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@  Donocropolis : (31 March 2020 - 05:45 AM)

Who, I might add, has never been photographed together with Byteman. Just sayin'.

@  Sabrblade : (30 March 2020 - 10:27 PM)

Bruce Wayne's cyberpunk cousin?

@  PlutoniumBoss : (30 March 2020 - 09:27 PM)

Laser Wayne

@  Sabrblade : (30 March 2020 - 09:08 PM)

Luther Unum

@  PlutoniumBoss : (30 March 2020 - 07:09 PM)

Or Lee Derwon.

@  Steevy Maximus : (30 March 2020 - 06:51 PM)

Not to be confused with Leader I

@  Steevy Maximus : (30 March 2020 - 06:50 PM)

He was Leader Uno

@  Steevy Maximus : (30 March 2020 - 06:50 PM)

He was the OTHER Leader 1

@  TheMightyMol... : (30 March 2020 - 06:29 PM)

Or Sideways.

@  PlutoniumBoss : (30 March 2020 - 05:26 PM)

On the other hand, this is Armada we're talking about. It could have actually been Metroplex.

@  PlutoniumBoss : (28 March 2020 - 11:08 PM)

Oh yeah, that was Fort Max. My bad.

@  LBD "Nyt... : (28 March 2020 - 09:12 PM)

https://tfwiki.net/wiki/Peritus_Maximus

@  LBD "Nyt... : (28 March 2020 - 09:11 PM)

Christmas Maximus?

@  Maximus Ambus : (28 March 2020 - 01:13 PM)

At least the ozone layer is healing. unless this is a 0.0000000001% thing it's sounds like good news.

@  ▲ndrusi : (28 March 2020 - 09:27 AM)

(But only pretty sure, not 100% sure.)

@  ▲ndrusi : (28 March 2020 - 09:26 AM)

Pretty sure y'all were thinking of Fortress Maximus yesterday.

@  Bass X0 : (28 March 2020 - 12:38 AM)

Dare! Dare to believe you can survive 2020!

@  Steevy Maximus : (27 March 2020 - 08:18 PM)

Baja Blast is back at retail!

@  TheMightyMol... : (27 March 2020 - 03:47 PM)

Shame he wasn't around more. He seemed like such a jolly, happy soul.

@  PlutoniumBoss : (27 March 2020 - 02:16 PM)

No, he was definitely Metroplex. You could tell because he was in Metroplex's distinctive red and green coloration.

@  Paladin : (27 March 2020 - 02:11 PM)

that was Leader-1. or possibly Jolt. maybe Grindor...

@  PlutoniumBoss : (27 March 2020 - 01:57 PM)

Metroplex was in Armada, in a flashback. He was the same size as everybody else. I thought that was the joke.

@  Tm_Silverclaw : (27 March 2020 - 12:39 PM)

@Rodimus Supreme: Gah! You are right! How'd I get that mixed up? x.x;

@  TheMightyMol... : (27 March 2020 - 12:14 PM)

There is no Metroplex. Only Zuul.

@  Rodimus Supreme : (27 March 2020 - 11:13 AM)

@Tm_Silverclaw: There is no Armada Metroplex, he was in Cybertron.

@  Rodimus Supreme : (27 March 2020 - 11:12 AM)

And they'd be better off just retooling Metroplex and Fortress Maximus to be somewhat more accurate and changing/adding parts for interaction with later play gimmicks.

@  Rodimus Supreme : (27 March 2020 - 11:11 AM)

I honestly would prefer that for scale purposes.

@  Cyoti : (27 March 2020 - 11:07 AM)

They can redo all the CW combiners as Titan Class figures like Predaking/Devastator.

@  Dekafox : (27 March 2020 - 07:52 AM)

They could just redo Metroplex again too. Especially if it's going to be S3 based. They could also do another Primus to go with the coming Unicron.

@  OverDrive73 : (26 March 2020 - 10:56 PM)

If anyone is bored, or interested... I just added the last chapter to my fanfic comic in Allspark Pictures

@  Tm_Silverclaw : (26 March 2020 - 10:54 PM)

And no.. We could always get Titan Class Superion.

@  Tm_Silverclaw : (26 March 2020 - 10:53 PM)

We need Titan Class Transformers Armada Metroplex.

