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@  wonko the sane? : (28 November 2020 - 03:00 PM)

Oh my god! WFC ravage is adorable! Who's a pudgy kitty? Yes you are!

@  Maximus Ambus : (28 November 2020 - 09:50 AM)

The 86 line prevented made me reconsider a new years resolution.

@  unluckiness : (28 November 2020 - 04:33 AM)

And Devastator because I'm a sucker for combiners

@  unluckiness : (28 November 2020 - 04:32 AM)

Decided to stick with the main cast from 2007 and a few assorted ones here and there.

@  TheMightyMol... : (27 November 2020 - 02:02 PM)

I said I wouldn't buy a lot, now I have seven. And at least three might be on the culling pile.

@  Maximus Ambus : (27 November 2020 - 11:44 AM)

"I'll just get one" I said now I have almost twenty Studio Series figures.

@  wonko the sane? : (27 November 2020 - 11:19 AM)

The geese are fleeing... death comes soon...

@  unluckiness : (25 November 2020 - 07:20 PM)

Not even head, just a faceeven

@  TheMightyMol... : (25 November 2020 - 12:58 PM)

Just stick a Megatron head on Optimal Optimus.

@  Sabrblade : (25 November 2020 - 12:46 PM)

There was also an evil-looking black and gray redeco of the RobotMasters toy

@  Arazyr : (25 November 2020 - 11:54 AM)

That's KIND-OF what I consider the Throne of the Primes Primal to be...

@  wonko the sane? : (25 November 2020 - 11:16 AM)

I would buy the hell out a nemesis primal...

@  Bass X0 : (25 November 2020 - 11:15 AM)

I'm surprised there's not been a Nemesis Primal given all the Nemesis Primes.

@  unluckiness : (23 November 2020 - 03:17 AM)

The real Drifts were the Windblades we made along the way

@  PlutoniumBoss : (23 November 2020 - 02:25 AM)

Drift-kun 2 Electric Boobylube

@  ▲ndrusi : (22 November 2020 - 11:36 PM)

I'm pretty sure Drift 2 was Empire of Stone.

@  Sabrblade : (22 November 2020 - 10:06 PM)

I thought people said Prime Wheeljack was Drift 2.

@  Maximus Ambus : (22 November 2020 - 03:51 PM)

Windblade was Drift.2.

@  TheMightyMol... : (22 November 2020 - 02:44 PM)

Drift with boobs.

@  Rycochet : (22 November 2020 - 11:50 AM)

I can't imagine a live action movie version of Windblade being all that different from Drift. Not my thing, but not the worst thing I've ever seen.

@  Bass X0 : (22 November 2020 - 09:54 AM)

The thought of Movie aesthetic Windblade makes me feel sick.

@  NotVeryKnightly : (22 November 2020 - 08:47 AM)

Though, the fact that Japanese people would pay for Windblade toys in the $30-40 range doesn't mean they'd pay however much MPs are going for now.

@  NotVeryKnightly : (22 November 2020 - 08:44 AM)

Back when I made a habit of checking Mandarake for pre-owned TFs, Windblade's toys went for surprisingly high prices. By which I mean not lower than the original price.

@  Maximus Ambus : (22 November 2020 - 08:15 AM)

If she's in the next movie you might get her.

@  unluckiness : (22 November 2020 - 07:58 AM)

Japan didn't get most of the IDW comics and are the target market for MP. They basically know windblade from a few crappy pack-in comics and a show that wasn't particularly popular there. Unless they start cranking out Cyberverse MPs, it's not very likely.

@  TheMightyMol... : (22 November 2020 - 04:24 AM)

Again, depends if she's popular enough in Japan to warrant it. Our view of which characters are popular is not the same as Takara's.

@  Bass X0 : (22 November 2020 - 01:53 AM)

So characters like Windblade then.

@  TheMightyMol... : (21 November 2020 - 07:19 PM)

They're complicated and expensive to design. By necessity, they're gonna be restricted to well-known characters who are more likely to sell.

