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@  ThunderWear : (27 January 2020 - 08:56 PM)

Think of it positively, maybe your face just has optional no-slip surfaces

@  Maximus Ambus : (27 January 2020 - 05:38 PM)

I have dyspraxia so use a electric trimmer, it's never smooth. NEVER!

@  Benbot : (27 January 2020 - 12:52 PM)

don't you hate it when you shave but miss a whisker and it bugs you all day long and you try to yank it out but you can't because it's too short to get a hold of but your hand keeps finding it whenever you touch your face?

@  SHIELD Agent 47 : (25 January 2020 - 11:17 PM)

Twitter's revamp is so dumb. Nowadays, even when I am logged out of my account, right-clicking an image on Google Chrome won't let me access a URL to easily get the image's full size. That functionality was so useful!

@  Steevy Maximus : (25 January 2020 - 10:01 PM)

But when was the last time you saw a major retailer (since TRU) actually allot shelf space for a Transformers Titan? Or the Vintage Collection Poe X-Wing? There's clearly some sort of disparity between "girls" and "boys" toys that give companies justification to create $100+ items in the girls segment in FAR greater frequency than in boys.

@  fourteenwings : (25 January 2020 - 12:56 AM)

"how expensive they were" Tell that to L.O.L. O.M.G. and the $129 Amazing Surprise (I mean I guess when it comes to the toy aisle Power Rangers isn't a juggernaut like L.O.L.)

@  Steevy Maximus : (24 January 2020 - 09:18 PM)

I think the big reason we didn't see the actual combining Zords at retail was because of how expensive they were. It would cost $100 to get enough of them to make a Megazord, $160+ if you want the Ultrazord. Or parents could just get the dang Ultrazord for $40 even if it didn't combine.

@  Steevy Maximus : (24 January 2020 - 09:11 PM)

Because they are "kids toys" not "collector toys"

@  Tm_Silverclaw : (24 January 2020 - 03:27 PM)

1) I don't have Target. 2) can't go into my walmart. I'm surprised Hasbro won't sell the toys on Pulse

@  Bass X0 : (24 January 2020 - 02:43 PM)

I dreamt my phone was ringing and woke up to answer it.

@  Sabrblade : (24 January 2020 - 02:05 PM)

The Lightning Collection figures, the smaller normal-sized Beast Morphers Ranger/enemy/Beast-Bot figures, the role-play morpher and weapon toys, and the simplistic non-combining megazord toys have all been very easy to find at various Targets and Walmarts. It's only been the actual combining Beast Morphers zord toys (which are bizarrely being sold individually this time) that have been hard to find in stores.

@  Tm_Silverclaw : (24 January 2020 - 01:49 PM)

Thought I do question Hasbro's almost reluctance to have the toys available anywhere.

@  Paladin : (24 January 2020 - 01:44 PM)

i've been trying to sell mine for weeks...

@  Tm_Silverclaw : (24 January 2020 - 01:37 PM)

I hadn't opened mine yet, but from what I've seen, the general agreement is that the Beast Morpher zords are much better than Bandais.

@  ThunderWear : (24 January 2020 - 11:16 AM)

I'm guessing if they're going to do anything on the level of Legacy Zords, it's being discussed behind NDAs at Toy Fair

@  Rodimus Supreme : (24 January 2020 - 10:38 AM)

Lightning Collection is good, and they're taking their sweet time on making Zords that are better than Bandai's Zords.

@  ThunderWear : (24 January 2020 - 10:34 AM)

So, what's the general PR fandom consensus of the Hasbro run of PR so far? I pretty much stepped out of the community after I got the Bandai Legacy zords I wanted.

@  Paladin : (24 January 2020 - 08:46 AM)

that would require someone to BUY Hasbro PR toys...

@  Tm_Silverclaw : (24 January 2020 - 07:17 AM)

Well hopefully see some cool PR stuff. Wish BBTS sold Hasbro PR toys.

@  fourteenwings : (24 January 2020 - 07:01 AM)

February 22nd through 25th, I feel like it was earlier last year...

@  Tm_Silverclaw : (24 January 2020 - 06:32 AM)

When is NY TF?

@  fourteenwings : (23 January 2020 - 11:43 PM)

I don't know about Hasbro's general policy but I know everybody was on lockdown for Frozen II, which included both LEGO and Hasbro. Plus, I'm guessing everybody is holding off PR for NY Toy Fair? Overall, it's best to remember that Toy Fairs are for buyers, not fans.

@  fourteenwings : (23 January 2020 - 11:41 PM)

LEGO has been doing this for ages, including sending cease and desists when outlets get leaked images.