@  Telly : (26 March 2020 - 08:39 PM)

ill be surprised if scorpy isnt the last titan

@  PlutoniumBoss : (26 March 2020 - 05:57 PM)

Too bad a new character titan class figure is pretty much an impossibility.

@  PlutoniumBoss : (26 March 2020 - 05:56 PM)

I want a titan class, really good looking bucket wheel excavator. Like Cybertron Metroplex was supposed to be but didn't quite pull off.

@  wonko the sane? : (26 March 2020 - 03:32 PM)

I just taped up a shower curtain and took my first shower in three weeks. It was heavenly.

@  Rodimus Supreme : (26 March 2020 - 11:48 AM)

I would buy that...

@  Maximus Ambus : (24 March 2020 - 02:03 PM)

Studio Series 100 Titan Class Driller.

@  Sabrblade : (23 March 2020 - 09:05 PM)

I'll give ya 25 cents, a pack of gum, and some peanuts.

@  TheMightyMol... : (23 March 2020 - 07:35 PM)

I can give ya twenty bucks for it.

@  Paladin : (23 March 2020 - 04:28 PM)

hoarder? I hardly know 'er?

@  Dekafox : (23 March 2020 - 01:52 PM)

FOR THE HORDE!

@  repowers : (23 March 2020 - 01:48 PM)

* hordes shrubberies *

@  Telly : (23 March 2020 - 01:46 PM)

YET...

@  PlutoniumBoss : (23 March 2020 - 01:22 PM)

At least we haven't resorted to shouting "NI" at old ladies.

@  CORVUS : (23 March 2020 - 11:04 AM)

Keep it out, and I won't reply to it.

@  RichardT1977 : (23 March 2020 - 08:50 AM)

It's a sad world where we can't discuss our health and safety without it descending into political arguments...

@  fourteenwings : (22 March 2020 - 11:46 PM)

woah I have no idea what's going on here but it's certainly breaking the "keep P&R out of the shoutbox" rules (which really should be enforced like... at all)

@  CORVUS : (22 March 2020 - 11:13 PM)

Ugh, Chinese. Typo-city.

@  CORVUS : (22 March 2020 - 11:11 PM)

Rodimus, you're just flat-out wrong. Trump eliminated the Pandemic Response Team. Trump was advised in January that this could be serious, and he didn't listen. Trump spent weeks downplaying COVID-19 by implying it was a hoax, and then that it was just a type of flu. He was late to close down travel from China, and by the time he closed down air-travel to the EU, that was also too late. He has refused to take responsibility for removing the pandemic response team, even though he basically bragged about it some months before. He's also prematurely talked up treatments using chlorquinine that have not been properly vetted as yet, and he keeps calling COVID-19 the "Chinense virus" because he can't help but be a jerk. Face facts: Trump is an incompetent bungler. Period. Full-stop.


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#21 Caldwin

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Posted 04 October 2018 - 07:13 PM

So one of the things my therapist asked me was if I'd be willing to let someone else hold on to my shotgun during these early sessions. Sure why not? Anything to make this go right.

Except the only people I could think of to hold on to it would be my parents.

My mother called me tonight about how her side of the family was going to be in town this weekend. I told her I had an appointment Monday. Nothing suspicious there right? Not like I've been having an inordinate amount of appointments lately, right? (Read sarcasm there.)

So yeah, perfect time to tell her what's going on and what I need them to do. Except, I wussed out. I couldn't tell her that I'm seeing a therapist because I'm depressed and have been having suicidal thoughts.

I could tell my doctor. I could tell my therapist that I'd known for less than a minute. I could tell two of my text buddies. I could insinuate to a couple of my co-workers. I could tell an entire hugging message board community...but I wussed out telling my parents.

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Posted 04 October 2018 - 09:10 PM

Uh... why... why are you bringing a shotgun to therapy sessions? 

 

But, uh, that troubling note aside, talking to your parents about this sort of thing is always going to be way harder than someone you don't know.  I wouldn't feel too bad about failing that challenge.

 

Besides, failure is nothing more than a chance to learn from the mistake and make a better attempt next time.

 

Seriously though, why do you have a shotgun at your therapy session?