@  Bass X0 : (21 November 2020 - 07:05 PM)

I don’t think Masterpiece toys should be restricted to only show characters.

@  Rycochet : (21 November 2020 - 03:09 PM)

If she wasn't in the Sunbow cartoon, Live Action movie or Beast Wars and can't be repainted from someone else, she's not getting an MP.

@  wonko the sane? : (21 November 2020 - 12:44 PM)

They'll make their money back if they include the metal thong...

@  TheMightyMol... : (21 November 2020 - 12:29 PM)

Is she popular enough in Japan that Takara would even try?

@  Paladin : (21 November 2020 - 11:23 AM)

depends. will that one also have a giant metal thong?

@  Bass X0 : (21 November 2020 - 11:10 AM)

Should there be a Masterpiece Windblade?

@  -LittleAutob... : (20 November 2020 - 12:46 PM)

EIGHT WORDS! THATS A RECORD! XD

@  wonko the sane? : (20 November 2020 - 09:08 AM)

So you were hired by a middle easterner! AHA!

@  ▲ndrusi : (19 November 2020 - 11:45 PM)

that's eight words

@  Bass X0 : (19 November 2020 - 03:56 PM)

"I only want to hear one word from you... The name of the guy who hired ya!"

@  Maximus Ambus : (19 November 2020 - 12:41 PM)

It's great how they reference G1 concepts like this one features the harmony from the episode Carnage in C Minor and and Slugslingers featured anti electrons from Grimlocks New Brain.

@  Steevy Maximus : (18 November 2020 - 10:01 PM)

Or at least those little story blurbs like Beast Hunters had. Especially for stuff like Selects which tend to exist in their own little side world

@  Maximus Ambus : (17 November 2020 - 04:03 PM)

I got me Legends Soundwave, Be cool if the next Generations toyline had a mini comic with the instructions.

@  Maximus Ambus : (16 November 2020 - 03:42 AM)

Aw no unusual activity on my Paypal Ebay, Amazon and Netflix account in one day! All I have to do it verify on those E-Mails and I'm all set..... wait a mo, I'm not on Netflix!

@  Tm_Silverclaw : (14 November 2020 - 11:56 PM)

I swear though.. The idea of "Catch up" is stupid.

@  TM2-Megatron : (14 November 2020 - 11:25 PM)

That's irritating, but it sounds par for the course with new hardware release. Within a year, there'll probably be some good stuff out there that does it all.

@  Tm_Silverclaw : (14 November 2020 - 11:23 PM)

4K/HDR switches are.. iffy.. Because most of them can't do 4K and HDR at the same time.. Or can't do 120hz... and all sorts of things the new TVs have built in, and the new consoles use...

@  TM2-Megatron : (14 November 2020 - 11:18 PM)

Maybe now that the PS5's made the whole 4K thing a little more mainstream, the hardware will start becoming more common. I know that's one of the hopes the physical media community has for the 100GB discs the PS5 is going to be using. Prior to this, they were very expensive tor replicate compared to a regular blu-ray and not used very often

@  TM2-Megatron : (14 November 2020 - 11:17 PM)

Up to now, there really haven't been a whole lot of 4K disc players to choose from... Samsung stopped making them altogether when they couldn't compete with the others, so your main choices are a few models of Panasonic or Sony

@  TM2-Megatron : (14 November 2020 - 11:14 PM)

Is there no such thing as a 4K/HDR switch yet?

@  Tm_Silverclaw : (14 November 2020 - 10:10 PM)

Which is fine.. But that still doesn't explain why they arn't putting out up to date HDMI switch boxes to get.. more money.

@  TM2-Megatron : (14 November 2020 - 09:59 PM)

My only TV with a respectable number of ports is my OLED 4K/3D, which has 4 HDMI, 2 USB 2.0s, 1 USB 3.0 and some weird proprietary thing that acts as both component and composite, depending on what you need. But it retailed for $10k when it first came out (I bought it 14 months later for less than half that). THey're going to get as many corners on less expensive sets as they can, which usually means only providing 2 HDMIs.