@  ThunderWear : (23 January 2020 - 10:42 PM)

And then they ended up selling off the brand, so I guess I wasn't the only one.

@  ThunderWear : (23 January 2020 - 10:41 PM)

Last time a toy brand I followed tightened down on toy fair and all the invited guests posted glowing reviews of what they saw, I ended up being disappointed as heck.

@  Steevy Maximus : (23 January 2020 - 10:34 PM)

JediNews UK basically said they got a walkthrough of Lego's showcase...but were legally bound to NOT talk about anything, much less take pics.

@  ThunderWear : (23 January 2020 - 10:24 PM)

I wondered why I had seen basically nothing newsworthy from the event

@  Steevy Maximus : (23 January 2020 - 10:14 PM)

Word is that Hasbro and Lego have their UK Toy Fair stuff on MAJOR lockdown. Full NDAs and everything.

@  ThunderWear : (23 January 2020 - 09:28 PM)

Seeing people say the $0.99 + $20 shipping item is cheaper than the $19.99 + free shipping item and getting tons of likes for it... I just don't know anymore.

@  Telly : (23 January 2020 - 09:11 PM)

if you havent already, y'all check your walmarts clearance aisle. i found siege six shot for $5. course, it could just be my walmart, but never hurts to look

@  Vexwing : (23 January 2020 - 07:20 PM)

Candlejack is going to need more ro

@  Patch : (23 January 2020 - 06:30 PM)

I thought you had to type out Candlejack's full name bef

@  Maximus Ambus : (23 January 2020 - 02:46 PM)

I typed in the wrong tab.

@  Paladin : (23 January 2020 - 02:32 PM)

must've been the works of Candleja

@  Telly : (23 January 2020 - 02:06 PM)

looks like maximus wiped himself out mid-sentence

@  Maximus Ambus : (23 January 2020 - 08:42 AM)

Disregard this.

@  TheMightyMol... : (22 January 2020 - 06:58 PM)

Bold of you all to assume we won't wipe ourselves out in 50 years.

@  Benbot : (22 January 2020 - 04:27 PM)

There will be no UBI, people will just live in a ditch while they celebrate owning the libs.

@  Rycochet : (22 January 2020 - 03:24 PM)

In 50 years, retail will be dead because all stores are staffless fully automated operations controlled by Amazon. The UBI will be less than a fifth of what it actually costs to live after two decades of cuts and.a steadfast refusal to match inflation.

@  Maximus Ambus : (22 January 2020 - 02:55 PM)

In fifty years retail will be a thing of the past through robots, printers and Universal Basic Income.

@  Rodimus Supreme : (21 January 2020 - 11:16 AM)

Big retailers just don't want money anymore, so let's not give them any,

@  TheMightyMol... : (20 January 2020 - 04:12 PM)

This place is a madhouse, feels like being cloned.

@  Maximus Ambus : (20 January 2020 - 03:38 PM)

I took one step beyond the outer limits to the twilight zone.

@  TheMightyMol... : (20 January 2020 - 10:19 AM)

All retail is basically the same.

@  Tm_Silverclaw : (20 January 2020 - 10:00 AM)

Walmart just needs to go bankrupt already.

@  ThunderWear : (20 January 2020 - 07:19 AM)

They didn't put the 35th anniversary stuff back out until after new year. I'm no retail expert, but I feel like having stock on the shelf is better than the back. Especially toys at christmas time.

@  ThunderWear : (20 January 2020 - 07:18 AM)

Yeah, my local walmart took away the 35th anniversary endcap weeks before Christmas and left the Transformer section empty well past Christmas.

@  TheMightyMol... : (20 January 2020 - 04:44 AM)

Mine only has the 35th Anniversary Voyagers. A whole lot of them.

@  Telly : (19 January 2020 - 11:35 PM)

just be happy your walmart even stocks voyagers. mine doesnt

@  Steevy Maximus : (19 January 2020 - 08:53 PM)

Figures that Walmart finally restocks Studio Voyagers...with Wave ONE


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#21 Caldwin

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Posted 04 October 2018 - 07:13 PM

So one of the things my therapist asked me was if I'd be willing to let someone else hold on to my shotgun during these early sessions. Sure why not? Anything to make this go right.

Except the only people I could think of to hold on to it would be my parents.

My mother called me tonight about how her side of the family was going to be in town this weekend. I told her I had an appointment Monday. Nothing suspicious there right? Not like I've been having an inordinate amount of appointments lately, right? (Read sarcasm there.)

