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@  Maximus Ambus : (11 July 2020 - 12:46 PM)

I recall number 73 (old british show) discussing the Transformers movie and had the presenters trying to transform a few figures, one argued his deflated beach ball was a Transformer too.

@  PlutoniumBoss : (11 July 2020 - 08:03 AM)

And he's a big ball, but he's not the biggest ball of them all. (That'll be Pulse Unicron.)

@  Maximus Ambus : (11 July 2020 - 07:37 AM)

Trypticon so scared my Primus figure he turned into a ball.

@  ▲ndrusi : (09 July 2020 - 09:56 PM)

King Nine, however, will not return.

@  Bass X0 : (09 July 2020 - 05:05 PM)

Bass_X0 will return after these messages ^^^

@  TheMightyMol... : (09 July 2020 - 03:37 PM)

WHATAMIFIGHTINGFOOOOOOOOARRGH

@  -LittleAutob... : (09 July 2020 - 02:06 PM)

Okay?

@  Otaku : (09 July 2020 - 07:47 AM)

@TheMightyMollusk Ah, but the series itself has pronounced "Bass" both ways. ;)  Oh, 90s English Capcom video game voice acting...

@  Maximus Ambus : (09 July 2020 - 03:14 AM)

Looking at my Titan Returns collection I can see they realised they didn't have to paint the Titan Masters after wave one, lazy bums.

@  Maruten : (08 July 2020 - 09:13 PM)

No, I'm going with "fish".

@  TheMightyMol... : (08 July 2020 - 04:19 PM)

He stated that it's in reference to the Mega Man character, so it follows the series' tradition of music names.

@  Cybersnark : (08 July 2020 - 03:59 PM)

The real question is if it's "bass" as in music or "bass" as in the fish.

@  Otaku : (08 July 2020 - 01:27 PM)

Well, at least now I know how to pronounce @Bass X0 's screen name. ^^'  Rather, I think I'd just forgotten.  In my defense, it really does look like an emoticon or maybe just "decoration", which is what a lot of folks add to their screen names online.  Usually because someone has the name they really want. XD

@  ▲ndrusi : (08 July 2020 - 01:27 PM)

Extremely unimpressed with your idea that someone making a negative observation you don't like means they "got triggered."

@  NotVeryKnightly : (08 July 2020 - 11:16 AM)

You know somebody asked "And this would be in relation to... what exactly?"

@  Bass X0 : (08 July 2020 - 11:15 AM)

Its because someone got triggered over my random musings instead of just ignoring them. If I read one of your comments that is of no relevance or interest to me, I don't feel the need to say so.

@  -LittleAutob... : (08 July 2020 - 10:56 AM)

All this over someone's username lol

@  ▲ndrusi : (08 July 2020 - 08:34 AM)

Bazro.

@  Tm_Silverclaw : (08 July 2020 - 06:34 AM)

It could be Bass 10-0

@  Nevermore : (08 July 2020 - 06:11 AM)

How do you pronounce yourself? "Bass Ex-O" or "Bass Ex-Zero"?

@  Bass X0 : (08 July 2020 - 03:23 AM)

I did almost go with Vile Bass X0, because Vile is cool too.

@  PlutoniumBoss : (07 July 2020 - 08:34 PM)

Bossk Saw

@  ▲ndrusi : (07 July 2020 - 04:16 PM)

Bass XD

@  Bass X0 : (07 July 2020 - 03:43 PM)

And its not Bass XO, its Bass X0, as in Bass, X and Zero from the Mega Man series.

@  -LittleAutob... : (07 July 2020 - 02:33 PM)

@Trpodeca :( :(

@  -LittleAutob... : (07 July 2020 - 02:32 PM)

Thats what a gray rock is? Then I'm not one.

@  Trpodeca : (07 July 2020 - 02:12 PM)

Man I just learnt about what seemed like a really cool show, only to realize it was a dream and it dosen't really exist.

@  Bass X0 : (07 July 2020 - 01:02 PM)

Just something I read that I wanted to share. I heard "gray rock" mentioned in a video, so I looked it up and that was the definition.

@  TheMightyMol... : (07 July 2020 - 12:20 PM)

It's a fancy way of saying "Ignore annoying people".