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#41 Caldwin

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Posted 07 October 2018 - 06:14 AM

I'm sorry if I went too far. I was just trying to be helpful and it's a serious enough topic that I didn't want to hold back any suggestions that could be useful.

 
That's fine. That's more than fine. I appreciate the suggestions and help from everyone. I don't know why I didn't think about separating the barrel until ultra magnus13 suggested it. It's just for a moment there I felt kinda flooded with responses which...kinda got uncomfortable.

I've had depression most of my life. A lot of it is due to my family. My father was abusive, most men on either side of the family are trash and so I get tarred with the same brush. It's crippling when the patriarch of the family hurt everyone under his roof including you but because you're male too it's assumed you're his second coming.
 
Add in that I'm 'weird' (always preferred sci-fi and solitude to more typical 'blokey' things) and I have a low voice that makes it difficult/boring to listen to me speak and my confidence is at an all time low.
 
Tried to kill myself a few times, mainly by means of walking in front of a car. I know some here seem to think I only talk about depression and suicide as some childish means for attention but for me it's very real. Some days the only thing that keeps me going is sheer anger and stubborness over how unfair my life has been. But then there are the days where I hate my own guts and feel everyone would be happier without me. Doesn't help people have confirmed as much many times.


I don't really know how to respond to most of this. My parents and I have pretty good relationships. I mean, like I said above, there are some things I just don't think I can talk to them about. But I just don't know how to talk to someone who's been through what you've been through because, well, I've never been through it.

I think I can relate to how most people pass off what I say as joking around or attention grabbing...because to be honest, for a while there I think I worked kinda hard to make sure that's how they took it. I wasn't comfortable enough to just come out and talk about things, so I joked about it in that whole "kidding not kidding" kinda way to now if I say something, most people don't take it seriously even when I'm trying to be serious.

Not sure what to do about that except to say I'm glad you shared here where at least here, we know you're not kidding and can take it seriously.
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Posted 15 October 2018 - 01:22 AM

So, with NYCC having come and gone, I am happy to say that for the first time ever, my post-con depression is practically non-existent. This is an insanely different feeling compared to years past. (and when I say non-existent, I mean just that specific type of my depressions. there are some others hanging about, sadly.)
 
See, i always generally feel like if i enjoy myself in any way, shape, or form, said enjoyment get twisted into some kind of punishment...be it massive physical pain, some kind of technology breaking, me spiraling down into a depressive episode...OR, like last year after NYCC, ALL THREE!
 
But i guess my body, being that its still healing, is doing a little better than i thought...because aside from my regular pain, i've only got some "cold burning" / aching in my left lower back, left hip side, and left hip front thats out of the ordinary. No dead tech and no darkness thats not normally whats in my head. And YES, this scares the ever-loving crap out of me...i feel like im living under the Sword of Damocles here...but id very much rather be afraid of a potential future hell, than be currently living in it.
 
I guess the one thing that invariably always bothers me after something like Comic-Con, is the deep overwhelming feeling of loneliness that usually settles in while im there, and then follows me home for a while. I blame it on being best described as, an "Extroverted Introvert". I want to have friends, or a Girlfriend, but i can only really deal with the world through the "Mask of the Extrovert", what i refer to as "Being On" (basically meaning i talk alot, make a ton of jokes, and try to get to know people, all the while hiding who i actually am...because my anxiety, my fear, and my insecurities have me completely convinced that no one, especially the kind of girl i would be interested in, could possibly ever like the real me.).
 
Its nights like tonight, where i cant shut my brain off and im just trying to ride out the manic energy phase, that i cant help be amazed at just how incredibly messed up a person i really am. I would never want to be trapped in the Euclidean prison that is sanity, but it would be really nice to visit it sometimes.

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Posted 17 October 2018 - 11:27 PM

Caldwin: since we know each other in Mayhem/Discord chats and I know a bit about your situation, I'm glad to see that you're getting help. Message me anytime on here/Discord if you need to talk.

