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@  wonko the sane? : (28 November 2020 - 03:00 PM)

Oh my god! WFC ravage is adorable! Who's a pudgy kitty? Yes you are!

@  Maximus Ambus : (28 November 2020 - 09:50 AM)

The 86 line prevented made me reconsider a new years resolution.

@  unluckiness : (28 November 2020 - 04:33 AM)

And Devastator because I'm a sucker for combiners

@  unluckiness : (28 November 2020 - 04:32 AM)

Decided to stick with the main cast from 2007 and a few assorted ones here and there.

@  TheMightyMol... : (27 November 2020 - 02:02 PM)

I said I wouldn't buy a lot, now I have seven. And at least three might be on the culling pile.

@  Maximus Ambus : (27 November 2020 - 11:44 AM)

"I'll just get one" I said now I have almost twenty Studio Series figures.

@  wonko the sane? : (27 November 2020 - 11:19 AM)

The geese are fleeing... death comes soon...

@  unluckiness : (25 November 2020 - 07:20 PM)

Not even head, just a faceeven

@  TheMightyMol... : (25 November 2020 - 12:58 PM)

Just stick a Megatron head on Optimal Optimus.

@  Sabrblade : (25 November 2020 - 12:46 PM)

There was also an evil-looking black and gray redeco of the RobotMasters toy

@  Arazyr : (25 November 2020 - 11:54 AM)

That's KIND-OF what I consider the Throne of the Primes Primal to be...

@  wonko the sane? : (25 November 2020 - 11:16 AM)

I would buy the hell out a nemesis primal...

@  Bass X0 : (25 November 2020 - 11:15 AM)

I'm surprised there's not been a Nemesis Primal given all the Nemesis Primes.

@  unluckiness : (23 November 2020 - 03:17 AM)

The real Drifts were the Windblades we made along the way

@  PlutoniumBoss : (23 November 2020 - 02:25 AM)

Drift-kun 2 Electric Boobylube

@  ▲ndrusi : (22 November 2020 - 11:36 PM)

I'm pretty sure Drift 2 was Empire of Stone.

@  Sabrblade : (22 November 2020 - 10:06 PM)

I thought people said Prime Wheeljack was Drift 2.

@  Maximus Ambus : (22 November 2020 - 03:51 PM)

Windblade was Drift.2.

@  TheMightyMol... : (22 November 2020 - 02:44 PM)

Drift with boobs.

@  Rycochet : (22 November 2020 - 11:50 AM)

I can't imagine a live action movie version of Windblade being all that different from Drift. Not my thing, but not the worst thing I've ever seen.

@  Bass X0 : (22 November 2020 - 09:54 AM)

The thought of Movie aesthetic Windblade makes me feel sick.

@  NotVeryKnightly : (22 November 2020 - 08:47 AM)

Though, the fact that Japanese people would pay for Windblade toys in the $30-40 range doesn't mean they'd pay however much MPs are going for now.

@  NotVeryKnightly : (22 November 2020 - 08:44 AM)

Back when I made a habit of checking Mandarake for pre-owned TFs, Windblade's toys went for surprisingly high prices. By which I mean not lower than the original price.

@  Maximus Ambus : (22 November 2020 - 08:15 AM)

If she's in the next movie you might get her.

@  unluckiness : (22 November 2020 - 07:58 AM)

Japan didn't get most of the IDW comics and are the target market for MP. They basically know windblade from a few crappy pack-in comics and a show that wasn't particularly popular there. Unless they start cranking out Cyberverse MPs, it's not very likely.

@  TheMightyMol... : (22 November 2020 - 04:24 AM)

Again, depends if she's popular enough in Japan to warrant it. Our view of which characters are popular is not the same as Takara's.

@  Bass X0 : (22 November 2020 - 01:53 AM)

So characters like Windblade then.

@  TheMightyMol... : (21 November 2020 - 07:19 PM)

They're complicated and expensive to design. By necessity, they're gonna be restricted to well-known characters who are more likely to sell.

@  Bass X0 : (21 November 2020 - 07:05 PM)

I don’t think Masterpiece toys should be restricted to only show characters.

@  Rycochet : (21 November 2020 - 03:09 PM)

If she wasn't in the Sunbow cartoon, Live Action movie or Beast Wars and can't be repainted from someone else, she's not getting an MP.

@  wonko the sane? : (21 November 2020 - 12:44 PM)

They'll make their money back if they include the metal thong...