So yeah, perfect time to tell her what's going on and what I need them to do. Except, I wussed out. I couldn't tell her that I'm seeing a therapist because I'm depressed and have been having suicidal thoughts.

I could tell my doctor. I could tell my therapist that I'd known for less than a minute. I could tell two of my text buddies. I could insinuate to a couple of my co-workers. I could tell an entire hugging message board community...but I wussed out telling my parents.

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Posted 04 October 2018 - 09:10 PM

Uh... why... why are you bringing a shotgun to therapy sessions? 

 

But, uh, that troubling note aside, talking to your parents about this sort of thing is always going to be way harder than someone you don't know.  I wouldn't feel too bad about failing that challenge.

 

Besides, failure is nothing more than a chance to learn from the mistake and make a better attempt next time.

 

Seriously though, why do you have a shotgun at your therapy session?


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Posted 04 October 2018 - 11:17 PM

I'm assuming Caldwin means not having the shotgun at home at all during this period, not having it on him.

 

I'm glad that you're finding someone who you feel like you can talk to. My therapist has been a lifesaver for me, which is kind of funny since she's the third one I've had in my life (once pre-high school, the other for a couple years in college) and I'd say she's the first one that I'm really comfortable with. It's hard to open up and admit things about yourself that you haven't talked to anyone about before. There is a horrible paradox about parents for that purpose: they're probably some of the people who know you the best, but they're also probably the people whose judgement you care about the most. Venting to strangers online can be strangely easy, since it doesn't have any real consequences.

 

I'm terrified that my father thinks I'm a disappointment and that's not something he's ever even implied. I think it's made me ignore things about myself for years because I'm scared of what he's going to think about me. I admit it's probably all in my head, but that isn't enough for me to be able to ignore these thoughts about a lot of things. The only real advice I can give is to try as hard as you can to talk to people about what you're worried about. Keeping things bottled up just tears you apart inside.


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Posted 05 October 2018 - 12:30 AM

Oh! That... That would make a great deal more sense. Yeah.

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Posted 05 October 2018 - 04:59 AM

Okay, I'll admit my phrasing could have been better, but disturbing image aside, I'm surprised your first interpretation went to me touting a full sized shotgun around a medical office. Not offended, just...puzzled trying to even picture that.

That aside, thanks both of you. Last night was another crappy night. So it helps to see someone understanding the situation.
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Posted 05 October 2018 - 09:57 AM

Is there a self-storage unit near (or even not near) you? Even if it is technically still in your possession, you can still make it a hassle to get to.

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Posted 05 October 2018 - 03:42 PM

Ugh! Self-storage unit would be yet another monthly expense I do not need. Ideally it should go to my parents during this time. But seeing as how I'm having to work myself up to that, right now I have the shotgun and ammo in separate rooms with a lock on the gun itself.

Admittedly, I have the key for the lock. But really, the danger was if I were to have a bad night and do something impulsive. If I have to think about it, I'm not going to do it. And right now, I'd have it to where I'd have to think about it.

Again, ideally, I'd have it at my parents house for now. But until I can get to where I can talk to them about this, I at least have it to where I'd really have to think about it before I can do anything.
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Posted 05 October 2018 - 04:27 PM

Ugh! Self-storage unit would be yet another monthly expense I do not need. Ideally it should go to my parents during this time. But seeing as how I'm having to work myself up to that, right now I have the shotgun and ammo in separate rooms with a lock on the gun itself.

Admittedly, I have the key for the lock. But really, the danger was if I were to have a bad night and do something impulsive. If I have to think about it, I'm not going to do it. And right now, I'd have it to where I'd have to think about it.

Again, ideally, I'd have it at my parents house for now. But until I can get to where I can talk to them about this, I at least have it to where I'd really have to think about it before I can do anything.


Most any shotgun has an easily removable barrel. Remove this and let someone else hold on to it. This way you don't have to put the burdon of securing a firearm on anyone else, if they don't already have a safe, but It renders it inoperable for you as well. You could also send the barrel throught the mail(provided you are in the US) with no legal hassle to someone you trust, if you where not ready to discuss this with your parents yet.
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Posted 05 October 2018 - 04:42 PM

Okay, I'll admit my phrasing could have been better, but disturbing image aside, I'm surprised your first interpretation went to me touting a full sized shotgun around a medical office. Not offended, just...puzzled trying to even picture that.

I mean, I was puzzled too, which is why I asked.  The phrasing had the same kind of active situational implication as someone saying 'let someone else hold my purse while I'm with the doctor' which is probably how the image came to mind.  In retrospect it's obvious what you meant, but in the moment of being very earnest and literal it just slipped past the logic door XD

And, I mean, didn't have to be a full sized one.  Could be a sawed-off.  Single or double barreled, I dunno what you have.