 

Depression to me has been a bit of a foreign concept. For the most part, when something bad is happening, I can try little things to make me happy, or at least take my mind off of it. It's ok to feel sad. Look at things from another perspective. Play a sad movie or song, draw something to get the feels all out. Watch a really stupid show for awhile. Talk to people online/IRL. Hug someone (or a pillow). I've definitely had periods where I felt really crappy and one thing after hits. But I know it doesn't stay that way. That being said, I've also had a couple of times where I thought things would be better/easier if I was dead, and I tried killing myself... by holding my breath (what can I say, I was very young and basically throwing a tantrum). I also nearly drowned as a kid, that panic and fear of dying is definitely not something I care to repeat.

 

This does not mean by any measure that I am sane, or well adjusted. Feeling nothing is scarier to me than feeling down. My imagination is very vivid and active-whether I want to or not, I frequently imagine horrible things happening so it won't be too shocking when it does happen, or I am relieved when it doesn't happen. Somehow, visualizing it and thinking not only about the bad things, but also how I would try to handle those bad things, makes it easier to detach from it emotionally a bit and not get over anxious. Of course, I can't prepare for every possibility, and the bad things can still hit hard when they do happen. Thanks to said imagination, I've had my share of really disturbing/bad dreams/thoughts that I'd rather not repeat.

 

What makes me anxious is how to help loved ones dealing with depression. I can typically bounce back pretty quickly, and those who know me know how to cheer me up. I'm not necessarily talking about Caldwin, but it feels pretty bad when you're trying to cheer someone else up and nothing works. What do I do when I can tell you're down but don't want to talk about it? Do you really want to be left alone, or do I keep prying? If you do talk, I might not even have any helpful advice or even understand what you're going through. At least, though, I can listen.



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Posted 18 October 2018 - 03:44 PM

Thanks for the reply Med. I saw my name so wanted to reply. But I don't want to say much because I've been feeling a bit irritable lately ...especially about this...which can sometimes make me snap at people who don't deserve it. But thanks for keeping this going.

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I'm glad you had fun at the convention. I wish I knew what else to say here. I guess I'm lucky in that I have my good times to go along with my bad times while your back is always going to be with you.

That's why I think you need to enjoy things like this convention when they come along. Instead of thinking of it like waiting for the pendulum to swing back the other way towards pain, be happy that for once it's swinging the way of having an actual good time?

I don't know...I hope that helps.
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Posted 19 October 2018 - 08:13 PM

I also nearly drowned as a kid, that panic and fear of dying is definitely not something I care to repeat.


Me too. I wonder if that helped to stop me from doing anything when I went through my long suicidal phase. I've had a few days that could have been my last and not by my choice, and it just would not have been good enough. It's a feeling I'm not currently able to picture putting myself through on purpose.


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Posted 23 October 2018 - 11:43 PM

Yeah. I knew someone who also nearly drowned but they were under longer and got to the point of starting to give up/feel peaceful. I don't even want to be ok with the thought of even getting to that point. Maybe there will come a point when I have nothing/no one left to live for, but hopefully it won't happen anytime soon. I think one of the hardest things to understand for me about depression is that there isn't always a reason for it, sometimes it just happens. Sometimes you can just see people (or animals) just... shutting down and creating walls around themselves. :/



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Posted 24 October 2018 - 10:15 PM

I think one of the hardest things to understand for me about depression is that there isn't always a reason for it, sometimes it just happens. Sometimes you can just see people (or animals) just... shutting down and creating walls around themselves. :/

It helps to think of it like this: Depression is the reason for being depressed.

 

Like, think about having a cold, right?  You go around sniffling and sneezing and coughing and feeling miserable and someone asks if you're ok and you say "I have a cold".  The cold is why you behave that way.