@  NotVeryKnightly : (07 July 2020 - 12:15 PM)

Bass XO has a habit of pasting random drivel here as if doing so were profound.

@  wonko the sane? : (07 July 2020 - 11:30 AM)

And this would be in relation to... what exactly?

@  Bass X0 : (07 July 2020 - 11:25 AM)

"One strategy for dealing with a narcissist or sociopath is to act like a "gray rock," meaning that you become uninteresting and unresponsive. You don't feed their needs for drama or attention. You don't show emotion, say anything interesting, or disclose any personal information"

@  Nevermore : (06 July 2020 - 07:23 PM)

Oh wow. Studio Series Offroad Bumblebee is awesome. His articulation is amazing.

@  -LittleAutob... : (06 July 2020 - 11:18 AM)

Oof-

@  Maximus Ambus : (05 July 2020 - 01:10 AM)

I got Studio Series 39 Cogman yesterday and woke up to find he'd decapitated my titans returns figures.

@  wonko the sane? : (04 July 2020 - 10:19 PM)

If I had a sarcasm powered mouth.. ooohh waaaiiittt...

@  -LittleAutob... : (04 July 2020 - 05:01 PM)

Heh

@  Bass X0 : (04 July 2020 - 02:56 PM)

"If I had sarcasm-powered legs, I'd do a happy dance...!"

@  TheMightyMol... : (04 July 2020 - 02:39 PM)

The real clones were the friends we made along the way.

@  Maximus Ambus : (04 July 2020 - 01:47 PM)

So the Emperor in episodes 1 through 6 was a clone?

@  ▲ndrusi : (04 July 2020 - 10:47 AM)

(And the 0th anniversary of the last time I couldn't do math.)

@  ▲ndrusi : (04 July 2020 - 10:46 AM)

Today is the 24th anniversary of the day we fought off an alien invasion with the help of Will Smith.

@  Maximus Ambus : (04 July 2020 - 10:41 AM)

Oh the end of the Ottoman Empire of course.

@  -LittleAutob... : (04 July 2020 - 10:14 AM)

*ahem* 4th of July....

@  ▲ndrusi : (04 July 2020 - 08:14 AM)

Nothing of importance has happened before, and nothing of importance will happen again.

@  Maximus Ambus : (04 July 2020 - 08:12 AM)

Nothing of importance happened today.

@  Telly : (03 July 2020 - 09:54 PM)

i want a "i survived 'rona and all i got was this lousy t-shirt"

@  TheMightyMol... : (03 July 2020 - 03:42 PM)

Slogan for 2021: "I Lived, Bitch."

@  -LittleAutob... : (03 July 2020 - 03:23 PM)

They should make the next book in the Survivors series 'I SURVIVED CORONA VIRUS 2020'

@  -LittleAutob... : (03 July 2020 - 03:23 PM)

YEEEE I'M A SURVIVOR-


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#21 Caldwin

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Posted 04 October 2018 - 07:13 PM

So one of the things my therapist asked me was if I'd be willing to let someone else hold on to my shotgun during these early sessions. Sure why not? Anything to make this go right.

Except the only people I could think of to hold on to it would be my parents.

My mother called me tonight about how her side of the family was going to be in town this weekend. I told her I had an appointment Monday. Nothing suspicious there right? Not like I've been having an inordinate amount of appointments lately, right? (Read sarcasm there.)

So yeah, perfect time to tell her what's going on and what I need them to do. Except, I wussed out. I couldn't tell her that I'm seeing a therapist because I'm depressed and have been having suicidal thoughts.

I could tell my doctor. I could tell my therapist that I'd known for less than a minute. I could tell two of my text buddies. I could insinuate to a couple of my co-workers. I could tell an entire hugging message board community...but I wussed out telling my parents.

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Posted 04 October 2018 - 09:10 PM

Uh... why... why are you bringing a shotgun to therapy sessions? 

 

But, uh, that troubling note aside, talking to your parents about this sort of thing is always going to be way harder than someone you don't know.  I wouldn't feel too bad about failing that challenge.

 

Besides, failure is nothing more than a chance to learn from the mistake and make a better attempt next time.

 

Seriously though, why do you have a shotgun at your therapy session?