@  TheMightyMol... : (21 November 2020 - 12:29 PM)

Is she popular enough in Japan that Takara would even try?

@  Paladin : (21 November 2020 - 11:23 AM)

depends. will that one also have a giant metal thong?

@  Bass X0 : (21 November 2020 - 11:10 AM)

Should there be a Masterpiece Windblade?

@  -LittleAutob... : (20 November 2020 - 12:46 PM)

EIGHT WORDS! THATS A RECORD! XD

@  wonko the sane? : (20 November 2020 - 09:08 AM)

So you were hired by a middle easterner! AHA!

@  ▲ndrusi : (19 November 2020 - 11:45 PM)

that's eight words

@  Bass X0 : (19 November 2020 - 03:56 PM)

"I only want to hear one word from you... The name of the guy who hired ya!"

@  Maximus Ambus : (19 November 2020 - 12:41 PM)

It's great how they reference G1 concepts like this one features the harmony from the episode Carnage in C Minor and and Slugslingers featured anti electrons from Grimlocks New Brain.

@  Steevy Maximus : (18 November 2020 - 10:01 PM)

Or at least those little story blurbs like Beast Hunters had. Especially for stuff like Selects which tend to exist in their own little side world

@  Maximus Ambus : (17 November 2020 - 04:03 PM)

I got me Legends Soundwave, Be cool if the next Generations toyline had a mini comic with the instructions.

@  Maximus Ambus : (16 November 2020 - 03:42 AM)

Aw no unusual activity on my Paypal Ebay, Amazon and Netflix account in one day! All I have to do it verify on those E-Mails and I'm all set..... wait a mo, I'm not on Netflix!

@  Tm_Silverclaw : (14 November 2020 - 11:56 PM)

I swear though.. The idea of "Catch up" is stupid.

@  TM2-Megatron : (14 November 2020 - 11:25 PM)

That's irritating, but it sounds par for the course with new hardware release. Within a year, there'll probably be some good stuff out there that does it all.

@  Tm_Silverclaw : (14 November 2020 - 11:23 PM)

4K/HDR switches are.. iffy.. Because most of them can't do 4K and HDR at the same time.. Or can't do 120hz... and all sorts of things the new TVs have built in, and the new consoles use...

@  TM2-Megatron : (14 November 2020 - 11:18 PM)

Maybe now that the PS5's made the whole 4K thing a little more mainstream, the hardware will start becoming more common. I know that's one of the hopes the physical media community has for the 100GB discs the PS5 is going to be using. Prior to this, they were very expensive tor replicate compared to a regular blu-ray and not used very often

@  TM2-Megatron : (14 November 2020 - 11:17 PM)

Up to now, there really haven't been a whole lot of 4K disc players to choose from... Samsung stopped making them altogether when they couldn't compete with the others, so your main choices are a few models of Panasonic or Sony

@  TM2-Megatron : (14 November 2020 - 11:14 PM)

Is there no such thing as a 4K/HDR switch yet?

@  Tm_Silverclaw : (14 November 2020 - 10:10 PM)

Which is fine.. But that still doesn't explain why they arn't putting out up to date HDMI switch boxes to get.. more money.

@  TM2-Megatron : (14 November 2020 - 09:59 PM)

My only TV with a respectable number of ports is my OLED 4K/3D, which has 4 HDMI, 2 USB 2.0s, 1 USB 3.0 and some weird proprietary thing that acts as both component and composite, depending on what you need. But it retailed for $10k when it first came out (I bought it 14 months later for less than half that). THey're going to get as many corners on less expensive sets as they can, which usually means only providing 2 HDMIs.


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#21 Caldwin

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Posted 04 October 2018 - 07:13 PM

So one of the things my therapist asked me was if I'd be willing to let someone else hold on to my shotgun during these early sessions. Sure why not? Anything to make this go right.

Except the only people I could think of to hold on to it would be my parents.

My mother called me tonight about how her side of the family was going to be in town this weekend. I told her I had an appointment Monday. Nothing suspicious there right? Not like I've been having an inordinate amount of appointments lately, right? (Read sarcasm there.)

So yeah, perfect time to tell her what's going on and what I need them to do. Except, I wussed out. I couldn't tell her that I'm seeing a therapist because I'm depressed and have been having suicidal thoughts.

I could tell my doctor. I could tell my therapist that I'd known for less than a minute. I could tell two of my text buddies. I could insinuate to a couple of my co-workers. I could tell an entire hugging message board community...but I wussed out telling my parents.