 

It's very similar with depression.  Only, because it can affect the perception of the person experiencing it, it's very hard for them to say "I have depression."  They're more likely to say "Life is shit.", because, at that moment, their depression is making them feel as though life is shit and probably always has been shit and will probably continue to be shit forever.  When/if the depression lifts, then they can possibly look back and go "Oh wow, I was depressed", but while it's happening, it's extremely difficult to recognize from the PoV of the person dealing with it.

 

But it's an important distinction because one big mistake a person suffering from depression can make is to think that there's 'no reason' for being depressed.  Because when people think of being depressed, they tend to relate it to temporary causes, trying to connect it to something that happened to them. And it's easy to forget that what causes clinical depression is not an event that happened to them that day or in the recent past, but a disorder in the brain.  Depression in the clinical disorder sense is a malfunction in the brain's chemistry which prevents sensations of happiness from being triggered as they 'normally' would.  It can come in different forms and severities and can be difficult to recognize if the person suffering doesn't have a consistent pattern of behavior.

 

But there is always a cause. Nothing happens 'for no reason'. Depression happens because of a disorder in the brain and for some people suffering from it, that's a very reassuring thing to know.


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Posted 24 October 2018 - 11:46 PM

I have unusal mental problems.

Yes.. I am depressed a good portion of the time, most of the time I'm not actively suicidal. I simply don't -care- if I die or not.

However my biggest problems is my inability to handle any form of anger.

That and the entire hugging universe would be better off if I ceased to exist.



#49 Echowarrior

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Posted 25 October 2018 - 11:07 AM

I have unusal mental problems.

Yes.. I am depressed a good portion of the time, most of the time I'm not actively suicidal. I simply don't -care- if I die or not.

However my biggest problems is my inability to handle any form of anger.

That and the entire hugging universe would be better off if I ceased to exist.

 

...yeah, I can sympathize with that. Give me a bad day where it feels like nothing's going right and I'm being blamed for it, and surround me with people that do nothing but encourage a foul mood, and it gets even worse.

 

Maybe I'm just too sensitive to this stuff, I dunno.


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Posted 26 October 2018 - 11:36 AM

 

i can only really deal with the world through the "Mask of the Extrovert", what i refer to as "Being On"

 

I call it The Puppet. I've got it programmed pretty well by now, I can wind it up and let it do its thing without too much thought.


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Posted 26 October 2018 - 02:09 PM

 
i can only really deal with the world through the "Mask of the Extrovert", what i refer to as "Being On"
 

I call it The Puppet. I've got it programmed pretty well by now, I can wind it up and let it do its thing without too much thought.
'Being on' was something I only got once I heard the term. I like to think of it as a 'showbiz time', when you're the host and it's you who has to make everyone shine. Like it's a friendlier and less fake version of Marge's mom's lesson.


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Posted 26 October 2018 - 02:49 PM

Yeah, there's a really distinct switch. I do it a lot at work, while I'm out delivering meds. I don't remember deciding to do it, but it definitely came out of having to cope with talking to people while also being terrified of talking to people.

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Posted 26 October 2018 - 03:48 PM

This part I can totally relate to. Not the depression, but the facade of being outgoing when all I really want to do is wear headphones and not talk to anybody at all. In my case it stems from a task I had at my previous employer that involved being on the phone 7-8 hours a day, which is my idea of a shitty helljob. I had to develop kind of a buffer with all the cliche small talk about weather and stuff that could be reeled off sort of by rote repetition. I freaking HATED doing that job.
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Posted 26 October 2018 - 08:38 PM

Oh yeah, definitely. I have different masks/layers depending on the situation and people I'm with. Work, my side of the family, TMM's side of the family, friends, etc. I work on phones and have my "phone voice" which I am super cautious of my tone/manner. Much easier than face to face for me, at least I can hit the mute button and sigh.



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Posted 15 November 2018 - 01:57 PM

I had an abdominal ultrasound last week...Ive been having issues with nausea for years, ever since a particularly nasty kidney stone / kidney infection / bladder infection trio in my early 20s...anyway, apparently I have a "Severely Fatty Liver"...what is probably "non-alcoholic liver disease".