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Posted 04 October 2018 - 11:17 PM

I'm assuming Caldwin means not having the shotgun at home at all during this period, not having it on him.

 

I'm glad that you're finding someone who you feel like you can talk to. My therapist has been a lifesaver for me, which is kind of funny since she's the third one I've had in my life (once pre-high school, the other for a couple years in college) and I'd say she's the first one that I'm really comfortable with. It's hard to open up and admit things about yourself that you haven't talked to anyone about before. There is a horrible paradox about parents for that purpose: they're probably some of the people who know you the best, but they're also probably the people whose judgement you care about the most. Venting to strangers online can be strangely easy, since it doesn't have any real consequences.

 

I'm terrified that my father thinks I'm a disappointment and that's not something he's ever even implied. I think it's made me ignore things about myself for years because I'm scared of what he's going to think about me. I admit it's probably all in my head, but that isn't enough for me to be able to ignore these thoughts about a lot of things. The only real advice I can give is to try as hard as you can to talk to people about what you're worried about. Keeping things bottled up just tears you apart inside.


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Posted 05 October 2018 - 12:30 AM

Oh! That... That would make a great deal more sense. Yeah.

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Posted 05 October 2018 - 04:59 AM

Okay, I'll admit my phrasing could have been better, but disturbing image aside, I'm surprised your first interpretation went to me touting a full sized shotgun around a medical office. Not offended, just...puzzled trying to even picture that.

That aside, thanks both of you. Last night was another crappy night. So it helps to see someone understanding the situation.
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Posted 05 October 2018 - 09:57 AM

Is there a self-storage unit near (or even not near) you? Even if it is technically still in your possession, you can still make it a hassle to get to.

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Posted 05 October 2018 - 03:42 PM

Ugh! Self-storage unit would be yet another monthly expense I do not need. Ideally it should go to my parents during this time. But seeing as how I'm having to work myself up to that, right now I have the shotgun and ammo in separate rooms with a lock on the gun itself.

Admittedly, I have the key for the lock. But really, the danger was if I were to have a bad night and do something impulsive. If I have to think about it, I'm not going to do it. And right now, I'd have it to where I'd have to think about it.

Again, ideally, I'd have it at my parents house for now. But until I can get to where I can talk to them about this, I at least have it to where I'd really have to think about it before I can do anything.
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Posted 05 October 2018 - 04:27 PM

Ugh! Self-storage unit would be yet another monthly expense I do not need. Ideally it should go to my parents during this time. But seeing as how I'm having to work myself up to that, right now I have the shotgun and ammo in separate rooms with a lock on the gun itself.

Admittedly, I have the key for the lock. But really, the danger was if I were to have a bad night and do something impulsive. If I have to think about it, I'm not going to do it. And right now, I'd have it to where I'd have to think about it.

Again, ideally, I'd have it at my parents house for now. But until I can get to where I can talk to them about this, I at least have it to where I'd really have to think about it before I can do anything.


Most any shotgun has an easily removable barrel. Remove this and let someone else hold on to it. This way you don't have to put the burdon of securing a firearm on anyone else, if they don't already have a safe, but It renders it inoperable for you as well. You could also send the barrel throught the mail(provided you are in the US) with no legal hassle to someone you trust, if you where not ready to discuss this with your parents yet.
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Posted 05 October 2018 - 04:42 PM

Okay, I'll admit my phrasing could have been better, but disturbing image aside, I'm surprised your first interpretation went to me touting a full sized shotgun around a medical office. Not offended, just...puzzled trying to even picture that.

I mean, I was puzzled too, which is why I asked.  The phrasing had the same kind of active situational implication as someone saying 'let someone else hold my purse while I'm with the doctor' which is probably how the image came to mind.  In retrospect it's obvious what you meant, but in the moment of being very earnest and literal it just slipped past the logic door XD

And, I mean, didn't have to be a full sized one.  Could be a sawed-off.  Single or double barreled, I dunno what you have.


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Posted 05 October 2018 - 04:45 PM

Full sized pump-action single barreled. I could be totally wrong...but aren't sawed-off's illegal? Could be totally wrong, but...

