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@  wonko the sane? : (23 October 2019 - 09:08 AM)

Don't frustrate yourself OR her for it. Just keep the camera ready and if it happens, it happens.

@  Ashley : (23 October 2019 - 12:15 AM)

I'll probably try waving treats in front of her and whistling it, see if I can encourage it

@  Ashley : (23 October 2019 - 12:14 AM)

I'll try. She's not the most obedient bird, so it's going to take some work to get her to do it on demand.

@  wonko the sane? : (22 October 2019 - 10:03 PM)

In fact; we demand video.

@  MEDdMI : (22 October 2019 - 09:26 PM)

Now you have to get it on video

@  Ashley : (22 October 2019 - 08:11 PM)

I'm so proud

@  Ashley : (22 October 2019 - 08:11 PM)

My parrot just whistled the Transformers theme music

@  Steevy Maximus : (22 October 2019 - 06:10 PM)

Yeah, I think both are too old and too expensive at this stage. Hasbro/Paramount are going to try for younger actors that can do multiple films AND can be locked into a multifilm contract cheaply

@  Paladin : (22 October 2019 - 06:05 PM)

so he'd probably be sixty by the time they get to another GI Joe project.

@  Patch : (22 October 2019 - 06:04 PM)

According to Wikipedia he's 51.

@  Paladin : (22 October 2019 - 05:38 PM)

isn't Crews like sixty now???

@  wonko the sane? : (22 October 2019 - 02:11 PM)

... I could get behind that.

@  RichardT1977 : (22 October 2019 - 12:33 PM)

Who thinks that, in the event of a GI Joe cinematic reboot, John Cena and Terry Crews would be perfect for Duke and Roadblock, respectively?

@  Telly : (21 October 2019 - 05:17 PM)


@  Shrug : (21 October 2019 - 04:59 PM)

I've barely used them over the years, so I'm sure they won't miss me, but I'm done too. Thankfully Pulse put up the Seacons today.

@  Telly : (21 October 2019 - 04:58 PM)

i didnt complete it, which is why this is confusing and pi$$ing me off. theres no record of it in my order history. i emailed them about it, so we will see what happens. either way, i think im done using them after this

@  Shrug : (21 October 2019 - 04:55 PM)

Either we're both unlucky or they're trying to force payment now for these takaratomy mall exclusives.

@  Shrug : (21 October 2019 - 04:55 PM)

I asked them to kindly undo that and I got a sternly worded email about how I should use their website right.

@  Shrug : (21 October 2019 - 04:55 PM)

Yeah, if you completed the order, they charged you the money now. Mine said stack before I finished checking out. I only noticed I was charged because of Paypal.

@  Telly : (21 October 2019 - 04:53 PM)

i wasnt even wanting to pay now. i was going to add them to my stack but i didnt get the chance after i was done setting up paypal

@  Shrug : (21 October 2019 - 04:53 PM)

If you haven't officially placed the order, I don't think so? Although, I had to request a cancellation with them last week because their system changed details about my order after I placed it, so I don't exactly trust them.

@  Telly : (21 October 2019 - 04:51 PM)

so im not actually being charged then?

@  Shrug : (21 October 2019 - 04:48 PM)

So, if you were one click away from purchasing, then they probably did the pre-authorization already. The next click will charge you the money now.

@  Shrug : (21 October 2019 - 04:47 PM)

TFsource charges upfront for regular pre-orders.

@  Telly : (21 October 2019 - 04:45 PM)

i was considering buying the upcoming seacons from tfsource. i had them in my cart and was on the checkout page. i set up a credit card through paypal, and before i even hit the "place order" button, i got a text saying that a charge or hold was placed on my card! is this normal? is it just checking to see if i have the money? why did it do it before i even placed the order??

@  Maximus Ambus : (21 October 2019 - 01:23 PM)

It's a torture device.

@  Benbot : (21 October 2019 - 09:42 AM)

what's this about Hot Rod?

@  SHIELD Agent 47 : (20 October 2019 - 10:36 PM)

Ex-Bundeswehr personnel, eh? Fascinating.

@  Pinkcolliebot : (20 October 2019 - 09:43 PM)

TF Roll Out Hot Rod's Presentation is coming real soon!!

@  Nevermore : (19 October 2019 - 01:05 PM)

So whenever he addresses his troops, he keeps cracking jokes. Sometimes these jokes are about the blunders he himself had made in his speech the previous day.

@  Nevermore : (19 October 2019 - 01:01 PM)

At the moment, I'm blessed with a pretty nice superior. He's got a military background, but he takes an oddly entertaining approach to it. Imagine a stand-up comedian who accidentally enlisted as a drill sergeant.

