I know I've been gone a while, and if it worried any of you, I apologize for the concern.
As most of you know, I suffer from depression, and I've talked about it here both publicly and privately before. Its been particularly bad this year, as has my anxiety. I bottomed out in May, feeling as if my medication was doing precious little to stave off my anxiety and sense of hopelessness, and decided to seek psychiatric care. However, I wasn't able to see anyone until late last month.
In the interim I've been in a self-preservation mode to reduce my anxiety. I barely had the emotional reserves to deal with people at work, and pretty much nothing else left over for dealing with anyone else outside of my family. I couldn't deal with most news, particularly political, and so I decided to stay away from social media, message-boards, and so on. Instead I buried myself in books, movies, TV shows, and Transformers customs.
Anyway, I finally started counseling again for the first time in years, and have been placed on an additional medication for anxiety. It helps, but leaves me physically exhausted for large chunks of time. Hopefully that will lessen as I adjust further to the medication. Despite the lessened anxiety, I'm still not likely to frequent facebook or P&R, at least not until the election has passed. Its just too irritating and upsetting.
Despite everything, I'm thankful: thankful that I had self-awareness to know when I had reached the end of my ability to cope and sought out help. I'm not proud of the way I tend to become a hermit when things are at their worst, but sometimes you have to do what you can to take care of yourself, even if its an imperfect solution. What I want out of my life is to be energized, active, and creative. I hope to find these things again on a consistent basis.
At any rate, I wanted to let people know that I'm on the mend, and hope everyone is doing well. I owe a couple of custom items to a couple of people as well, and will get that sorted too.
My best to everyone.
Edited by CORVUS, 13 September 2016 - 11:37 PM.