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@  Nevermore : (15 December 2019 - 04:05 PM)

The music, if you'd even call it that, adds to the creepy atmosphere. Apparently it was recorded using sounds created in a real nuclear power plant of the same type as Chernobyl.

@  Nevermore : (15 December 2019 - 04:04 PM)

In case you haven't seen it yet, I highly recommend the HBO mini-series "Chernobyl", which is about, well, you know. It's very intense and not for the faint-heartet. I'd say it's more scary than any horror flick, because (despite some artistic liberties taken with the behavior of some of the characters, and the timeline for some events), it's eerily real.

@  Sabrblade : (15 December 2019 - 10:51 AM)

Hey, at least you baked a cake in the bathroom. Not many can attest to that. :p

@  wonko the sane? : (14 December 2019 - 05:51 PM)

Nope. Forgot entirely, had to make another trip.

@  TheMightyMol... : (14 December 2019 - 04:04 PM)

Well, did you get water?

@  wonko the sane? : (14 December 2019 - 01:56 PM)

Went to the bathroom, shaved, baked a cake... wait, I only got up to get some water...

@  unluckiness : (14 December 2019 - 09:01 AM)

That's a common misconception. You see compared to the first run, it's a new mold.

@  PlutoniumBoss : (14 December 2019 - 03:27 AM)

Wouldn't that just add packaging authenticity? :D

@  SHIELD Agent 47 : (14 December 2019 - 01:44 AM)

I read a anecdote of someone recently receiving a Glacialord with mold because apparently online stores' warehouses have been sitting on Fansproject products like that for years.

@  Rycochet : (13 December 2019 - 11:56 AM)

Unlike many of his peers, Morton diesn't seem to have gone out of his way to try and take every drug going so he's aged remarkably well.

@  Donocropolis : (13 December 2019 - 11:39 AM)

Doesn't seem to have been a market for it, which is too bad, because it perfectly does what it sets out to do.

@  Donocropolis : (13 December 2019 - 11:38 AM)

Just opened it and suddenly I'm 9 years old again.

@  Donocropolis : (13 December 2019 - 11:38 AM)

Bought myself Fansproject Glacialord for my birthday during their Black Friday sale.

@  Nevermore : (12 December 2019 - 07:45 PM)

Morten Harket of A-ha might have aged 35 years on the outside, but his voice is still pretty much the same as it was in 1984. That's some great training and exercise for you.

@  wonko the sane? : (12 December 2019 - 06:59 PM)

Depends entirely on how badly you cooked them. What?

@  TheMightyMol... : (12 December 2019 - 05:33 PM)

Can it raise the dead?

@  RichardT1977 : (12 December 2019 - 05:33 PM)

Cheddar can do just about anything.

@  RichardT1977 : (12 December 2019 - 05:32 PM)

Cream cheese has to be on a bagel or crackers.

@  RichardT1977 : (12 December 2019 - 05:31 PM)

(for example: I like Swiss cheese on sandwiches, but find it merely tolerable by itself)

@  RichardT1977 : (12 December 2019 - 05:30 PM)

I mean are you eating it by itself? With crackers? On a sandwich?

@  TheMightyMol... : (12 December 2019 - 04:48 PM)

I would ask, but I'd rather not know.

@  PlutoniumBoss : (12 December 2019 - 03:38 PM)

With my mouth, usually.

@  RichardT1977 : (12 December 2019 - 08:48 AM)

Depends on how you're eating it.

@  PlutoniumBoss : (12 December 2019 - 01:40 AM)

Havarti, without a doubt.

@  Greebtron : (12 December 2019 - 01:28 AM)

Not Don, thanks. I'd like a writer who actually cares enough to do the job properly

@  Benbot : (11 December 2019 - 09:34 PM)

What's your favorite cheese? I'm not sure, but it's hard to beat muenster.

@  Maximus Ambus : (11 December 2019 - 05:10 PM)

Man I wish IDW could do a season 2.5 with a few writers like Michael Charles Hill or Donald F Glut or Paul Davids involved.

@  TheMightyMol... : (11 December 2019 - 04:33 PM)

They were looking for Skids, but the animators forgot he existed again.

@  Maximus Ambus : (11 December 2019 - 02:58 PM)

He regrouped with Omega Supreme, the Dinobots, Skyfire and the Protectobots.

@  Benbot : (11 December 2019 - 08:20 AM)

Did he get infected with the rest of the Autobots or did he smartly remain off-planet?

@  TheMightyMol... : (11 December 2019 - 05:38 AM)

He really just went to the beach for a couple of days, then called it in. Who's gonna follow up on it?

@  Maximus Ambus : (11 December 2019 - 05:05 AM)

Anyone really believe Cosmos searched far enough for more ingredient for Corrostop?

@  Nevermore : (11 December 2019 - 03:48 AM)

Oh, we are pretty good at "forgetting" about that. Insisting on sending people home on their overtime, THEN suddenly rushing to do the "backlog" stuff when it's really overdue.

@  wonko the sane? : (10 December 2019 - 05:43 PM)

I've yet to find an organization which didn't have a backlog of "stuff" that needs to be done, but isn't important enough to put on the schedule proper.