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Posted 04 October 2018 - 09:10 PM

Uh... why... why are you bringing a shotgun to therapy sessions? 

 

But, uh, that troubling note aside, talking to your parents about this sort of thing is always going to be way harder than someone you don't know.  I wouldn't feel too bad about failing that challenge.

 

Besides, failure is nothing more than a chance to learn from the mistake and make a better attempt next time.

 

Seriously though, why do you have a shotgun at your therapy session?


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Posted 04 October 2018 - 11:17 PM

I'm assuming Caldwin means not having the shotgun at home at all during this period, not having it on him.

 

I'm glad that you're finding someone who you feel like you can talk to. My therapist has been a lifesaver for me, which is kind of funny since she's the third one I've had in my life (once pre-high school, the other for a couple years in college) and I'd say she's the first one that I'm really comfortable with. It's hard to open up and admit things about yourself that you haven't talked to anyone about before. There is a horrible paradox about parents for that purpose: they're probably some of the people who know you the best, but they're also probably the people whose judgement you care about the most. Venting to strangers online can be strangely easy, since it doesn't have any real consequences.

 

I'm terrified that my father thinks I'm a disappointment and that's not something he's ever even implied. I think it's made me ignore things about myself for years because I'm scared of what he's going to think about me. I admit it's probably all in my head, but that isn't enough for me to be able to ignore these thoughts about a lot of things. The only real advice I can give is to try as hard as you can to talk to people about what you're worried about. Keeping things bottled up just tears you apart inside.


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Posted 05 October 2018 - 12:30 AM

Oh! That... That would make a great deal more sense. Yeah.

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#25 Caldwin

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Posted 05 October 2018 - 04:59 AM

Okay, I'll admit my phrasing could have been better, but disturbing image aside, I'm surprised your first interpretation went to me touting a full sized shotgun around a medical office. Not offended, just...puzzled trying to even picture that.

That aside, thanks both of you. Last night was another crappy night. So it helps to see someone understanding the situation.
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Posted 05 October 2018 - 09:57 AM

Is there a self-storage unit near (or even not near) you? Even if it is technically still in your possession, you can still make it a hassle to get to.

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Posted 05 October 2018 - 03:42 PM

Ugh! Self-storage unit would be yet another monthly expense I do not need. Ideally it should go to my parents during this time. But seeing as how I'm having to work myself up to that, right now I have the shotgun and ammo in separate rooms with a lock on the gun itself.

Admittedly, I have the key for the lock. But really, the danger was if I were to have a bad night and do something impulsive. If I have to think about it, I'm not going to do it. And right now, I'd have it to where I'd have to think about it.

Again, ideally, I'd have it at my parents house for now. But until I can get to where I can talk to them about this, I at least have it to where I'd really have to think about it before I can do anything.
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Posted 05 October 2018 - 04:27 PM

Ugh! Self-storage unit would be yet another monthly expense I do not need. Ideally it should go to my parents during this time. But seeing as how I'm having to work myself up to that, right now I have the shotgun and ammo in separate rooms with a lock on the gun itself.

Admittedly, I have the key for the lock. But really, the danger was if I were to have a bad night and do something impulsive. If I have to think about it, I'm not going to do it. And right now, I'd have it to where I'd have to think about it.

Again, ideally, I'd have it at my parents house for now. But until I can get to where I can talk to them about this, I at least have it to where I'd really have to think about it before I can do anything.


Most any shotgun has an easily removable barrel. Remove this and let someone else hold on to it. This way you don't have to put the burdon of securing a firearm on anyone else, if they don't already have a safe, but It renders it inoperable for you as well. You could also send the barrel throught the mail(provided you are in the US) with no legal hassle to someone you trust, if you where not ready to discuss this with your parents yet.
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Posted 05 October 2018 - 04:42 PM

Okay, I'll admit my phrasing could have been better, but disturbing image aside, I'm surprised your first interpretation went to me touting a full sized shotgun around a medical office. Not offended, just...puzzled trying to even picture that.

I mean, I was puzzled too, which is why I asked.  The phrasing had the same kind of active situational implication as someone saying 'let someone else hold my purse while I'm with the doctor' which is probably how the image came to mind.  In retrospect it's obvious what you meant, but in the moment of being very earnest and literal it just slipped past the logic door XD

And, I mean, didn't have to be a full sized one.  Could be a sawed-off.  Single or double barreled, I dunno what you have.


