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@  Nevermore : (03 July 2020 - 06:59 AM)

Probably gonna assemble Devastator after work.

@  Nevermore : (03 July 2020 - 06:58 AM)

Ooooh. Overload arrived. He's surprisingly fun.

@  Bass X0 : (02 July 2020 - 04:00 PM)

He's sweeter than the average bear.

@  Maximus Ambus : (02 July 2020 - 03:14 PM)

Convert him to Maple Syrup.

@  Bass X0 : (02 July 2020 - 03:10 PM)

what would Canada do with Yogi?

@  Cyoti : (01 July 2020 - 12:51 PM)

We can deport Yogi back to Canada now.

@  Sabrblade : (01 July 2020 - 12:50 PM)

Jellystone National Pawk. A westful wetweat.

@  Rycochet : (01 July 2020 - 12:47 PM)

Jellystone. We're going to be plunged into a decade of poor animation. Fortunately we've been led by bad cartoon characters for years so we won't notice much difference.

@  Maximus Ambus : (01 July 2020 - 06:19 AM)

what next? YELLOWSTONE?

@  Nevermore : (01 July 2020 - 05:46 AM)

Thanks, dead person.

@  Bass X0 : (01 July 2020 - 05:06 AM)

congratulations to all survivors of the first half of 2020.

@  wonko the sane? : (30 June 2020 - 10:21 PM)

21 for me, but after numerous repetitions I got it down to 17 and a half.

@  TheMightyMol... : (30 June 2020 - 06:16 PM)

I transform in six steps from human to human sitting on my ass at the computer and back again!

@  -LittleAutob... : (30 June 2020 - 05:55 PM)

x-x when in vehicle mode we can travel much F A R T H E R-

@  wonko the sane? : (30 June 2020 - 05:52 PM)

Because despite the fact that we can travel around the world in the time it takes to get a good nights sleep and a couple of meals: people rarely wander more than 25 miles away from home for the duration of their lives.

@  Otaku : (30 June 2020 - 05:49 PM)

I don't know how many days that trip takes - especially while sightseeing - but explaining they're 3936 kilometers (2445 miles) apart gives an idea, paradoxically because it is too large to easily picture.

@  Otaku : (30 June 2020 - 05:44 PM)

Aye.  When I catch lay people discussing miles and not how long the trip takes, it is in an attempt to stress how far away something is... like NYC to LA.

@  ▲ndrusi : (30 June 2020 - 01:20 PM)

But I can imagine 45 *minutes* easily.

@  ▲ndrusi : (30 June 2020 - 01:20 PM)

I can imagine a mile, it's a distance I've run. I can't really imagine 45 miles.

@  ▲ndrusi : (30 June 2020 - 01:19 PM)

I think there's also an element of the thing where things that are much bigger than us all blur together.

@  Otaku : (30 June 2020 - 11:49 AM)

If you're not, then you're more concerned with how long it takes.  Actual distance doesn't tell you that very well.  Besides traffic and road conditions, you'll need to know what kind of driving (city/interstate/rural/etc.).

@  Otaku : (30 June 2020 - 11:47 AM)

Distance matters if you're being paid by the mile.

@  TM2-Megatron : (30 June 2020 - 11:44 AM)

Canadians are the same way, for the most part. If you're driving somewhere far, especially, it helps you plan out the day more than a distance in KM would.

@  Otaku : (30 June 2020 - 11:42 AM)

We use the time it takes to get someplace because that is what is relevant to us.

@  TheMightyMol... : (30 June 2020 - 10:55 AM)

Because even we can't figure out miles half the time.

@  Paladin : (30 June 2020 - 09:54 AM)

it's a big country with a lot of empty space. between our citizens' ears.

@  Bass X0 : (30 June 2020 - 09:52 AM)

Why do most Americans measure distance by hours of driving?

@  TM2-Megatron : (29 June 2020 - 07:26 PM)

And as a result the world's lone blu-ray release of the film, an Australian disc that came out 7 years ago, now goes for hundreds of dollars on eBay. Thanks Disney.

@  TM2-Megatron : (29 June 2020 - 06:21 PM)

Well, they censored Daryl Hannah's butt in Splash :rolleyes

@  Paladin : (29 June 2020 - 05:43 PM)

maybe New Mutants is too bad even for D+.

@  Steevy Maximus : (29 June 2020 - 05:00 PM)

X-Men films are coming to Disney+ next month. But will they censor Hugh Jackman's butt?

@  -LittleAutob... : (29 June 2020 - 12:44 PM)

Pft.

@  TheMightyMol... : (29 June 2020 - 11:59 AM)

Behold! Night Strike Galvatron!

@  Bass X0 : (29 June 2020 - 09:53 AM)

I will grant you a recolored body, and recolored troops to command.

@  Cybersnark : (29 June 2020 - 09:47 AM)

I don't want to be reissued. This body sucks, I wanna be updated.