@  Nevermore : (19 October 2019 - 12:54 PM)

Another type of everyday absurdity: Imagine you're leaving your workplace for your lunchbreak. Upon your return, you discover that your workplace has been cordened and/or gated off during your break, with "construction site" warning signs everywhere. You go to your superior and tell him: "I can no longer access my workplace! Why is there suddenly a construction site?" Your superior takes a surpised look and says: "I don't know, first time I see this." You figure: "Must be a Tuesday, then."

@  Nevermore : (19 October 2019 - 12:51 PM)

It's kind of surreal, really.

@  Nevermore : (19 October 2019 - 12:50 PM)

They agree that things are less than ideal, but they acknowledge that their scope of making decisions is limited. Oddly, I keep getting that regardless of how high up the chain of command I bother people.

@  Nevermore : (19 October 2019 - 12:49 PM)

"I hear you, but you know how it is, there's nothing I can do about it." That's it, basically.

@  TheMightyMol... : (19 October 2019 - 06:40 AM)

What's it like to have management that's willing to listen to things they don't want to hear? I've never seen that.

@  Nevermore : (19 October 2019 - 04:41 AM)

I manage to argue within the company's own internal logic and point out the flaws, shortcomings and discrepancies between "official company policy" and "everyday company reality".

@  Nevermore : (19 October 2019 - 04:40 AM)

Many of my coworkers are scared to even talk to managers. I often discuss company matters with them I disagree with, and it isn't a rare occurrence that they say "yeah, you're right..."

@  Nevermore : (19 October 2019 - 04:38 AM)

I know how to watch my tone, and I prefer to keep things straightforward and factual, never to attack the person, always the problem itself.

@  Nevermore : (19 October 2019 - 04:37 AM)

The good thing for me is ever since a minor hiccup many years ago when I was still non-permanent, I've always managed to along just fine with my various superiors (I've been through over a dozen already). And that's despite my outspokenness, my blunt honesty and my oftentimes harsh criticism.

@  Sabrblade : (18 October 2019 - 11:04 PM)

With visuals presented by the Cybernet Space Cube

@  Dekafox : (18 October 2019 - 04:51 PM)

And don't forget to sign up for a cybersecurity seminar while you're there

@  Dekafox : (18 October 2019 - 04:47 PM)

Well you can always strap on some cyberlimbs and go into cyberspace for a cyberpunk experience

@  NotVeryKnightly : (18 October 2019 - 04:28 PM)

You know that "cyber" doesn't mean "cyborg", right?

@  Maximus Ambus : (18 October 2019 - 04:16 PM)

So where's the Cyborgs on CYBERtron?

@  The Doctor Who : (18 October 2019 - 03:47 PM)

Click here and we can send you notifications about your desire to discontinue notifications!

@  Benbot : (18 October 2019 - 10:40 AM)

Why does every damn website want to send me notifications? NO, no one wants your popups! Quit asking!

@  Echowarrior : (18 October 2019 - 09:19 AM)

Amazon in the US has pretty good benefits, though, and even the temp workers had forty hours a week to start with. Even with minimum wage, that's pretty good pay.

@  Nevermore : (18 October 2019 - 01:20 AM)

Oh, the turnover rates are high here as well.

@  TM2-Megatron : (17 October 2019 - 09:45 PM)

Amazon.com and .ca, on the other hand, can be pretty terrible. I know from your squawkbox posts that you guys have your issues with Amazon over there, although you're lucky to have stronger government regulations and a union there. I gather the warehouse workers in the USA and Canada have it pretty crappy, with very high turnover, close to minimum wage pay, and no unions

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The importance of self-care

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Posted 13 September 2016 - 11:34 PM

Greetings all.


I know I've been gone a while, and if it worried any of you, I apologize for the concern.


As most of you know, I suffer from depression, and I've talked about it here both publicly and privately before. Its been particularly bad this year, as has my anxiety. I bottomed out in May, feeling as if my medication was doing precious little to stave off my anxiety and sense of hopelessness, and decided to seek psychiatric care. However, I wasn't able to see anyone until late last month.


In the interim I've been in a self-preservation mode to reduce my anxiety. I barely had the emotional reserves to deal with people at work, and pretty much nothing else left over for dealing with anyone else outside of my family. I couldn't deal with most news, particularly political, and so I decided to stay away from social media, message-boards, and so on. Instead I buried myself in books, movies, TV shows, and Transformers customs.