@  TM2-Megatron : (10 December 2019 - 05:01 PM)

I'm sure most good/bad (depending on your POV) bosses would be able to find something for the worker to do, in most cases, even if it's spending 8 hours pretending to push a broom around

@  Tm_Silverclaw : (10 December 2019 - 04:39 PM)

Still better than American jobs. x.x;

@  NotVeryKnightly : (10 December 2019 - 11:10 AM)

I'm pretty sure you've already mentioned this before. Especially that last one.

@  Nevermore : (10 December 2019 - 11:05 AM)

That can be fun if you're strong-willed enough. "Hey, you want to go home? Overtime reduction, there's nothing to do..." - "Nah, not today. I want to work."

@  Nevermore : (10 December 2019 - 11:04 AM)

This applies to the field of work as well. Meaning, your boss orders you to show up for a full shift, you show up on time and are absolutely willing to work, and then your boss realizes he has no work for you, your boss has to pay you for a full shift even if you don't work at all.

@  Nevermore : (10 December 2019 - 11:03 AM)

Fun fact: German law has a concept named "default in acceptance", which postulates that if there is a "service for payment" contract, the party that should provide the service correctly offers their due service, and the party that should pay fails to accept the service within due time, the second party still has to pay the first party even if there was no service delivered.

@  wonko the sane? : (08 December 2019 - 10:54 PM)

If it's seasonal affective disorder, check with your doc about vitamin D supplements.

@  Maximus Ambus : (08 December 2019 - 12:46 PM)

That's what I was thinking too, It's the christmas rush and if that's not stressful enough the cold weather can also impact mental health.

@  wonko the sane? : (08 December 2019 - 12:41 PM)

Might be a stupid question given the comment, BUT: have you done anything outside the ordinary lately? Might just be a stress reaction.

@  Maximus Ambus : (08 December 2019 - 12:29 PM)

I've experienced sleep paralysis with ghostly images and similar things in the past and can snap out of it through moving my fingers. I've definitely hallucinated before and members of both sides of the family have had similar experience, some suffered forms of mental instability in two cases schizophrenia.

@  wonko the sane? : (08 December 2019 - 10:47 AM)

So... either a hallucination or night terrors. Are you prone to this kind of thing?

@  Maximus Ambus : (07 December 2019 - 11:55 PM)

It kept repeating until I sat up.

@  Maximus Ambus : (07 December 2019 - 11:54 PM)

I've been up since three and when sheepish I was hallucinating something knocking twice against my bedroom door.

@  TheMightyMol... : (07 December 2019 - 06:58 PM)

Then repaint Apeface and Snapdragon as Transmetal Optimus Primal and Megatron. It's crazy enough to work.

@  PlutoniumBoss : (07 December 2019 - 05:32 PM)

Moral imperative.

@  Nevermore : (07 December 2019 - 05:13 PM)

Wishful thinking, rumor or leak?


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#81 Caldwin

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Posted 08 January 2019 - 07:14 AM

TDW: That wasn't an all-inclusive everyone that's posted here"we." That was a myself and others "we." I know it wasn't my call to make and I have absolutely hug-all to do with decisions made around here. I'm not that stupid. Still, I created this thread and can't say I'm not at least somewhat responsible for the environment that lead to this. That's why I said "we."

I'm not about to take on the staff for a decision they made. It's not my place and it wouldn't end well for me. I felt a mistake was made. I PM'd one of the staff to share why I felt a mistake was made. I posted an abridged version here because I took Marutans post as an invitation to do so. I have no interest in taking it any further than that.

Look, I realize none of us are professionals. When I started this, I had no illusions of swooping in with cape and cowl saving the entire world. Hell, I was surprised this thread got so much as a single reply, let alone four pages.

It was just that after some recent events in my life, and other history getting stirred up again, I felt like I needed to do something. Last night I was disappointed when it looked like that something backfired. But I have no wish of dragging out the point.
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Posted 08 January 2019 - 12:41 PM

And because I publicly vented my frustration with what happened, my boss is now upset with me in a way she hasn't been in ages.

Great...

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Posted 26 January 2019 - 07:38 AM

Very low week mainly due to work. After several times this week where I was left to sort everything myself (primarily due to co-workers who are buddies with managers sneaking off for extended smoke breaks) I spoke up yesterday. I didn't shout or anything, just stood my ground. Did not go well.

 

Was treated like a child, fobbed off and told I'm an arrogant person who can't accept it when it isn't the answer I want to hear. That I can never admit when I'm wrong.

 

I'm a stubborn bastard, I'll grant you that. But I'm entirely too tired of being dumped on. You can tell when people don't respect you and this was a clear example of it.

 

Really wish things hadn't gone to shit in 2016. I'd have already been out of there by now.



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Posted 27 January 2019 - 12:43 PM

atleast things going to shit is one of the few things you can count on in life.

 

ive been in a bit of a manic phase myself...but I got my room clean and wrote three articles...so theres ups and downs to everything.

 

the suck part comes when the manic fades and the depression hits.


