SO. FREAKIN'. JEALOUS.~!
I always say I'm gonna do stuff like that at a 'Con...and then I think about the money, and the waiting on line, and my total lack of the ability to NOT panic and / or go into a full depression spiral around certain types of people...kinda, totally, sucks... (pretty, interesting, talented, Beautiful girls, who make me feel like I don't even deserve to breathe near them because I'm beyond less than worthy...I once spent a convention doing everything possible to avoid the aisle and area where an artist named DAWN McTEIGUE had her table set-up. She is SUCH a great artist, and she is an unfathomably gorgeous goth chick...and even though I can now talk to her, partly because she Is truly one of the sweetest people, with a huge heart, and a warm smile, to go along with her eyes you can get lost in...and partly because she took the time to seriously talk and laugh and just generally treat me like a person...and I knew she deserved the same treatment from me, instead of a pedestal.)
So, What does any of that have to do with anything?
TL;DR - I have no self-esteem and pretty, famous, goth chicks scare me...so im afraid to do phoot-ops at 'Cons.
But I can't help and root on anyone who can...for I shall live vicariously through you...hehe whoohoo! lol =]
I see behind a thousand lies that you try to hide
I bleed inside: you left your knife but I'm still alive
I...love the way you kill me
I love the way you watch me die
Life or death a bullet to the chest
I'd do it again...
Just when I think I've cut you out
You come with open arms to drag me down