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Posted 05 October 2018 - 04:45 PM

Full sized pump-action single barreled. I could be totally wrong...but aren't sawed-off's illegal? Could be totally wrong, but...

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Posted 05 October 2018 - 04:59 PM

Get a lockable chest and a safe deposit box at a bank. Put your guns and ammo in the locked chest and put the key to the chest in the safe deposit box. A safe deposit box is much cheaper than a storage unit.


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Posted 05 October 2018 - 05:04 PM

Full sized pump-action single barreled. I could be totally wrong...but aren't sawed-off's illegal? Could be totally wrong, but...

I genuinely have no idea. Googling... ah, apparently modifying shotguns is illegal, but there are 'short barreled' shotguns that are legal. Or something like that?


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Posted 05 October 2018 - 05:12 PM

If the goal is to put more barriers in your way but to not have to explain to anyone what you're doing, what about doing something with the key? That would be very easy to leave at work or somewhere and shouldn't appear very strange. Or if you feel like you can trust them enough, give it to your therapist?
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Posted 05 October 2018 - 05:38 PM

Can you freeze the key? Stick it in a big enough container that thawing it out is a PITA and would at least give you some time to think about what you're doing should you go for the key.

 

That used to be how people dealt with credit card debt way back when.  I wouldn't think that the key should be damaged unless there are electronic components to it.

 

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Posted 05 October 2018 - 05:48 PM

...but I wussed out telling my parents.

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I understand.

When my school sent me to therapy, my parents intervened and insisted that the school was never ever to do such a thing again. Because they were mortified. They took it as an insult. They were too proud.

I wish they could have been kept in the dark somehow. But what would have been better is to make them understand that it was no one's fault. I didn't fail. They didn't fail.

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Posted 05 October 2018 - 06:16 PM

Relationships with parents have a ton of baggage even when you're on good terms. Even looking as an adult and even if they never abused their authority, I think the sense of authority remains. It's hard to not see their opinions as things you SHOULD do.
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Posted 05 October 2018 - 08:29 PM

Guys,I appreciate that you care. But you really don't need to worry. I have the barrels and ammo in one place, the gun itself in another with a lock on it with the key to the lock in yet another place. That's enough that an impulse fit is not going to happen and I'm not going to do anything if I'm having to think about it. I won't do anything soon.

For one thing, right now I have the sessions coming up. I have a reason to keep giving myself a chance. For another thing, this is beginning to become uncomfortably about me. Which is fine if it's helping the conversation to keep going. But I'd rather not dwell too much on it if we could not.
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Posted 07 October 2018 - 02:45 AM

I'm sorry if I went too far. I was just trying to be helpful and it's a serious enough topic that I didn't want to hold back any suggestions that could be useful.


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Posted 07 October 2018 - 04:55 AM

I've had depression most of my life. A lot of it is due to my family. My father was abusive, most men on either side of the family are trash and so I get tarred with the same brush. It's crippling when the patriarch of the family hurt everyone under his roof including you but because you're male too it's assumed you're his second coming.

 

Add in that I'm 'weird' (always preferred sci-fi and solitude to more typical 'blokey' things) and I have a low voice that makes it difficult/boring to listen to me speak and my confidence is at an all time low.

 

Tried to kill myself a few times, mainly by means of walking in front of a car. I know some here seem to think I only talk about depression and suicide as some childish means for attention but for me it's very real. Some days the only thing that keeps me going is sheer anger and stubborness over how unfair my life has been. But then there are the days where I hate my own guts and feel everyone would be happier without me. Doesn't help people have confirmed as much many times.



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Posted 07 October 2018 - 05:30 AM

I've had depression most of my life. A lot of it is due to my family. My father was abusive, most men on either side of the family are trash and so I get tarred with the same brush. It's crippling when the patriarch of the family hurt everyone under his roof including you but because you're male too it's assumed you're his second coming.

 

Add in that I'm 'weird' (always preferred sci-fi and solitude to more typical 'blokey' things) and I have a low voice that makes it difficult/boring to listen to me speak and my confidence is at an all time low.

 

Tried to kill myself a few times, mainly by means of walking in front of a car. I know some here seem to think I only talk about depression and suicide as some childish means for attention but for me it's very real. Some days the only thing that keeps me going is sheer anger and stubborness over how unfair my life has been. But then there are the days where I hate my own guts and feel everyone would be happier without me. Doesn't help people have confirmed as much many times.

 

Damn. I can sympathize with far too much of that.


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