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Posted 04 October 2018 - 11:17 PM

I'm assuming Caldwin means not having the shotgun at home at all during this period, not having it on him.

 

I'm glad that you're finding someone who you feel like you can talk to. My therapist has been a lifesaver for me, which is kind of funny since she's the third one I've had in my life (once pre-high school, the other for a couple years in college) and I'd say she's the first one that I'm really comfortable with. It's hard to open up and admit things about yourself that you haven't talked to anyone about before. There is a horrible paradox about parents for that purpose: they're probably some of the people who know you the best, but they're also probably the people whose judgement you care about the most. Venting to strangers online can be strangely easy, since it doesn't have any real consequences.

 

I'm terrified that my father thinks I'm a disappointment and that's not something he's ever even implied. I think it's made me ignore things about myself for years because I'm scared of what he's going to think about me. I admit it's probably all in my head, but that isn't enough for me to be able to ignore these thoughts about a lot of things. The only real advice I can give is to try as hard as you can to talk to people about what you're worried about. Keeping things bottled up just tears you apart inside.


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Posted 05 October 2018 - 12:30 AM

Oh! That... That would make a great deal more sense. Yeah.

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#25 Caldwin

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Posted 05 October 2018 - 04:59 AM

Okay, I'll admit my phrasing could have been better, but disturbing image aside, I'm surprised your first interpretation went to me touting a full sized shotgun around a medical office. Not offended, just...puzzled trying to even picture that.

That aside, thanks both of you. Last night was another crappy night. So it helps to see someone understanding the situation.
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Posted 05 October 2018 - 09:57 AM

Is there a self-storage unit near (or even not near) you? Even if it is technically still in your possession, you can still make it a hassle to get to.

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Posted 05 October 2018 - 03:42 PM

Ugh! Self-storage unit would be yet another monthly expense I do not need. Ideally it should go to my parents during this time. But seeing as how I'm having to work myself up to that, right now I have the shotgun and ammo in separate rooms with a lock on the gun itself.

Admittedly, I have the key for the lock. But really, the danger was if I were to have a bad night and do something impulsive. If I have to think about it, I'm not going to do it. And right now, I'd have it to where I'd have to think about it.

Again, ideally, I'd have it at my parents house for now. But until I can get to where I can talk to them about this, I at least have it to where I'd really have to think about it before I can do anything.
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Posted 05 October 2018 - 04:27 PM

Ugh! Self-storage unit would be yet another monthly expense I do not need. Ideally it should go to my parents during this time. But seeing as how I'm having to work myself up to that, right now I have the shotgun and ammo in separate rooms with a lock on the gun itself.

Admittedly, I have the key for the lock. But really, the danger was if I were to have a bad night and do something impulsive. If I have to think about it, I'm not going to do it. And right now, I'd have it to where I'd have to think about it.

Again, ideally, I'd have it at my parents house for now. But until I can get to where I can talk to them about this, I at least have it to where I'd really have to think about it before I can do anything.


Most any shotgun has an easily removable barrel. Remove this and let someone else hold on to it. This way you don't have to put the burdon of securing a firearm on anyone else, if they don't already have a safe, but It renders it inoperable for you as well. You could also send the barrel throught the mail(provided you are in the US) with no legal hassle to someone you trust, if you where not ready to discuss this with your parents yet.
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Posted 05 October 2018 - 04:42 PM

Okay, I'll admit my phrasing could have been better, but disturbing image aside, I'm surprised your first interpretation went to me touting a full sized shotgun around a medical office. Not offended, just...puzzled trying to even picture that.

I mean, I was puzzled too, which is why I asked.  The phrasing had the same kind of active situational implication as someone saying 'let someone else hold my purse while I'm with the doctor' which is probably how the image came to mind.  In retrospect it's obvious what you meant, but in the moment of being very earnest and literal it just slipped past the logic door XD

And, I mean, didn't have to be a full sized one.  Could be a sawed-off.  Single or double barreled, I dunno what you have.


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Posted 05 October 2018 - 04:45 PM

Full sized pump-action single barreled. I could be totally wrong...but aren't sawed-off's illegal? Could be totally wrong, but...

