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@  TheMightyMol... : (14 December 2019 - 04:04 PM)

Well, did you get water?

@  wonko the sane? : (14 December 2019 - 01:56 PM)

Went to the bathroom, shaved, baked a cake... wait, I only got up to get some water...

@  unluckiness : (14 December 2019 - 09:01 AM)

That's a common misconception. You see compared to the first run, it's a new mold.

@  PlutoniumBoss : (14 December 2019 - 03:27 AM)

Wouldn't that just add packaging authenticity? :D

@  SHIELD Agent 47 : (14 December 2019 - 01:44 AM)

I read a anecdote of someone recently receiving a Glacialord with mold because apparently online stores' warehouses have been sitting on Fansproject products like that for years.

@  Rycochet : (13 December 2019 - 11:56 AM)

Unlike many of his peers, Morton diesn't seem to have gone out of his way to try and take every drug going so he's aged remarkably well.

@  Donocropolis : (13 December 2019 - 11:39 AM)

Doesn't seem to have been a market for it, which is too bad, because it perfectly does what it sets out to do.

@  Donocropolis : (13 December 2019 - 11:38 AM)

Just opened it and suddenly I'm 9 years old again.

@  Donocropolis : (13 December 2019 - 11:38 AM)

Bought myself Fansproject Glacialord for my birthday during their Black Friday sale.

@  Nevermore : (12 December 2019 - 07:45 PM)

Morten Harket of A-ha might have aged 35 years on the outside, but his voice is still pretty much the same as it was in 1984. That's some great training and exercise for you.

@  wonko the sane? : (12 December 2019 - 06:59 PM)

Depends entirely on how badly you cooked them. What?

@  TheMightyMol... : (12 December 2019 - 05:33 PM)

Can it raise the dead?

@  RichardT1977 : (12 December 2019 - 05:33 PM)

Cheddar can do just about anything.

@  RichardT1977 : (12 December 2019 - 05:32 PM)

Cream cheese has to be on a bagel or crackers.

@  RichardT1977 : (12 December 2019 - 05:31 PM)

(for example: I like Swiss cheese on sandwiches, but find it merely tolerable by itself)

@  RichardT1977 : (12 December 2019 - 05:30 PM)

I mean are you eating it by itself? With crackers? On a sandwich?

@  TheMightyMol... : (12 December 2019 - 04:48 PM)

I would ask, but I'd rather not know.

@  PlutoniumBoss : (12 December 2019 - 03:38 PM)

With my mouth, usually.

@  RichardT1977 : (12 December 2019 - 08:48 AM)

Depends on how you're eating it.

@  PlutoniumBoss : (12 December 2019 - 01:40 AM)

Havarti, without a doubt.

@  Greebtron : (12 December 2019 - 01:28 AM)

Not Don, thanks. I'd like a writer who actually cares enough to do the job properly

@  Benbot : (11 December 2019 - 09:34 PM)

What's your favorite cheese? I'm not sure, but it's hard to beat muenster.

@  Maximus Ambus : (11 December 2019 - 05:10 PM)

Man I wish IDW could do a season 2.5 with a few writers like Michael Charles Hill or Donald F Glut or Paul Davids involved.

@  TheMightyMol... : (11 December 2019 - 04:33 PM)

They were looking for Skids, but the animators forgot he existed again.

@  Maximus Ambus : (11 December 2019 - 02:58 PM)

He regrouped with Omega Supreme, the Dinobots, Skyfire and the Protectobots.

@  Benbot : (11 December 2019 - 08:20 AM)

Did he get infected with the rest of the Autobots or did he smartly remain off-planet?

@  TheMightyMol... : (11 December 2019 - 05:38 AM)

He really just went to the beach for a couple of days, then called it in. Who's gonna follow up on it?

@  Maximus Ambus : (11 December 2019 - 05:05 AM)

Anyone really believe Cosmos searched far enough for more ingredient for Corrostop?

@  Nevermore : (11 December 2019 - 03:48 AM)

Oh, we are pretty good at "forgetting" about that. Insisting on sending people home on their overtime, THEN suddenly rushing to do the "backlog" stuff when it's really overdue.

@  wonko the sane? : (10 December 2019 - 05:43 PM)

I've yet to find an organization which didn't have a backlog of "stuff" that needs to be done, but isn't important enough to put on the schedule proper.