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Posted 05 October 2018 - 04:45 PM

Full sized pump-action single barreled. I could be totally wrong...but aren't sawed-off's illegal? Could be totally wrong, but...

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Posted 05 October 2018 - 04:59 PM

Get a lockable chest and a safe deposit box at a bank. Put your guns and ammo in the locked chest and put the key to the chest in the safe deposit box. A safe deposit box is much cheaper than a storage unit.


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Posted 05 October 2018 - 05:04 PM

Full sized pump-action single barreled. I could be totally wrong...but aren't sawed-off's illegal? Could be totally wrong, but...

I genuinely have no idea. Googling... ah, apparently modifying shotguns is illegal, but there are 'short barreled' shotguns that are legal. Or something like that?


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Posted 05 October 2018 - 05:12 PM

If the goal is to put more barriers in your way but to not have to explain to anyone what you're doing, what about doing something with the key? That would be very easy to leave at work or somewhere and shouldn't appear very strange. Or if you feel like you can trust them enough, give it to your therapist?
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Posted 05 October 2018 - 05:38 PM

Can you freeze the key? Stick it in a big enough container that thawing it out is a PITA and would at least give you some time to think about what you're doing should you go for the key.

 

That used to be how people dealt with credit card debt way back when.  I wouldn't think that the key should be damaged unless there are electronic components to it.

 

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Posted 05 October 2018 - 05:48 PM

...but I wussed out telling my parents.

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I understand.

When my school sent me to therapy, my parents intervened and insisted that the school was never ever to do such a thing again. Because they were mortified. They took it as an insult. They were too proud.

I wish they could have been kept in the dark somehow. But what would have been better is to make them understand that it was no one's fault. I didn't fail. They didn't fail.

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Posted 05 October 2018 - 06:16 PM

Relationships with parents have a ton of baggage even when you're on good terms. Even looking as an adult and even if they never abused their authority, I think the sense of authority remains. It's hard to not see their opinions as things you SHOULD do.
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Posted 05 October 2018 - 08:29 PM

Guys,I appreciate that you care. But you really don't need to worry. I have the barrels and ammo in one place, the gun itself in another with a lock on it with the key to the lock in yet another place. That's enough that an impulse fit is not going to happen and I'm not going to do anything if I'm having to think about it. I won't do anything soon.

For one thing, right now I have the sessions coming up. I have a reason to keep giving myself a chance. For another thing, this is beginning to become uncomfortably about me. Which is fine if it's helping the conversation to keep going. But I'd rather not dwell too much on it if we could not.
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Posted 07 October 2018 - 02:45 AM

I'm sorry if I went too far. I was just trying to be helpful and it's a serious enough topic that I didn't want to hold back any suggestions that could be useful.


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Posted 07 October 2018 - 04:55 AM

I've had depression most of my life. A lot of it is due to my family. My father was abusive, most men on either side of the family are trash and so I get tarred with the same brush. It's crippling when the patriarch of the family hurt everyone under his roof including you but because you're male too it's assumed you're his second coming.

 

Add in that I'm 'weird' (always preferred sci-fi and solitude to more typical 'blokey' things) and I have a low voice that makes it difficult/boring to listen to me speak and my confidence is at an all time low.

 

Tried to kill myself a few times, mainly by means of walking in front of a car. I know some here seem to think I only talk about depression and suicide as some childish means for attention but for me it's very real. Some days the only thing that keeps me going is sheer anger and stubborness over how unfair my life has been. But then there are the days where I hate my own guts and feel everyone would be happier without me. Doesn't help people have confirmed as much many times.



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Posted 07 October 2018 - 05:30 AM

I've had depression most of my life. A lot of it is due to my family. My father was abusive, most men on either side of the family are trash and so I get tarred with the same brush. It's crippling when the patriarch of the family hurt everyone under his roof including you but because you're male too it's assumed you're his second coming.

 

Add in that I'm 'weird' (always preferred sci-fi and solitude to more typical 'blokey' things) and I have a low voice that makes it difficult/boring to listen to me speak and my confidence is at an all time low.

 

Tried to kill myself a few times, mainly by means of walking in front of a car. I know some here seem to think I only talk about depression and suicide as some childish means for attention but for me it's very real. Some days the only thing that keeps me going is sheer anger and stubborness over how unfair my life has been. But then there are the days where I hate my own guts and feel everyone would be happier without me. Doesn't help people have confirmed as much many times.

 

Damn. I can sympathize with far too much of that.


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