"If nothing we do matters, then all that matters is what we do" - Angel
Yes, me. Me, me, me. Me too!
42 years old
Oh lord, I have too many! Some of my many interests include Art, music, reading, movies and certain TV shows (like Buffy and Angel), basketball, the outdoors (walking, biking and swimming), comic books, video games, Hand Lasers, Transformers (natch) and The Crow.
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8 Jun 2013
Currently for Sale...
* Energon Omega Supreme - Complete!
* Classics Grimlock - Complete!
* Ultimate Battle deluxe Megatron - Complete!
* Beast Machines Mirage - Complete!
* RTS Mindset - Complete!
* RTS Legends Optimus Prime - MOC
* RTS Legends Starscream - MOC
Check out the auctions right here!
Possibly more to come!
8 May 2013
The price of fear is the loss of opportunity.
Last night I realized just how much my fear has cost me. I have lost something precious simply because I was too afraid to open my mouth and voice a certain truth about who I am, what I am, and how I live my life. A lie of omission, a piece of who I am hidden away.
The cost of my fear in this case was three years of loneliness, a loneliness that could have been mitigated or nearly eliminated. It cost me an opportunity at something that had the potential to be wonderful.
The saddest irony is that in this case the fear was wholly unjustified. The person from whom I hid this understands now and would have understood three years ago.
The full and crushing weight of this epiphany hit me last night with an unexpected fury, and I found I could not bear it. This morning I am left trying to pick up the emotional pieces. I will never forget the harshness of this lesson, and I will carry the shame of it with me for a very long time.
It is long since past time to start breaking the shackles of fear that I myself have forged, to stop letting my fears rule me, to shove past them so that something like this never happens again.
The fact that I hid away is that I am Polyamorous (as is my wife), and that I have defined myself as such for over 13 years. I have long known that I have the capability of having a deep, "romantic" love for more than one woman. I have hidden away from all but a select few because this lifestyle is not socially acceptable in this country. Many people fail to understand it, and instead deny it, condemn it, label it, or all of the above. In an episode of House M.D it was referred to as a "unicorn", which is simply an insulting way of saying that it does not exist. Sadly, in our sexually and emotionally repressed and backwards mess of a nation, an illicit affair built on deception and lies is more socially acceptable than consensual, ethical, and responsible non-monogamy.
This fact has raised my ire on many an occasion. But ire alone is not enough, because without action ire changes nothing, and thus the anger remains impotent. Polyamory will remain misunderstood and condemned unless people like myself who live this life take a stand, and are willing to not only explain the lifestyle, its complexities, its difficulties, and its rewards to those who ask, but to live that lifestyle with appropriate openness and integrity. To show the doubters that Polyamory is not only possible, but for many it exists and always has.
Time to step into the light of day. Most who know me will accept this, and those who do not will not deter me.
What happened to me over the past two nights will never happen to me again.
17 Mar 2013
Okay, with the exception of clear-coat, Megatron is finished!
Let's start with the fusion cannon, courtesy of Fakebuster83's shapeways shop. First, unpainted:
And Megatron with his new toy:
Here's the color rundown: Base coats of Testors MM Gunmetal and Battleship Gray, Citadel Mechrite Red, and Tamiya Purple. Washes in Citadel Badab Black. Details in Reaper Imperial Purple, Tamiya Red, Testors MM Dragon White and Deep Pearl Purple, and Citadel Mithril Silver. Dry-Brushing in Citadel Boltgun Metal and Mithril Silver, Testors MM Battleship Gray, Aluminum, and Steel.
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