@  TM2-Megatron : (10 December 2019 - 05:01 PM)

I'm sure most good/bad (depending on your POV) bosses would be able to find something for the worker to do, in most cases, even if it's spending 8 hours pretending to push a broom around

@  Tm_Silverclaw : (10 December 2019 - 04:39 PM)

Still better than American jobs. x.x;

@  NotVeryKnightly : (10 December 2019 - 11:10 AM)

I'm pretty sure you've already mentioned this before. Especially that last one.

@  Nevermore : (10 December 2019 - 11:05 AM)

That can be fun if you're strong-willed enough. "Hey, you want to go home? Overtime reduction, there's nothing to do..." - "Nah, not today. I want to work."

@  Nevermore : (10 December 2019 - 11:04 AM)

This applies to the field of work as well. Meaning, your boss orders you to show up for a full shift, you show up on time and are absolutely willing to work, and then your boss realizes he has no work for you, your boss has to pay you for a full shift even if you don't work at all.

@  Nevermore : (10 December 2019 - 11:03 AM)

Fun fact: German law has a concept named "default in acceptance", which postulates that if there is a "service for payment" contract, the party that should provide the service correctly offers their due service, and the party that should pay fails to accept the service within due time, the second party still has to pay the first party even if there was no service delivered.

@  wonko the sane? : (08 December 2019 - 10:54 PM)

If it's seasonal affective disorder, check with your doc about vitamin D supplements.

@  Maximus Ambus : (08 December 2019 - 12:46 PM)

That's what I was thinking too, It's the christmas rush and if that's not stressful enough the cold weather can also impact mental health.

@  wonko the sane? : (08 December 2019 - 12:41 PM)

Might be a stupid question given the comment, BUT: have you done anything outside the ordinary lately? Might just be a stress reaction.

@  Maximus Ambus : (08 December 2019 - 12:29 PM)

I've experienced sleep paralysis with ghostly images and similar things in the past and can snap out of it through moving my fingers. I've definitely hallucinated before and members of both sides of the family have had similar experience, some suffered forms of mental instability in two cases schizophrenia.

@  wonko the sane? : (08 December 2019 - 10:47 AM)

So... either a hallucination or night terrors. Are you prone to this kind of thing?

@  Maximus Ambus : (07 December 2019 - 11:55 PM)

It kept repeating until I sat up.

@  Maximus Ambus : (07 December 2019 - 11:54 PM)

I've been up since three and when sheepish I was hallucinating something knocking twice against my bedroom door.

@  TheMightyMol... : (07 December 2019 - 06:58 PM)

Then repaint Apeface and Snapdragon as Transmetal Optimus Primal and Megatron. It's crazy enough to work.

@  PlutoniumBoss : (07 December 2019 - 05:32 PM)

Moral imperative.

@  Nevermore : (07 December 2019 - 05:13 PM)

Wishful thinking, rumor or leak?

@  Maximus Ambus : (07 December 2019 - 04:48 PM)

Snapdragon for Earthrise.

@  TM2-Megatron : (04 December 2019 - 10:22 PM)

Still not the weirdest thing a Nic Cage character has done in a film

@  TheMightyMol... : (04 December 2019 - 04:00 PM)

Couldn't be worse than him pissing fire as Ghost Rider.

@  Rycochet : (04 December 2019 - 03:38 PM)

The Tim Burton Superman Movie is the DC movie we deserve. It would have Nic Cage in a technosuit punching polarbears.


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#1 CORVUS

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Posted 13 September 2016 - 11:34 PM

Greetings all.

 

I know I've been gone a while, and if it worried any of you, I apologize for the concern.

 

As most of you know, I suffer from depression, and I've talked about it here both publicly and privately before. Its been particularly bad this year, as has my anxiety. I bottomed out in May, feeling as if my medication was doing precious little to stave off my anxiety and sense of hopelessness, and decided to seek psychiatric care. However, I wasn't able to see anyone until late last month.

 

In the interim I've been in a self-preservation mode to reduce my anxiety. I barely had the emotional reserves to deal with people at work, and pretty much nothing else left over for dealing with anyone else outside of my family. I couldn't deal with most news, particularly political, and so I decided to stay away from social media, message-boards, and so on. Instead I buried myself in books, movies, TV shows, and Transformers customs.

 

Anyway, I finally started counseling again for the first time in years, and have been placed on an additional medication for anxiety. It helps, but leaves me physically exhausted for large chunks of time. Hopefully that will lessen as I adjust further to the medication. Despite the lessened anxiety, I'm still not likely to frequent facebook or P&R, at least not until the election has passed. Its just too irritating and upsetting.