Anyway, I finally started counseling again for the first time in years, and have been placed on an additional medication for anxiety. It helps, but leaves me physically exhausted for large chunks of time. Hopefully that will lessen as I adjust further to the medication. Despite the lessened anxiety, I'm still not likely to frequent facebook or P&R, at least not until the election has passed. Its just too irritating and upsetting.


Despite everything, I'm thankful: thankful that I had self-awareness to know when I had reached the end of my ability to cope and sought out help. I'm not proud of the way I tend to become a hermit when things are at their worst, but sometimes you have to do what you can to take care of yourself, even if its an imperfect solution. What I want out of my life is to be energized, active, and creative. I hope to find these things again on a consistent basis.


At any rate, I wanted to let people know that I'm on the mend, and hope everyone is doing well. I owe a couple of custom items to a couple of people as well, and will get that sorted too.


My best to everyone.

Edited by CORVUS, 13 September 2016 - 11:37 PM.

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Posted 13 September 2016 - 11:48 PM

Glad to have you back.

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Posted 14 September 2016 - 12:08 AM

Glad to hear it's getting a little better. Never be ashamed of the way you've found to handle this. Doing something about it is always something to be proud of.


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Posted 14 September 2016 - 07:33 AM

Ah, that sounds like it got pretty rough for you, so I'm glad you're on the mend. And good to see you around again. :)

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Posted 14 September 2016 - 12:24 PM

I completely know where youre coming from, brother. After my suicide attempt and subsequent hospitalization earlier this year, i've become much better at recognizing when I need to take a little extra care of my mental self.


The "hermit" part of it is one of the more crappier aspects, isn't it? My major issue with social media, when I'm at my worst, is what I refer to as "other peoples problems". Like, I'm laying in bed in pain, depressed, sad, and even knowing its the most self-centered thought process, I get angry that friends or family have problems and aren't thinking about my problems. It makes me feel like I don't exist. Or it'll be something like my mom will be talking about people we know going through things and i'll ask, "Do you think those people are sitting around talking about MY Pain?"...My therapist hopes i'll be able to work through the "i don't exist." thing soon.


And while more often than not​ I am angry at the hell that is my life, its been 7 months since Death was an option, and I am beyond thankful that said option is off the table.


I know I'm rambling, sorry, I'm just glad you're working on it and getting help. Help, in the form of therapy, and meds (when needed), saves lives. Best of luck with stuff, Corvus. =]



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Posted 14 September 2016 - 02:47 PM

Glad you're on the upswing again, man.

I hear you on being thankful for being aware of what's going on in your head. Even if you can't stop it, at least you can seek out help.

Hope things stay that way for a good long time!




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Posted 14 September 2016 - 02:49 PM

Thank you for your post, D, I don't consider it rambling at all.


I'm glad you are doing better. I didn't go as far as an attempt, but I woke up one Sunday in May, and I sat here contemplating the .22 pistol in my drawer, and I could not promise myself or anyone else that I would not use it on myself. So, I got up, breaking down as I went, and got my wife and told her to please take the gun away, which she did. I subsequently called in to work that day (which I so rarely do) because I felt so totally defeated and brittle. I realized that I had put off counseling for far too long, and in the interim I sought an adjustment of my wellbutrin from my GP, which she agreed to. It took me a while to find therapy because of backlogs of available clinics, but I managed until I could do so.


Good luck to you as well, and thank you all: Cat, Patchouli, Fnu, D, and TDW  :)

Edited by CORVUS, 14 September 2016 - 02:51 PM.

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Posted 14 September 2016 - 03:25 PM

I've been here long enough to notice when you go, and it's always good to see you come back.

I won't pretend to understand what you're going through, but I hope that places like this can provide an escape when you need it.

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Posted 14 September 2016 - 03:40 PM

You and I might not be the best of friends here on the Spark Corvus, but It's good to see you doing Better.   

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Do what you need to get to that place where the monster inside isn't dragging you down.  I need you around to argue with... DAMNIT

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Posted 15 September 2016 - 12:44 AM

I know what you guys mean about the hermit thing. I have a panic disorder, and I call it the turtle response. I just kind of withdraw from things. Even good things, if there's too much going on. Years ago I used to play that vampire game where you'd post your links to get bites, and I got into a fairly busy clan. Every time I logged on to ICQ (remember huggin' ICQ?) I'd immediately get spammed with at least a half dozen friends wanting to talk. And so I stopped playing or even logging on to IMs , even though I was having fun, because.. I don't know. I couldn't process it all? I haven't used an instant messenger since then, come to think of it.

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