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Posted 05 October 2018 - 04:59 PM

Get a lockable chest and a safe deposit box at a bank. Put your guns and ammo in the locked chest and put the key to the chest in the safe deposit box. A safe deposit box is much cheaper than a storage unit.


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Posted 05 October 2018 - 05:04 PM

Full sized pump-action single barreled. I could be totally wrong...but aren't sawed-off's illegal? Could be totally wrong, but...

I genuinely have no idea. Googling... ah, apparently modifying shotguns is illegal, but there are 'short barreled' shotguns that are legal. Or something like that?


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Posted 05 October 2018 - 05:12 PM

If the goal is to put more barriers in your way but to not have to explain to anyone what you're doing, what about doing something with the key? That would be very easy to leave at work or somewhere and shouldn't appear very strange. Or if you feel like you can trust them enough, give it to your therapist?
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Posted 05 October 2018 - 05:38 PM

Can you freeze the key? Stick it in a big enough container that thawing it out is a PITA and would at least give you some time to think about what you're doing should you go for the key.

 

That used to be how people dealt with credit card debt way back when.  I wouldn't think that the key should be damaged unless there are electronic components to it.

 

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Posted 05 October 2018 - 05:48 PM

...but I wussed out telling my parents.

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I understand.

When my school sent me to therapy, my parents intervened and insisted that the school was never ever to do such a thing again. Because they were mortified. They took it as an insult. They were too proud.

I wish they could have been kept in the dark somehow. But what would have been better is to make them understand that it was no one's fault. I didn't fail. They didn't fail.

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Posted 05 October 2018 - 06:16 PM

Relationships with parents have a ton of baggage even when you're on good terms. Even looking as an adult and even if they never abused their authority, I think the sense of authority remains. It's hard to not see their opinions as things you SHOULD do.
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Posted 05 October 2018 - 08:29 PM

Guys,I appreciate that you care. But you really don't need to worry. I have the barrels and ammo in one place, the gun itself in another with a lock on it with the key to the lock in yet another place. That's enough that an impulse fit is not going to happen and I'm not going to do anything if I'm having to think about it. I won't do anything soon.

For one thing, right now I have the sessions coming up. I have a reason to keep giving myself a chance. For another thing, this is beginning to become uncomfortably about me. Which is fine if it's helping the conversation to keep going. But I'd rather not dwell too much on it if we could not.
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Posted 07 October 2018 - 02:45 AM

I'm sorry if I went too far. I was just trying to be helpful and it's a serious enough topic that I didn't want to hold back any suggestions that could be useful.


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Posted 07 October 2018 - 04:55 AM

I've had depression most of my life. A lot of it is due to my family. My father was abusive, most men on either side of the family are trash and so I get tarred with the same brush. It's crippling when the patriarch of the family hurt everyone under his roof including you but because you're male too it's assumed you're his second coming.

 

Add in that I'm 'weird' (always preferred sci-fi and solitude to more typical 'blokey' things) and I have a low voice that makes it difficult/boring to listen to me speak and my confidence is at an all time low.

 

Tried to kill myself a few times, mainly by means of walking in front of a car. I know some here seem to think I only talk about depression and suicide as some childish means for attention but for me it's very real. Some days the only thing that keeps me going is sheer anger and stubborness over how unfair my life has been. But then there are the days where I hate my own guts and feel everyone would be happier without me. Doesn't help people have confirmed as much many times.



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Posted 07 October 2018 - 05:30 AM

I've had depression most of my life. A lot of it is due to my family. My father was abusive, most men on either side of the family are trash and so I get tarred with the same brush. It's crippling when the patriarch of the family hurt everyone under his roof including you but because you're male too it's assumed you're his second coming.

 

Add in that I'm 'weird' (always preferred sci-fi and solitude to more typical 'blokey' things) and I have a low voice that makes it difficult/boring to listen to me speak and my confidence is at an all time low.

 

Tried to kill myself a few times, mainly by means of walking in front of a car. I know some here seem to think I only talk about depression and suicide as some childish means for attention but for me it's very real. Some days the only thing that keeps me going is sheer anger and stubborness over how unfair my life has been. But then there are the days where I hate my own guts and feel everyone would be happier without me. Doesn't help people have confirmed as much many times.

 

Damn. I can sympathize with far too much of that.


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