.

So better than the assessment went.

(Seriously, they told me to lean on friends and family "Actually they're all going through a lot themselves and part of why I feel bad is I can't help them. Don't want to lean on them anymore then I have." "Well they're there, aren't they?")

 

Glad you at least seem to have a good GP. Medication can be scary and is not something to be entered into lightly, but obviously can help in some cases - but it's great that your doctor is willing to explore different options rather than trying to railroad you in one direction. 


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Posted 15 February 2019 - 11:35 AM

So heard back today...not good.

 

I've been deemed not receiving a therapist but will be referred for likes of a social worker and medication.

 

Social worker. As in the people that deal with kids rescued from broken homes.

 

Not happy with that assessment and I'm going to contact my GP to ask about being referred to the therapist he mentioned. The assessment they've given I don't feel is a valid picture of who I am and given it's coming from Mrs 'Go outside and count all the blue flowers' I find it highly suspect.

 

I know I'm not mentally healthy. But a therapist is what I need, not a social worker.



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Posted 15 February 2019 - 11:55 AM

I think you're taking the social worker a bit too defensively; I'm having to quickly educate myself on social worker counseling since I wasn't fully aware they could do that themselves, but social workers wear many hats and fulfill a variety of functions beyond abused children. That said, if you're more comfortable with getting the therapist referral instead then go for it. Do what's going to make this process easier and less stressful for you -even in a hypothetical where the social worker would provide an objectively better process, it won't work as well when you feel like you're being passed off to them as damaged goods.


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Posted 15 February 2019 - 01:21 PM

Well what would you know about it, Ms Qualified Mental Health Professional? 

 

....Oh.



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Posted 19 February 2019 - 08:52 AM

So they did blood tests on me to check for chemical imbalance.

All came back fine. So bar testing I'm unaware of I'm not facing a chemical imbalance. I'm just nakedly this depressed.

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Posted 19 February 2019 - 03:52 PM

Which is... probably good? Pros and cons I guess, but presumably you're less likely to be pushed down a road towards medication, which you aren't keen on so that's a plus. But obviously there's something to be said for a diagnosis of something that can be directly addressed in a relatively "simple" way. 


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Posted 21 February 2019 - 09:34 PM

I know I've benn out of this thread for a while. It just seemed like some of my more recent issues have been better suited to another thread at the moment.

I did want to say, Hellcat, I'm glad you're still around and still feel comfortable coming to this thread. I hope you do find the right therapist/social worker for you. Like others have said, no matter who some else may tell you "have" to see, it's important that you feel comfortable with whoever you're with.

I hope things work out. Right now I'm just glad you're still in the fight.

On my end, my therapist is a therapist and not a psychiatrist, she can't outright prescribe anything. But she did write a suggestion to my doctor about seeing about getting me on some antidepressants. I see him Monday for my normal checkup. So I guess I'll bring it up to him then and see what happens.
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Posted 22 February 2019 - 11:20 AM

Alright: Story time!

 

A few years ago, my sister had a psychotic break: and was committed to a psych ward for a few weeks. She was on the pills, and she saw a therapist while inside. She got better. The doctors kept her pills up after she was released, but on the condition that she had to keep seeing the psychiatrist. When the psychiatrist saw no need to keep her on the pills anymore; WE, her family, requested that she keeps visiting the shrink a couple of times a year to keep her file open. You know, just in case. And it's always nice to have someone to talk to without being judged for what you say.

 

She hugging lied. She didn't visit the shrink like she was supposed to. Now she's having another hugging break, and because the hospital shrink cleared her file from the active pile: it'll take two to three weeks to get her to see them. She lied about her husband adamantly refusing to go to therapy, he was down with the idea because it meant a more stable wife and household for her kids. And since she's having a PSYCHOTIC break: it's the entire rest of the hugging world that broken and not her, so the pills the hospital gave her after going to the emergency room yesterday literally have to be forced down her goddamn throat because "there's nothing wrong with her".

 

And to top it off: I was just told that a social worker won't hugging touch her until she's stable again: which means she needs to take the pills she refuses to take. She's going to have to be committed AGAIN and there's a very real chance child services will take her hugging kids this time. She's killing her hugging mother when she does this, and she's traumatizing her family and she literally gives no hugs because "there's nothing wrong with her".

 

She's always been hugging broken: but she was able to deal before she had kids. Now my niece gets to endure ridiculous levels of stress at home cause mommy is a hugwit, and poor little kasper gets to go through all this shit AGAIN.


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