 

Despite everything, I'm thankful: thankful that I had self-awareness to know when I had reached the end of my ability to cope and sought out help. I'm not proud of the way I tend to become a hermit when things are at their worst, but sometimes you have to do what you can to take care of yourself, even if its an imperfect solution. What I want out of my life is to be energized, active, and creative. I hope to find these things again on a consistent basis.

 

At any rate, I wanted to let people know that I'm on the mend, and hope everyone is doing well. I owe a couple of custom items to a couple of people as well, and will get that sorted too.

 

My best to everyone.


Edited by CORVUS, 13 September 2016 - 11:37 PM.

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Posted 13 September 2016 - 11:48 PM

Glad to have you back.

#3 Fnu Aw

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Posted 14 September 2016 - 12:08 AM

Glad to hear it's getting a little better. Never be ashamed of the way you've found to handle this. Doing something about it is always something to be proud of.


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Posted 14 September 2016 - 07:33 AM

Ah, that sounds like it got pretty rough for you, so I'm glad you're on the mend. And good to see you around again. :)

#5 D Immortalis

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Posted 14 September 2016 - 12:24 PM

I completely know where youre coming from, brother. After my suicide attempt and subsequent hospitalization earlier this year, i've become much better at recognizing when I need to take a little extra care of my mental self.

 

The "hermit" part of it is one of the more crappier aspects, isn't it? My major issue with social media, when I'm at my worst, is what I refer to as "other peoples problems". Like, I'm laying in bed in pain, depressed, sad, and even knowing its the most self-centered thought process, I get angry that friends or family have problems and aren't thinking about my problems. It makes me feel like I don't exist. Or it'll be something like my mom will be talking about people we know going through things and i'll ask, "Do you think those people are sitting around talking about MY Pain?"...My therapist hopes i'll be able to work through the "i don't exist." thing soon.

 

And while more often than not​ I am angry at the hell that is my life, its been 7 months since Death was an option, and I am beyond thankful that said option is off the table.

 

I know I'm rambling, sorry, I'm just glad you're working on it and getting help. Help, in the form of therapy, and meds (when needed), saves lives. Best of luck with stuff, Corvus. =]


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Posted 14 September 2016 - 02:47 PM

Glad you're on the upswing again, man.

I hear you on being thankful for being aware of what's going on in your head. Even if you can't stop it, at least you can seek out help.

Hope things stay that way for a good long time!

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Posted 14 September 2016 - 02:49 PM

Thank you for your post, D, I don't consider it rambling at all.

 

I'm glad you are doing better. I didn't go as far as an attempt, but I woke up one Sunday in May, and I sat here contemplating the .22 pistol in my drawer, and I could not promise myself or anyone else that I would not use it on myself. So, I got up, breaking down as I went, and got my wife and told her to please take the gun away, which she did. I subsequently called in to work that day (which I so rarely do) because I felt so totally defeated and brittle. I realized that I had put off counseling for far too long, and in the interim I sought an adjustment of my wellbutrin from my GP, which she agreed to. It took me a while to find therapy because of backlogs of available clinics, but I managed until I could do so.

 

Good luck to you as well, and thank you all: Cat, Patchouli, Fnu, D, and TDW  :)


Edited by CORVUS, 14 September 2016 - 02:51 PM.

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Posted 14 September 2016 - 03:25 PM

I've been here long enough to notice when you go, and it's always good to see you come back.

I won't pretend to understand what you're going through, but I hope that places like this can provide an escape when you need it.



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Posted 14 September 2016 - 03:40 PM

You and I might not be the best of friends here on the Spark Corvus, but It's good to see you doing Better.   

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Do what you need to get to that place where the monster inside isn't dragging you down.  I need you around to argue with... DAMNIT


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Posted 15 September 2016 - 12:44 AM

I know what you guys mean about the hermit thing. I have a panic disorder, and I call it the turtle response. I just kind of withdraw from things. Even good things, if there's too much going on. Years ago I used to play that vampire game where you'd post your links to get bites, and I got into a fairly busy clan. Every time I logged on to ICQ (remember huggin' ICQ?) I'd immediately get spammed with at least a half dozen friends wanting to talk. And so I stopped playing or even logging on to IMs , even though I was having fun, because.. I don't know. I couldn't process it all? I haven't used an instant messenger since then, come to think of it.


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