 

I swear on all that is holy and un-holyh I am not changing my diet one iota. The food I eat, and the stuff I drink is all I hugging have. I will not be "involuntarily celibate" from food. This will be another one of those situations where I have to life my life for everyone "who loves me" instead of for myself...I...I am just so tired of being in pain, or being sick.


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I bleed inside: you left your knife but I'm still alive
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Life or death a bullet to the chest
I'd do it again...
Just when I think I've cut you out
You come with open arms to drag me down


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Posted 24 December 2018 - 09:48 PM

I hate to bump this just to bump it, especially since it was on page three, so who knows if this is even needed anymore. But this is the season when many people tend to have things worse than other times.

Me? I'm still in therapy dealing with certain issues. I don't think I'm in any danger of ending my life now. I'm feeling kinda down having spent my days off with my family and now I'm at my house again. It does make it feel kinda extra lonely.

But I'm really fine all things considered. I just wanted to make sure people remember this thing exists in case they need it.
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Posted 25 December 2018 - 11:18 AM

Given how frustrating today's been, I appreciate the reminder.


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Posted 05 January 2019 - 03:10 PM

With the Brexit situation going badly, I've been looking into suicide. Get my affairs in order, leave something that explains my thinking and then do myself in in an out of the way manner that hurts no one else.

 

Back in 2016 I had a choice- take my limited funds and find some clumsy way out of the UK or stay and fight. I chose the latter. It has been painful and costly but I kept at it. Along the way, I've frequently called out what I see as the apathy of Remain and been made out to be some kind of mole for the other side.

Except now we have 3 months left and people are agreeing too late my calls were right. Singing and dancing won't stop this. Nor will holding out for the party leader who has constantly defended Brexit to the point of going against party policy to switch sides.And so we're pretty much just waiting 3 months for the inevitable disaster. No food, medicine or human rights. Soldiers on the streets, etc.

 

I've had a hard life in general. Never particularly welcomed. The unwanted second child who was accidentally conceived. Nearly died at least 4 times because of my father.

 

I've struggled to make something of myself regardless, even when my shit life has continued to kick me. And now I face the absolute nightmare scenario. Worse, one I correctly judged at several points and advised people on but was ignored. A nightmare scenario that could have thus been avoided if anyone had any respect for me.

 

So if I have no choice left, the option seems clear.



#59 Caldwin

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Posted 05 January 2019 - 08:01 PM

I hate dealing with politics. So while I vaguely know that Brexit is the UK trying to leave the EU, I really have no concept of what that means for the common person or everything that implies.

It just feels like politics everywhere has just turned to so much poison. So I just try to stay out of it as best I can.

I know staying out of it may not be an option for you. That's not why I said all that. I'm just saying I really have absolutely no clue what you must be going through.

But I do hope you find another option. Even when I wanted to end things myself, I think I still knew that there had to be another option. It may be a harsh option or one I may not feel ready to take on. But compared to suicide...

I honestly don't know how to finish that thought. I don't want to trivialize what you're going through, especially since I fully admit to having no concept of it. And I don't want to give some flowery reason not to consider suicide when I've also admitted to having considered it before.

It's just, I've seen you around this community. I may not know you quite as well as I do others in the closer nit circle I tend to keep with around here. But I have seen you around here and consider you a valuable part of this community. And I think I've already talked about how both in high school and on another message board I used to go to, I'm no stranger to having lost someone to suicide.

I don't want it to happen here. That's why I created this thread. So if you're truly at the point where you're seeing no other choice, please, call someone. I don't know if they have the equivalent of the suicide help line that I have in my signature over where you live. But if they do, please call it. I'm not qualified to talk you down, but I do know I really don't want to lose you as a member of this community...not while there's still a chance that something can be done to prevent it.
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#60 MEDdMI

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Posted 05 January 2019 - 11:01 PM

Yes, at the very least please call someone. Don't really know what else to say.



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