I can definitely relate. I realized fairly quickly that whatever I want, it's not to be a man dressed as a woman. I got a cheap wig and only wore it a couple of times. It didn't fit super well and I probably could have fixed that by buying a better one, but what it did do was convince me that I wanted my hair to be longer for real. Similar with the gel bra inserts I got. I might wind up using those eventually to help look better (who the hell knows where I'm going to end up cup size and an issue trans women apparently face is that wider rib cages make your breasts look smaller), but again I'm not really interested in creating some kind of costume. I want to actually feel like a girl.
How I'm feeling already on the pills has really hammered that point home. If this is probably just the start of what it's going to feel like as I probably up the dosages later, I'm totally on board with this. This feeling is amazing. It's like I had some kind of cloud over my mind and I didn't realize it until this pulled it away. About the only reason I would stop taking them is to try the injection version.
Losing power sucks. I lost power at work yesterday and missed a bunch of hours because of it. Hope you get everything sorted out.
Oh, and about the choker, make sure to use a tape measure around your neck. Mine's big enough that most of the ones I find won't fit me.
Edited by Ashley, 12 February 2019 - 07:03 PM.