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Posted 05 October 2018 - 04:59 PM

Get a lockable chest and a safe deposit box at a bank. Put your guns and ammo in the locked chest and put the key to the chest in the safe deposit box. A safe deposit box is much cheaper than a storage unit.


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Posted 05 October 2018 - 05:04 PM

Full sized pump-action single barreled. I could be totally wrong...but aren't sawed-off's illegal? Could be totally wrong, but...

I genuinely have no idea. Googling... ah, apparently modifying shotguns is illegal, but there are 'short barreled' shotguns that are legal. Or something like that?


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Posted 05 October 2018 - 05:12 PM

If the goal is to put more barriers in your way but to not have to explain to anyone what you're doing, what about doing something with the key? That would be very easy to leave at work or somewhere and shouldn't appear very strange. Or if you feel like you can trust them enough, give it to your therapist?
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Posted 05 October 2018 - 05:38 PM

Can you freeze the key? Stick it in a big enough container that thawing it out is a PITA and would at least give you some time to think about what you're doing should you go for the key.

 

That used to be how people dealt with credit card debt way back when.  I wouldn't think that the key should be damaged unless there are electronic components to it.

 

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Posted 05 October 2018 - 05:48 PM

...but I wussed out telling my parents.

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I understand.

When my school sent me to therapy, my parents intervened and insisted that the school was never ever to do such a thing again. Because they were mortified. They took it as an insult. They were too proud.

I wish they could have been kept in the dark somehow. But what would have been better is to make them understand that it was no one's fault. I didn't fail. They didn't fail.

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Posted 05 October 2018 - 06:16 PM

Relationships with parents have a ton of baggage even when you're on good terms. Even looking as an adult and even if they never abused their authority, I think the sense of authority remains. It's hard to not see their opinions as things you SHOULD do.
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Posted 05 October 2018 - 08:29 PM

Guys,I appreciate that you care. But you really don't need to worry. I have the barrels and ammo in one place, the gun itself in another with a lock on it with the key to the lock in yet another place. That's enough that an impulse fit is not going to happen and I'm not going to do anything if I'm having to think about it. I won't do anything soon.

For one thing, right now I have the sessions coming up. I have a reason to keep giving myself a chance. For another thing, this is beginning to become uncomfortably about me. Which is fine if it's helping the conversation to keep going. But I'd rather not dwell too much on it if we could not.
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Posted 07 October 2018 - 02:45 AM

I'm sorry if I went too far. I was just trying to be helpful and it's a serious enough topic that I didn't want to hold back any suggestions that could be useful.


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Posted 07 October 2018 - 04:55 AM

I've had depression most of my life. A lot of it is due to my family. My father was abusive, most men on either side of the family are trash and so I get tarred with the same brush. It's crippling when the patriarch of the family hurt everyone under his roof including you but because you're male too it's assumed you're his second coming.

 

Add in that I'm 'weird' (always preferred sci-fi and solitude to more typical 'blokey' things) and I have a low voice that makes it difficult/boring to listen to me speak and my confidence is at an all time low.

 

Tried to kill myself a few times, mainly by means of walking in front of a car. I know some here seem to think I only talk about depression and suicide as some childish means for attention but for me it's very real. Some days the only thing that keeps me going is sheer anger and stubborness over how unfair my life has been. But then there are the days where I hate my own guts and feel everyone would be happier without me. Doesn't help people have confirmed as much many times.



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Posted 07 October 2018 - 05:30 AM

I've had depression most of my life. A lot of it is due to my family. My father was abusive, most men on either side of the family are trash and so I get tarred with the same brush. It's crippling when the patriarch of the family hurt everyone under his roof including you but because you're male too it's assumed you're his second coming.

 

Add in that I'm 'weird' (always preferred sci-fi and solitude to more typical 'blokey' things) and I have a low voice that makes it difficult/boring to listen to me speak and my confidence is at an all time low.

 

Tried to kill myself a few times, mainly by means of walking in front of a car. I know some here seem to think I only talk about depression and suicide as some childish means for attention but for me it's very real. Some days the only thing that keeps me going is sheer anger and stubborness over how unfair my life has been. But then there are the days where I hate my own guts and feel everyone would be happier without me. Doesn't help people have confirmed as much many times.

 

Damn. I can sympathize with far too much of that.


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