@  Nevermore : (29 June 2020 - 09:43 AM)

I definitely don't intend to be reissued. Nobody would buy me.

@  Bass X0 : (29 June 2020 - 08:31 AM)

will anybody else attempt to be reissued?

@  wonko the sane? : (29 June 2020 - 07:51 AM)

*Gasp* Decepticons re-writing history to serve their own needs?!?!

@  Nevermore : (29 June 2020 - 05:48 AM)

The whole point of the DJD is that they're fanatical Megatron fanboys (especially Tarn) to the point of having their own headcanon taking priority of the actual canon, simply speaking.

@  TheMightyMol... : (29 June 2020 - 04:01 AM)

They didn't know the war was over until later. And then they denied it anyway.

@  PlutoniumBoss : (28 June 2020 - 10:47 PM)

"He's comin' right for us!"

@  Telly : (28 June 2020 - 08:40 PM)

was that even still in effect once the war ended?

@  TheMightyMol... : (28 June 2020 - 06:51 PM)

According to Roberts, soldiers can ignore the order to spare Whirl if he's directly threatening them. But mostly the DJD were out of their heads on Nuke and not really caring much at the time.

@  Xaaron : (28 June 2020 - 06:41 PM)

Also, they were hopped up on goofballs at the time.

@  wonko the sane? : (28 June 2020 - 06:06 PM)

Cause it was whirl. He opened his (non-existant.) gob at the just the right time to piss somebody off. Or, so I assume.

@  Maximus Ambus : (28 June 2020 - 06:00 PM)

If Whirl was off limits why did the DJD kill him?

@  TM2-Megatron : (27 June 2020 - 05:57 PM)

That sounds about right. I actually didn't get into it until the IQ expansion came out (which saved me a bit of expense)

@  Otaku : (27 June 2020 - 05:55 PM)

Weird question (and sorry for so many shouts): did Overpower really release in August of '95?  I could have sworn I attempted to play it with a classmate who shouldn't have been a classmate by that point.

@  Otaku : (27 June 2020 - 05:52 PM)

So... I don't have all my cards still somewhere. XP I still play Pokémon via the PTCGO, and I've been doing Card of the Days over on Pojo (on and off) since 2013.

@  Otaku : (27 June 2020 - 05:51 PM)

For both financial, personal, and practical reasons, all my collectibles had to go about 10 years ago: action figures, comic books, card games, RPG books, video games.


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#81 Caldwin

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Posted 08 January 2019 - 07:14 AM

TDW: That wasn't an all-inclusive everyone that's posted here"we." That was a myself and others "we." I know it wasn't my call to make and I have absolutely hug-all to do with decisions made around here. I'm not that stupid. Still, I created this thread and can't say I'm not at least somewhat responsible for the environment that lead to this. That's why I said "we."

I'm not about to take on the staff for a decision they made. It's not my place and it wouldn't end well for me. I felt a mistake was made. I PM'd one of the staff to share why I felt a mistake was made. I posted an abridged version here because I took Marutans post as an invitation to do so. I have no interest in taking it any further than that.

Look, I realize none of us are professionals. When I started this, I had no illusions of swooping in with cape and cowl saving the entire world. Hell, I was surprised this thread got so much as a single reply, let alone four pages.

It was just that after some recent events in my life, and other history getting stirred up again, I felt like I needed to do something. Last night I was disappointed when it looked like that something backfired. But I have no wish of dragging out the point.
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Posted 08 January 2019 - 12:41 PM

And because I publicly vented my frustration with what happened, my boss is now upset with me in a way she hasn't been in ages.

Great...

#83 HellCat

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Posted 26 January 2019 - 07:38 AM

Very low week mainly due to work. After several times this week where I was left to sort everything myself (primarily due to co-workers who are buddies with managers sneaking off for extended smoke breaks) I spoke up yesterday. I didn't shout or anything, just stood my ground. Did not go well.

 

Was treated like a child, fobbed off and told I'm an arrogant person who can't accept it when it isn't the answer I want to hear. That I can never admit when I'm wrong.

 

I'm a stubborn bastard, I'll grant you that. But I'm entirely too tired of being dumped on. You can tell when people don't respect you and this was a clear example of it.

 

Really wish things hadn't gone to shit in 2016. I'd have already been out of there by now.



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Posted 27 January 2019 - 12:43 PM

atleast things going to shit is one of the few things you can count on in life.

 

ive been in a bit of a manic phase myself...but I got my room clean and wrote three articles...so theres ups and downs to everything.

 

the suck part comes when the manic fades and the depression hits.


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#85 HellCat

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Posted 03 February 2019 - 11:20 AM

Saw a doctor today. He's signed me off for 2 weeks and given me contact details to arrange to speak to a therapist at local NHS health village. Will be their call if they think medication is suitable.

Once I got outside bawled my eyes out over how weak I was to need to be doing this. So many things right now that need me to be strong and here I am running away.

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Posted 03 February 2019 - 01:34 PM

strength is the knowledge that youve admitted you need help.