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Posted 03 February 2019 - 11:20 AM

Saw a doctor today. He's signed me off for 2 weeks and given me contact details to arrange to speak to a therapist at local NHS health village. Will be their call if they think medication is suitable.

Once I got outside bawled my eyes out over how weak I was to need to be doing this. So many things right now that need me to be strong and here I am running away.

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Posted 03 February 2019 - 01:34 PM

strength is the knowledge that youve admitted you need help.


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Posted 03 February 2019 - 04:00 PM

There's nothing weak about needing help and being able to ask for it. Mental health is every bit as important as fixing broken bones and treating diseases.

The people who do think of it as a sign of weakness are usually so twisted up in their own damage that they can barely function.

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Posted 03 February 2019 - 05:03 PM

You are not weak, dude. Talking to a professional about this kind of stuff takes strength under any circumstances. Maybe medication is a good idea for you, maybe it's not necessary, but you're on a path to begin finding out and that is a good outcome, most likely with even better ones down the track.


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Posted 03 February 2019 - 05:53 PM

It is tough to admit you need help. "I'm 41 hugging years old and never needed a damn shrink in my entire life!" Well, yeah, but, the moment you realize that ending your own life is actually an option, at that point you need to do what you need to do.

It's not easy. In fact, it can be pretty damn hard taking that step. And even once you've made that first step to see a therapist, actually being open with what you need to talk about and not closing up, that can be even more difficult.

It's not weakness. You should be damn proud of yourself that you're finally taking the steps you need to take in order to get healthy.

That actually took me a long time to figure out myself.
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Posted 03 February 2019 - 08:50 PM

Once I got outside bawled my eyes out over how weak I was to need to be doing this. So many things right now that need me to be strong and here I am running away.


Not to be redundant, I understand that you feel weak for needing help. I get it, because I've lived it.

It is, however, not weaknesses. Someone online once said, and I agree: "You've had to be too strong, for too long."

It takes strength to seek help when you need it. I hope it goes very well for you.
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Posted 03 February 2019 - 09:14 PM

Yeah, HellCat - you're not weak.  You're doing the strong thing.

 

Going for mental help is hard. It takes a lot to realize you need the help, and then even more to get the help. 

 

It might work.  It might not.  But you're trying and that's a start. 

 

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Posted 04 February 2019 - 12:20 PM

It feels like weakness given what's happening right now and people close to me suffering. Maybe if I'd done this sooner...

Plus given I've unintentionally created the atmosphere that I go looking for fights/use people as punching bags, feels like some just want me to go off to therapy because they're sick of what a disruptive element I am.

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Posted 05 February 2019 - 02:45 AM

Ignore why anyone else wants you to get therapy. Don't do it for them, do it for you.


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Posted 05 February 2019 - 07:54 AM

They have to do an assessment of me over the phone to determine if I can receive therapy.

Said assessment won't be until next Wednesday. So I've got to hold out at least another week.

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Posted 05 February 2019 - 10:08 AM

...they have to do an assessment. To determine if you can receive therapy.

 

There's so much wrong with that.


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Posted 05 February 2019 - 01:05 PM

It's part of why I keep banging on about differences between US and UK and part of why I've been irked by accusations I "don't want to get healthy". There's a marked difference between US and UK responses and treatment of mental health.

Perfect example- before the assessment I have to fill in a form which flat out asks me if I believe things like I've failed my friends and family and believe I'd be better off dead. All to judge if I'm worthy of receiving therapy or not.

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Posted 05 February 2019 - 01:30 PM

That looks pretty similar to the assessment I have to do for my therapist every month or so, so the insurance has something they can use to quantify how well I'm doing. Asks you to mark how much you agree with statements like "My drug use causes problems for me at work," "I feel like something bad is going to happen," or "I blame myself when things go wrong." Just another annoying part of the process, much like the "new patient" intake forms you have to fill out whenever you see a new doctor.

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Posted 05 February 2019 - 02:02 PM

Sometimes you just gotta jump the hoops, stupid or otherwise.

It's always worth remembering that human beings are social animals by nature. Our ability to help each other is what makes us strong as a species.

No one, literally no human being alive today can say they don't depend on anyone else to survive.

So, yeah, seeking help isn't weakness. It's our greatest strength.

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Posted 05 February 2019 - 02:32 PM

Yeah, a lot of these initial assessments are just metrics and "getting to know you" questions. "Please rate these items on a scale from 'mild' to 'severe'" kind of things, just to try to isolate exactly where the problem lies so the therapist can address it directly. Every person is different, so it's normal for courses of therapy to be individualized.

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Posted 05 February 2019 - 02:45 PM

 

The past year I've been bouncing around psychiatrists after the one I really liked left the practice that my insurance covers. Every one of these switches has necessitated me filling out a very similar form to give the practitioner an idea of what they're walking into rather than, having to have the "Tell me about yourself" conversation. It just allows them to quickly survey the extent of your illness and judge your needs. Believe, jumping between psychiatrists isn't fun, and I'm not a fan of the current one either, but it's part of the process and the process is what will help you heal.


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