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I see behind a thousand lies that you try to hide

I bleed inside: you left your knife but I'm still alive
I...love the way you kill me
I love the way you watch me die

Life or death a bullet to the chest
I'd do it again...
Just when I think I've cut you out
You come with open arms to drag me down


#87 Cybersnark

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Posted 03 February 2019 - 04:00 PM

There's nothing weak about needing help and being able to ask for it. Mental health is every bit as important as fixing broken bones and treating diseases.

The people who do think of it as a sign of weakness are usually so twisted up in their own damage that they can barely function.

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Posted 03 February 2019 - 05:03 PM

You are not weak, dude. Talking to a professional about this kind of stuff takes strength under any circumstances. Maybe medication is a good idea for you, maybe it's not necessary, but you're on a path to begin finding out and that is a good outcome, most likely with even better ones down the track.


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Posted 03 February 2019 - 05:53 PM

It is tough to admit you need help. "I'm 41 hugging years old and never needed a damn shrink in my entire life!" Well, yeah, but, the moment you realize that ending your own life is actually an option, at that point you need to do what you need to do.

It's not easy. In fact, it can be pretty damn hard taking that step. And even once you've made that first step to see a therapist, actually being open with what you need to talk about and not closing up, that can be even more difficult.

It's not weakness. You should be damn proud of yourself that you're finally taking the steps you need to take in order to get healthy.

That actually took me a long time to figure out myself.
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Posted 03 February 2019 - 08:50 PM

Once I got outside bawled my eyes out over how weak I was to need to be doing this. So many things right now that need me to be strong and here I am running away.


Not to be redundant, I understand that you feel weak for needing help. I get it, because I've lived it.

It is, however, not weaknesses. Someone online once said, and I agree: "You've had to be too strong, for too long."

It takes strength to seek help when you need it. I hope it goes very well for you.
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Posted 03 February 2019 - 09:14 PM

Yeah, HellCat - you're not weak.  You're doing the strong thing.

 

Going for mental help is hard. It takes a lot to realize you need the help, and then even more to get the help. 

 

It might work.  It might not.  But you're trying and that's a start. 

 

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#92 HellCat

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Posted 04 February 2019 - 12:20 PM

It feels like weakness given what's happening right now and people close to me suffering. Maybe if I'd done this sooner...

Plus given I've unintentionally created the atmosphere that I go looking for fights/use people as punching bags, feels like some just want me to go off to therapy because they're sick of what a disruptive element I am.

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Posted 05 February 2019 - 02:45 AM

Ignore why anyone else wants you to get therapy. Don't do it for them, do it for you.


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Posted 05 February 2019 - 07:54 AM

They have to do an assessment of me over the phone to determine if I can receive therapy.

Said assessment won't be until next Wednesday. So I've got to hold out at least another week.

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Posted 05 February 2019 - 10:08 AM

...they have to do an assessment. To determine if you can receive therapy.

 

There's so much wrong with that.


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Posted 05 February 2019 - 01:05 PM

It's part of why I keep banging on about differences between US and UK and part of why I've been irked by accusations I "don't want to get healthy". There's a marked difference between US and UK responses and treatment of mental health.

Perfect example- before the assessment I have to fill in a form which flat out asks me if I believe things like I've failed my friends and family and believe I'd be better off dead. All to judge if I'm worthy of receiving therapy or not.

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Posted 05 February 2019 - 01:30 PM

That looks pretty similar to the assessment I have to do for my therapist every month or so, so the insurance has something they can use to quantify how well I'm doing. Asks you to mark how much you agree with statements like "My drug use causes problems for me at work," "I feel like something bad is going to happen," or "I blame myself when things go wrong." Just another annoying part of the process, much like the "new patient" intake forms you have to fill out whenever you see a new doctor.

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Posted 05 February 2019 - 02:02 PM

Sometimes you just gotta jump the hoops, stupid or otherwise.

It's always worth remembering that human beings are social animals by nature. Our ability to help each other is what makes us strong as a species.

No one, literally no human being alive today can say they don't depend on anyone else to survive.

So, yeah, seeking help isn't weakness. It's our greatest strength.

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Posted 05 February 2019 - 02:32 PM

Yeah, a lot of these initial assessments are just metrics and "getting to know you" questions. "Please rate these items on a scale from 'mild' to 'severe'" kind of things, just to try to isolate exactly where the problem lies so the therapist can address it directly. Every person is different, so it's normal for courses of therapy to be individualized.

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Posted 05 February 2019 - 02:45 PM

 

The past year I've been bouncing around psychiatrists after the one I really liked left the practice that my insurance covers. Every one of these switches has necessitated me filling out a very similar form to give the practitioner an idea of what they're walking into rather than, having to have the "Tell me about yourself" conversation. It just allows them to quickly survey the extent of your illness and judge your needs. Believe, jumping between psychiatrists isn't fun, and I'm not a fan of the current one either, but it's part of the process and the process is what will help you heal.


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